I don't know if anyone else has this issue but I have over my life found myself cutting off the full joy of blessing! I know so many times I got an amazing trip, a day off or an exciting adventure fully paid for to some incredible place but because I need more flow for daily living, I would think, "How can I appreciate this when other things in life were not complete or flowing?' Yet isn't there always something in process in the cycle? Is that a reason not to feel fully the joy?

This has happened so many times in my life. I would get these incredible blessings. I would indulge in them and go to these wonderful places or enjoy the day off but there was a limit on my joy. I would feel so blessed then there was this ceiling that I felt in my nervous system. "Don't get too joyful or you still have this to manage and you need to worry about those things rather than revel too much in the blessing." It would bother me so and I would think "but Lyn, you don't get anything you don't deserve. Why not just revel instead of negate this magical occurrance?"

I think we all have this ancestral memory in us that must be cleared. A training of "You better watch as if you indulge too much it will be taken away! Or don't be too happy as misfortune is around the corner." Silly phrases that certainly didn't come from the true me as I don't generally think that way. I have always been able to see the good, enjoy another's blessing and revel in simple moments. I do know that there was an odd ceiling in me. Where the revel or savor would stop and the survival kick in. It would be mid adventure that common concerns would come in and take away the blessing being fully embodied. It was a nervous system thing I now know as I overcome that. I am sure many of you have been on vacation and you watch this kick in near the end where you are already planning the return. You have lost a few joyous days of vacation unsavored as you began the next week before it occurred. This non presence steals so much joy from us. 

We all come from immigrants and they had a hard life. They did not get to have the reflection, the joy, the convenience we do. If something went well, they were bracing for the other shoe to drop or the rug to be pulled out from under them. I've had a few of these experiences but not enough in this really plush life we live in this 2000, to build a strong pulse of that. We forget we were programmed since small fries of this survival mentality from many generations passed down in protection. It was not a conscious thing but a survival thing. In this time, most of us are not in sheer survival  as our ancestors. 

I stay often with my 90 year old aunt and I have seen where so many beliefs have come from our ancestry. It has been telling to see the anxiety, the worry, the concern, the "don't get to settled as a storm could be coming". She is a very happy girl and quite funny yet she has this underlying current of watch out. She worries for the worst and is so prepared just in case and very much a planner from how she had lived. She is my moms sister so I hear stories of a life so far away from mine and the reasons for this worry. Even though it is no longer part of her life, she still carries that as if it is here. My mom did as well and we used to try to say to her, that will never happen to you. It is not a real concern but it was in her program so she had a hard time releasing the worry. We all do. We are running out of date software.

As I have taken this 4 month long journey of such splendor and surprise, I have had the opportunity to watch this ancestral memory in action more than ever before. I have no real worries like the days of old but I watch a good thing occur and celebrate. Then in comes that survival thing, like that is enough joy, go back to bracing for the bad that rolls in now. I have been breathing through it to expand my joy longer and deeper. Letting my body know that I do not need to worry. I breathe to override this dna signal I have inside that really is not mine. 

We have so many of these things inside us that are unconscious. I believe we are in a time to create a new experience here by clearing these outdated fears. We have done this in many ways our whole life, expanded beyond our ancestors. There are ceilings or stop points within us that we can consciously breath through and expand to the true reality of today. Expanding the joy just one that is present for me now. I share to support you to also revel and savor more deeply. This is the security for me. When I can stay in a field of grace and blessing longer and more viscerally, I am opening the nervous system and human story to a more current time line.

I have found this most cute cozy nook on a magical piece of land with a breathtaking mountain view. I believe it will be my new home as I surf about the mountains in NC and see where  that permanent spot to be. It happened so magically through a minister friend, a new connection that flowed to me on this journey to land. Those bread crumbs we get in life where you put out an idea and then it returns in some odd yet mystical way. You know it is by divine design for you never could of conjured such ease and grace. Almost like it took no effort. I felt the land, the space small but the beauty perfect as that is what really grounds me. Others need other things but for me, land and beauty out my door are the security of safety. 

I thought "yes" and we met. Her friend was considering taking it so I said inwardly, what is mine will not come through panic and stress. Forward another week and now I am in the next step for procuring this lil space. As I go through the process and throughout it, I could hear, "better look at others too. What if this doesn't work out" or now you have this to do and that to do and I would find myself creating overwhelm and stress where it didn't need to be. Concern of my furniture would need to be sold and new things purchased. How will I store the others and how hard it will be to sort, move and the orchestration I must do alone. All these things that aren't even yet worries and most of them sequential steps that all moves involve and really are not a big problem. They are the joy of the journey that I was turning into worry or fearful things when this was what my 4 month trip was to be completed in. 

I breathed through it all and thought, these are not worries yet, you are making this all up in your head. It could go easily and smoothly. What fun it is to get new things and decorate a new spot with some old and new. Woman love this magic. How fun to finally feel you found the place to call home after so much search and travel. How brave I have been to hold and keep searching not in worry but with flow and intention that what is mine will show up. All the juicy goodness of this journey could easily be ruined by creating problems before they exist. Or by allowing that ceiling to stop me from really celebrating fully and joyfully for more than a moment the fun of the culmination of this journey.

I hope you see how we really do create problems and worries for ourselves when they don't yet exist. We cut short the celebration and joy of an achievement or completion of a project. We start more issue when there is no reason and reveling is the security of feeling so good about ourselves and in our nervous system. Cutting short the oxytocin moments and stepping back into the mind of hurry to the next step and make sure you see all sides. it is ludicrous when you really look at the stupidity and creation of nonsense when joy is here. I have decided no more. 

I expand the joy and stretch the limits of blessing and fun. You do this by noticing and breathing. Training the nervous system to feel safe for it is. These unconscious limits are not ours. They are an old story of protection we do not need. I have always been so lucky and things work out for me in magic ways. I do not need to understand or explain that. I need to fully revel in this everyday magic and allow my field to realize this is me. it is how it works for me and I can savor, revel as it stabilizes me. The worry, the thinking too far ahead throws me back into adrenal stress prematurely. It is not only unhealthy, it is just not real  There are no dinosaurs or true worries that a few breathes, a review of the situation and calm won't figure out. The immediate response of no safety is really a problem of health for us all. 

I complete that pattern of not savoring the true joy that comes to so many of us. No more ceiling here or creating problems where none yet exist. We all know it is the journey not the destination. I see how the reaction is to panic, be worried and brace myself for the next shoe to drop but I change that in awareness. That is what this time is about and this new world we are building. Making choices out of fear or from worry are not meant to be our operating way. We are too have more joy and abundance and that begins with reveling and savoring our good. Every last drop! Even if it takes a few conscious breathes to let go of the incomplete rings of panic inside us. 

We no longer have to live in adrenal stress and if we do, it is because we are not willing to really look at what is happening, have awareness and know what we can control and what we just need to flow with. Life has many twists and turns and I will no longer let the joy be lost in some unconscious pattern or ceiling. I will sip every last drop. I will allow that savoring to be my proof and security that life is good and joyful! I know we travel through many hairy places and to see our growth, our evolution, our expansion sets the tone of abundance. Not the worry of what could happen. That is old school thinking and I release it for me, my family and all humanity. Every turn supports the all and I invite you too to enjoy this expanding joy awareness. 

This is the new era and where we are in current time not ancestral time. Let us build this together. Reach out if you need support. This has become my embodiment, to experience the daily joy no matter what is outside!

It has been a long journey since I left Colorado in April. I have been across country to various spots, in PA for a month, to so many places in North Carolina, beach included and even South Carolina beaches. The mountains and lakes in this state so very beautiful! All in an effort to find that next spot to thrive and enjoy. I wanted to write about the most powerful learning I have had about safety. I have been off my farm for over 10 years and that was the last time I truly was in full safety.

Not that I don't feel safe but it took me years to learn that the safety is within, not in the outside conditions. I had never lived alone, never been out of my hometown for 56 years but a few years here and there. So the safety I knew being a Doylestown girl was never to be created in such that way again. I will never have such a community like that and it took me a while to recreate what safety, community and feeling at home meant. I wasn't ever scared as in fear of my life, but to have the reference points of a place I knew so well.

I enjoyed Colorado so thoroughly. I went to so many vestas, Rocky Mountain National Park many weekends in a row, hiking in snow and sunshine. On lakes, through canyons and gushing streams, so much terrain I never was clued in on. Even skiing and camping in the most remote places ever. It was so fun but it was not my land. After my daughter left, it felt very far away from all I knew of the East Coast and not so easy to return. So I decided to come back east to where most of my family was, knowing that safety is often just community you love. PA also gave me that connection to remember all I know that out west seemed so far away.

Now after being about the state for about 3 months and in again so many waterfalls, vistas, mountains and beaches, I find that safety has yet another layer than just reference and familiarity. It really begins with me being fully in my body and sensing the world from there. For empaths, projectors or sensitives, they will understand what I mean. We get so overwhelmed by the energy of spaces that nature, outdoors with less people is where we can really feel ourselves. I knew it mentally, the grounding, the be in the body but I have finally gotten to where I know that embodiment feeling that all talk about.

It is visceral and like coming from the pelvic bowl of your being. If things scare me, I just jumped outside to my head or beside my body. It is a reaction created so long ago when I was little. With the world field so filled with fighting and negativity, it was just how I managed to surf the field. Now, after all this travel and home jumping, I have learned that true safety for woman comes from being fully in the body. It is such a powerful shift for me that I wanted to share for those whom may need it. 

I had to as I went to each land or place,  really sink inside myself to feel whether it was my home. I didn't want to use logic or this is the best place for business or to meet people but a place where I could just exhale and relax fully for no reason. As I began doing that along the way, it became clear that as long as I was in my body, most everywhere was safe. Yes the mountains resonate most to me here but honestly, safety and security can be created anywhere. It is an inside job. When I feel fully in my body, not outside it surfing the field if I am ok or safe, it easily tells me where to be and how. 

I am kind of amazed that I had not figured this out earlier with all my studies but perhaps we are in a time where safety really matters in a new way and I had to be ungrounded so to speak to realized what grounding really means. As a woman who flows so often with others and adapts and flexes, it was a beautiful thing to feel myself just as myself.  It sounds weird when I explain it but it is really a wonderful feeling. So many of us are up in our head and stop the inflow energy at the heart. Especially as woman, we are not fully in our body down to the root.

As I have been learning this, grounding fully inside and adapting and adjusting, I have found that when I fully sit in my pelvic bowl, life is easy and magical. The head and doing or worry is gone. The anticipate for safety is gone. The concern or problems are no longer controlling me in panic or anxiety. I am truly going with the flow knowing as I come from deep. inside my body, all is well. The mind takes a break and I use it for those things it is needed but it is no longer the commander of the ship. I think many need to learn this grounding within and we are creating it so we can develop a new world and new safety.

As woman it has been a long road to feel safe. Many of us in youth were not and so this shut off from the earth, from our body connection that is there. We don't really realize how much until we begin to practice it and then live it. That is the magic of feminine flow, in the safety we give ourselves by fully sinking inside ourselves. Not worried about who thinks what or how we are judged but how we sit in ourselves when alone. It is so simple yet we have not done it as a gender with all that has occurred. It is a cellular memory to fix the outside so we are safe. A man, a home, the money or a look. However, all along those things will never create safety. Only sitting inside, connected to the earth flow so feminine and supportive, will that true command and safety be felt 

We know this feeling for many times we are safe but to practice what that feels like in a conscious way really brings the roost of safety and magical living into play. We are not the same doers as men but a different set of gifts and energies is how we weave the world. We can never truly experience it often if we are not fully in the body and that requires safety. We could even be in safety but still caught in the loop of we are not and up too high in our reference that we can not create in our magical power. 

That seems why self love has been the importance key most speak of and we just couldn't get it. We know we need more time to ourselves but never give it for we are not fully in our body in our safe space. We are still jumping around adapting to others and we miss the sweet wonder of fill up from below or within first then flowing over. It is really quite ironic that since we didn't really understand the unsafe feeling that we have as a collective and in old times we needed men and others to survive. Now we don't. We can upgrade and give ourselves the opportunity to know safety and be in our body fully.

Our gifts, our ideas our notion of next comes from deep inside us. When we are settled and listening there, then we use our minds to create and find the solutions. We don't do it first from the mind without that safety or we just choose things for safety rather than true expressions of ourselves. We have done this for centuries and it is now time for a new way. This balance we are leading into comes from us within. safety first, in the body fully, ideas come, then the mind moves them. When we do it from our fullness, it works better for us.

Not from half safe or listening to others, or because this is what is done but from within ourselves fully, safety comes. From there overflow becomes so easy for we are fed. Allowing divinity from above and safety of the earth below, we are just the conduit for what is next. We have missed the value of below and the dishonor of the earth and woman has not supported us to learn. When we do practice what true safety feels like in our body, down to the pelvic bowl, the root, we are so much more powerful running the energies through our body.

It is so much less stressful, anxious, unsafe and panicky. As one on the road for over 4 months, it has been a blessing to learn. Had I never been on this journey, I may never of got the power of living fully in safety myself. From here we can direct and control, do and achieve in our magic way and use the mind to its proper end. We are just different with this feeling nature and body. We operate differently than testoserone and we have been creating as they do, burning ourselves out, not knowing our power or value and it is why we are unfulfilled no matter how beautiful it looks outside us. 

In the end, the truth of the matter is, I really had to embrace my lil girl inside and let her know I was sorry for not really mothering her the way I do others. That is where the self love comes in. Not as a practice but as I deep knowing we have not taken care of ourselves as well as others. As we do, as we create safety in the body, really sink into it and allow it to share its wisdom, intuition, we act from the center near our yoni, where we are the greatest, soft, gentle and vibrant creators we are.

It is such a beautiful understanding and I look forward to teaching and sharing this simple practice with others who are like me with this sensitive nature.  It is about pleasure, about savoring, about oxytocin and safety. Then the world will shift so fast like magic for we are the creators of life here. 

Connect with me for support in this most valuable learning of your power!

I feel like we are in the space between. The old world seems to be falling down and a new world wanting to form but we are not quite sure of what that is. We know what we would like to see yet the old structures hold tight. A big play to hold the old in existence yet it feels like we are just done with this injustice. Not sure how it will unwind yet open to it.

I find this as well in my own life as I seek to ground into a new land. I am sure many of us are in this in between even though it may not look as symbolic as mine. We all are shifting and changing in many ways whether it is health, being an empty nester, changing careers or resetting our marriage. All of us effected by the macrocasm. The larger field affects us all. I have found that the space, the openness is the gift.

We are not so comfortable with the openness, the unknown, the void of the inbetween. Things float by. Old tales, old memories even wounds, past stories as we await this new becoming. Day dreams come in too. What would be ideal, what we had wished for and never seemed to create,  ideas for the future. The space offers so much and it is like a bubbling cauldron of stuff within. As the secrets of the world come out, the illusions unwind, so mush our individual ideas be cleared and opened. It is a good place for it is clearing the undone by seeing it to intentionally complete in our minds eye. The famous letting go. It is not really an action to me, more a watching as the ships pass kind of feeling. Not clinging to anything but watching it pass.

The great in-between. The pause. The womb space of creation. It could be dark to some, for it is unformed so mystery is here. The ideas of whats next show up but we are not sure how it all will play out from the here to the there. The great place of creation and waiting, watching, seeking the form for our mind so we can settle. Until it shows up it can get hairy. We could clutch onto the old, or let the patterns repeat in yet another way. Or we could allow the drifting ships to pass so there is an openness for newness that we aren't sure what it is. 

I feel as though I have been in this space of drifting almost for 3 months. I don't put deadlines on things but I do put containers or parameters on what I would like to unfold. In this more fluid reality I have been living in, I find that my old certainties want to come in yet I easily outlast their call in a different way than before. They don't grip me or run my mind, they are like a background song that is fading. Each day I am really allowing a new mindset, new emotions, new signatures of me to form. Much more of the me that is authentic for I don't have the usual pressures to keep me in the old one. 

I write this to share the void and space I have inside for many may feel this as well. It is not a scary space, but it is an unformed space. I spent most of my life in one town in one story really. Then I went to Colorado and started a new one. Then I left to start yet another. I did not realize how I was in the same story because of the familiarity of my environment. It was alchemy to go to a new place which was chosen by my daughter really. Then she left and the next choice was mine. It became to be near family for that is all I have known. 

It confined the state or larger container but as I sit in this floating space, even that has fallen away. Now I am choosing for the feeling of the land and how I feel in the environment. The proximity to people and business but held by the land. All such different parameters than I ever chose for. It was always family, friends, children, familiarity. Now I am choosing by what feels the best in my being. Very different and at first quite unknown. But after some exploration, I can tell by my body feel. Where do I exhale the most and in ease?

Our body, our physical tool of this experience has more to do with things than our mind. I have talked emotions, energy in motion so many times for it is the great becoming we are entering in. Living in our bodies Allowing our high emotions, our best feeling self to also add into choice with our mind. Our body has been forgotten and the energy of it, its signs and signals have been unheard. We follow this mental matrix far too much and forget the other tools we have of our senses and our feeling state. Not to be run by as a wild horse but to allow the brilliance of the vehicle we ride in to weigh in on our choices. If we are all energy and we don't use the gift of the senses unseen to support riding energy, we are really missing most of the cues of life.

The fake this and fake that has us lost in a mental structure of shoulds and woulds that make no sense to most of us. The marketing and sales of a life well lived are based on markers that are external rather than internal. Well lived means we are alive inside fully feeling it all. Not thought forms over riding what makes sense or listening to bullshit as though it is logic. It all has become so much about programming and outside view that we have lost ourselves and our true being in the space of creation.

I too have been in this worm hole of humanity on many levels and feel we all are becoming aware of this. How what we do and why we do it are not really of ourselves. This is the in-between. Where you allow the old ideas to float off and the real essence of us come forward. We are all in this process together. Not many ahead or really no one for we are all processing the fake from the real together. The trust we had in the old is not there for it was misplaced. The values with in are calling for we over rode them for glory or fame or acceptance. Very weird time.

A time to really connect with ourselves inward so together we can create a very cool world outward. I find my life is unfolding so magically I could never of imagined such ease in letting go. The great dicotomy. The space in between. The space of epiphany. The space of creation in ease. Wow! Been wanting to feel this my whole life and alas it is here. The resonance, the frequency, the alignment, the grounding of in and out. And it is here for us all. We have been waiting for these very moments of where the pavement hits the road so to speak. 

Enjoy it. Play in it and watch what gets created. Sure some fall out will be yet the speed and magic that comes when the inner and outer align is lightening. May we all find this in between as the magical space it is. Time to allow a greater world in. Blessings to all at this very creative time.