Be Your Longing

As I enjoy doing some work in Durham, I am reading a book called Anam Cara. It means "soul friend' in Celtic and they take it to many levels inward and out.  I highly recommend if you like philosophy. It was given to me by a friend and for the snow storm, I brought it to read. I am thankful for its insights. One recent one was the word belonging. It shifted the word to  "be your longing". That transformed me in that moment. 

I went outside to catch some sun and let that resonate inside. Be-your-longing. I thought, what are my longings. The usual ones of being helpful, loving, caring, sharing, thriving, impacting and known came in quickly. Others surfaced after some time. It was a good little exercise that I had to write and share some of this shift in considering what it is to belong. In a new area, it is the beginning of the connection to life here.

In being those things, the longing is met. The desire to belong is met. The direction it gave me was quite fascinating viscerally. I loved the be part too. It is an active roll to be part. Not in a doing mode but in an experience or offering mode. So often we consider belonging to a group, or a family as something that we must do. Be your longing had more of a magnetizing quality to it and a state that was very different than I originally considered. 

Being my longing to connect is so directional to me. Connecting with all things not just people or groups. Be my longing to live connected to nature, to the larger field or to a purpose. It is not just a group, it widened to a larger picture of unity. Be my longing to love as a state of experience. Be love and allow the wonder to show up. Not something I do but a field of life I emanate. It has such a different direction to me. Be the longing to thrive. A forward motion that pulls rather than I push. A state of all things work rather than making it happen. Thriving becomes a state that doesn't depend on the circumstances. It is making lemonade out of lemons as much as great success to a project. 

Be my longing to share and impact. Knowing you already make a difference and add to people and places without exactly knowing why or what. It is a different kind of end goal that you leave open when you become your longing. It is already there first and then how it all plays out is not really a matter or question. It just is that you do add and participate and what occurs has openness and breath or space. It takes you from doing to being what it is you long for allowing an openness to drawn in its meaning. Maybe later you understand or maybe you don't ever have an understanding but you accomplish just by being in the state of sharing. 

There are many longings I went through. Partnership. Rather than look for partners, to be a partner to life. Letting whatever others come in to work or play with. It takes away the seeking end and gives a directional positioning. It is like putting a vibe in the field and seeing how that vibe works back to you. Very different than how I saw things before. Also very different to how I saw longing. 

I guess longing was like a seeking or a desire to be fulfilled. Yet, if you are your longing, then it is fulfilled and then how shows up is not really your concern. If I am my longing for love, I just be love to myself, others, the world and then it is filled. Without how or why or what, I just am that longing. I see how then that longing is fulfilled in the moment and then many magical moments  can come in on the field. The opposite of how I saw the word or the way I did things. It is like the line we say in my minister group,  Barush Bashan, the blessings already are. When you move to the blessings already are, they then appear. If you are looking for a blessing, it could come or not. And if you consider they already are, then the blessings show themselves. 

Maybe this too will shift your world of belonging as it has mine. Give you solid ground to stand on before you move. In being the longing, it is already complete. In that completion, so much can show up. It is like a new lens of the world from the being versus the doing. Not that you don't do, but that you do from the being of what it is your are doing for. Very magical point of view today. 

Be Your Longing and see what occurs. It feels less pressure, less confused, less figure it out. Far more alluring to the wonder of the world to come sit with you without you going out to find it! Nice in a chaotic world.