Being In the Void!

Have you ever felt like you were in a void? You are not what was but you are not yet what you will become? Of course, we are always becoming but there are moments where you just seem to be in a lost abyss. It isn't heavy or too dark, just not yet sure what will unfold next? We know what we want but we are awaiting the flow of it.

I am in that spot right now. I know where I am going yet I am quiet inside. There is no clear action to take other than the usual daily things. It is like getting to the other side of something. I often think I have been here for years in a way. I left my farm a long time ago and I can't quite yet say I have landed to such a peaceful, certain place I felt there since then. I have lived a lot but it just hasn't all added up to knowing exactly what I left for. 

When I left it seemed like there was something bigger out there for me to do. I felt like the whole farm was telling me to get out in the world. I did get out into the world and have done many things since then including supporting The Room at Meadowbrook, many odd jobs and moving to Colorado. I  am in a my own business, have a youtube channel with my daughter and even back into doing event flowers. Inside I have not yet been able to fully feel like this is why I left. 

I feel I am on a precipice of something so wonderful and fulfilling. When I moved I asked for the right things to come in and show me how I was to express now. Patience has been my milestone on this leg. Slowly, surely, things have unfolded beautifully. All the pieces are not yet there, at least in my mind. Maybe that is part of it. As the world is in such flux maybe the full picture will never be seen.  

As humans, uncertainty is often a trigger. For most of my life, it seemed that there was more certainty or we thought there was. Now, it is clear that we are not certain what will unfold. It seems so much sinister info on all fronts is becoming known. How it will destruct or construct is up for grabs. Perhaps our certainty was a myth to begin with. I want to embrace the mystery of not knowing like a movie. Parts of me are not open to that. 

I allow this feeling of void. I allow that I am open to newness. I know where I would like to be. I am taking actions  but not in the usual ambition mode. I have an openness that is not normal. I am ok not to know in many ways. I think the void is the creative space so it is kind of blurred or unknown. I am calmly walking through this void with as much openness as I can. It is trippy. I watch my desire to know come forward but remind my mind that if it is new, I will not be familiar or know it as something in the past. Very interesting spot.

Many are probably also in this void. I think the world at large is here. We are not sure exactly how things will play out. It is like being the baby in the womb. It has no idea what is coming next. It probably is scary on some levels especially the squish through the canal and the opening of the lungs. We are again in a birthing process. It is the powerful spot of creativity. The mush of the caterpillar cocoon. 

So to all of you in this void personally or globally, let us remember this is the place of greatest creativity. Our daydreams, our imagination, our leaning into things is done so well here. Patience is part of this. Do not allow the mind or fear to take you too far. Let the imagination create what you want not what you are afraid of. I know the world has fear all around us yet we can be imagining and inspiring a great new world. 

That is what I am doing here. Taking care of myself. Using my void time to imagine and feel in. Letting my mind be blank. Feeling in my heart my truth that goodness is about and will come in so large that I am preparing for it. Let me know if I can support you in this great creation. It certainly is the time to be alive if you are an adventurer. For it is beyond my ideas. Yet my ideas are needed as is all our energy toward a more beautiful world.