When I went out west so long ago, I purchased this stone image above in ceramics and it always resonated with me. In todays world, belonging, acceptance and cohesiveness is up for review. I have had a life journey of this and much of the judgement, exclusivity and ousting people from the group resonates deeply for me. I have always wanted to be open and accepting of others for I felt the not belonging in many areas of my life. I feel it has been a purpose to understand others and even if they believed different than me, to look for common ground even if it is small. Some of us learn this in family and we learn to connect against all odds of difference. 

Some you just won't find that thread and that is ok as well. I never felt it was ok to judge but discern, by saying inwardly,  "we are not on the same wave". I can open often  to not call it wrong but just not aligned to me.  I want to believe and be me, so I can allow others to be them in their ways. This is not easy and does take practice and feeling through my emotions to find that openness and clarity.

 I can say, for me, it is a survival mental pattern. If I don't belong, if I don't resonate with others or adjust, I will not survive. Often love or any thing we need was not available if we did not conform. I never understood this but it is very much in our humanity. All of us are divine, so it seemed unkind to not allow others to be what they are if I wanted to be what and who I am. I have had learning in this loop deeper and deeper through life. I think humanity has as well.  Are we going to get along and unite or are we going to fight?

Right now with the split in things as it is, I have reached in deeper to understand this thread of belonging in me and others. In reflection, I have realized that as I complete this loop in me, I can be part of creating  a new way. I can honor another's path without shifting mine. Many times, I was quiet or conformed to be liked or allowed in a circle for acceptance. Now I realize, if I just accept me and love me, the desire to belong is not so outside as it is an inside job. Love doesn't require alignment. It requires acceptance of all that is. 

Like nature accepts all the creatures and processes going on at once, I too, can accept all creatures and beliefs as her.  I don't have to agree or align, I can just move to areas more coherent to me and allow the others to be in their own coherence. This way I feel peaceful, I discern where I feel safe and move to that zone. I let others have their safe place too. Some live in the desert, others in the mountains and yet others at the beach. We all belong or we would not be here, alive at once. When I get triggered by another's belief or ideas, I just breath and allow the old loops to complete. Into the earth not up to my head to create a story or a mental loop of againstness. I find this to be very centering and peaceful. It is a chance for me to notice I have ancestral survival patterns inside that are ready to release back into the earth that holds it all. 

As I am ending a long journey of being on the rode and feeling for that area I resonant with and can belong in all my wholeness, I have learned a lot about belonging. Most of it is an inside job. I sense and feel where on earth, in this case, in NC, I feel the most stable and alive. I didn't listen to my mind of where is the most people to connect with or do my business. I allowed each area of the earth I went to, to speak to me in feeling and resonance. It was very different than how I went to Colorado. I went there for my daughter and it was a very logical outward choice. For this next chapter, I did it differently. 

I am going to live for a bit in the mountains around Ashville, a place I did not expect to go. I was considering closer to family, a different environment than mountains as I already did the great continental divide in Colorado. But in going about the different areas, there I felt an exhale and a great connection to lush beauty. It unfolded I knew people there, met others through connections and followed the breadcrumbs so to speak. However, the true test was how I felt there. I felt home like bucks county with winding roads and lush waters. 

How do I tie this into our current world? Well, I will be expanding to find my community and belonging there. I will open to new opportunities of people that I have never met and am really not sure I will find resonance. Many would say that being an open thinker and into the healing arts that makes sense. I just didn't want to go to an area where grief was prevalent from the flood a bit back.  However, grief is everywhere these days. As a farmer, the lush mountains called and I felt resonate within. I am sure as when I was in Colorado, I will find many others that don't resonate with me. I don't need to be concerned, for it is that way everywhere too. As I whole my resonance and values, I will find those through shear attraction. 

We are in a time with lots of judgment and exclusion that I really don't want to be part of. I don't believe in the ideology of our leaders on any side so rather than concern myself with that, something out of my circle of influence at this time, I will focus on what I can influence and engage in those that are resonant to my principles where ever I am. I do not think it is cut and dry as many are calling it. I think it is individual and the more I align my values to this changing world, the more I will draw experiences and people that hold that some resonance. 

We live in a harmonic field that has all the notes in it. As I find harmony and acceptance within, I will find that same harmonic outside me. I think we all could take a minute to find that peace and harmony within so all our worlds can be more naturally balanced. Our humanity is all the notes of the scale. Yet certain notes sound harmonious as others create discord. Knowing your harmony and rhythm will naturally bring you to a song that sings rather than one that is off key. These things make sense to me and that is all I am balancing for.

Belonging is important to us all. We need to find that for ourselves and as for me, instead of seeing the discord and calling it out, it feels better to keep looking for the harmonic. That is how I have taken this journey for a new home and it has flow. It seems to have served me in a discordant world. I will know when I get there and root in. I do feel the excitement of that expansion and find focusing on how I am adding to that harmonic in business, in friendship and in myself, I feel peace while there is craziness around. We only control ourselves and our contribution. The rest of nature is doing it's thing. We either harmonize and add our own note or we express discord. For some discord may be their purpose. For me I want to belong and feel the joy of that. I can only know my mission and do that and let others do theirs. 

So I offer those who do want to belong, to first realize your survival patterns that are deep in us all. We will survive and our ancestors had far more hardship than us. It has been proven through the generations and it is time to complete that loop. Sense your center and what you feel and seek those places to belong and feel safe. Safety for most of us is an inside job. Then add into that by contributing safety, harmony and connection. Some places just feel better than others for each of us. Seek those places and build. Building harmonic communities and allowing others to do what they are doing is far more powerful to me than fighting against anything. it is just my learning at this time so I share what is working for me and bringing joy, alignment, flow and peace.

For as I can clear the resistance and unsettled in me, I can resonant out peace and belonging so others can feel it. Songs do it, nature does it and so will we as humanity. I believe we will find a way that all the notes can find their place in harmony. Perhaps it wont happen fully in my lifetime but I can lay that ground work forward for the next generation. We all belong and we are just learning to create a system that allows all to be here in peace and collaboration. 

Much love on your journey! 

So I have been on the road now going on 5 months and will root in October in the mountains of NC. It has been such a journey of learning to flow. To not be grounded in my own place or in the beginning even know where that place would be, creates anxiety naturally. I could live in this adrenal stress and miss all the fun of this mystery.  We all live in far too much adrenal stress. Our body thinks we are in emergency when we are not. Being on the road this could amp up. Flowing and adapting to so many places and others has a bit of high alert. I wanted to reduce, relieve and clear that for I am not in danger. There has been fun at every turn.

In noticing this, not wanting to let this state run me, I have learned so much.  I have food, shelter and lovely people and experiences where ever I land. So it is not real to be in this anxiety. Our pattern of waiting for the other shoe to drop is deeply embedded in our body for many. Especially empaths, projectors in human design and woman. Safety is a luxury to our body and a healer. Even when we are safe, we don't really feel it to the core of full relax. This  has been my noticing and practice my whole journey. Really tapping into my body,  my emotional states, my mind to keep bringing me back to the joy and presence of where I am in that moment. We need to update this  safety in our body. 

In these conditions of travel, it is even harder with the uncertainty yet a good way to know if practices really work. I have gotten to states of relax and trust beyond any other time in my life. It feels so luxurious, a child like delight and a trusting vibe that produces what seems like magic. I have been in deep tears and fears, felt sad and all the other emotions too so this isn't just about fluff. It is the power to notice, release and relax that is the magic. The deep breathes and flowing feeling in the body my only tools. Nature too as I always find presence there and have deepened that. We can be in nature and still be clutched and thinking panic. It will soothe us deeper with the intention of  awareness and presence.

"Am I safe in this moment?" is a great question. Our mind makes up stories projecting forward that most will never come true. I have learned to abandon my mind unless doing business or an organizational tasks.I let it be the background sound. My mind was and defaults to overactive and my head clogged from too much fire, electricity or thinking. It doesn't allow energy to circulate through the body and these create burn out, clog and, over time, illness. I have a glaucoma eye that is softening so I know this overthinking, analytical thing well.

We are in a time where many are learning to embody this energy fully down to our toes. This electricity, spirit, God, fire of life is wanting to be more grounded in our physical being. Bringing down the minds ideas to feel and express and act or letting it circle on out if it is  not  needed. As I have learned the magic of our body in relaxed states, used properly, things needed magically are orchestrated, not thought into existence. We have been trained to think all into being and not included all our other parts of ourselves, like our energy body or the larger world we are connected too and creating in. It is not inert matter. It is a flowing life stream already doing its thing.  Our ideas are only the beginning  and why so many techniques don't work.  We are all students in this life force, learning to work with it.

Embodiment is allowing the flow of fire into your body. There are many systems, ayervedic, chinese medicine, yoga, qigong, nuerology, trying to explain to us how to truly ride in this body and be in full control. Not run by the mind, emotions, physical patterns or sensations but by our will of spirit. It is a new time for this and it has never been done as a collective in this current world condition. I feel as we do this, realizing we are using the earth forces to bring in our wonder, we will create a new world. Now we are operating outside the body mostly run by old patterns of human survival and existing like a whirlwind. Sometimes in charge, other times running old currents for years. Now we can really start to create intentionally and fully. It begins by being fully in the body deep down, the life stream flowing. 

Truly , this way to live that has so much more fun in it. It involves big trust that life supports you fully. We have not experienced that as young children so we go through that process of unwinding the old for this new frequency and trust.  For me, when my triggers come and it is always safety for me on some level, I allow them to pass saying, " I am completing this old spiral of energy." We have stuck experiences in our very cells. The triggers support us to notice and release. It is a good thing to sense that survival or fearful way. Breathing through it, allowing tears but with the idea of the witness of you knowing it is not happening now. It just feels like it is. You are now an adult and can reason or get out of the situation. You don't need to respond helplessly as a child with no wisdom or reacting with no awareness. I so often notice how many old fears are continually running us and it is not now. If we unconsciously operate as we have from them, we will just repeat the very things we are trying to transmute and grow from. 

I have learned life is richer when you notice, allow to feel and release right then and get back on balance. This unwinding has gotten my experience of life so much more rich and sensual. Colors are brighter, joy is richer, all experiences so much fully without the extreme survival tension holding me back. It is a process and I imagine I will go through it my whole life but I get the process now and don't need to be lost in the glitch of repeat. Our body is such a friend and shows us the way when we honor its talking rather than treat or fix it. Those are purposeful but in the future we will not heal in the way we do now. Maybe it will take 100 years but it is moving out. 

Anxiety to flow is the best way I can say it. I notice, I feel, I let the old complete and then energetically all releases for me down into the earth. Then a well of water, of nourishment arises and I feel so much better. Lighter, gigglier and more alive. I have unlayered so may tensions. Deeper and more keep showing up but I know the process, I feel the lightness. and it is quite fun after a bit. It is a youinverse. What we see outside is truly a product of our inside hidden depths. As we address in lightness and release, the inside feels clearer and  the world does the same. It is really quite magical. 

If you need support or any other chat on this please reach out. I learn so I can share and I feel so alive these days even without my home. It is found and now the logistics will play out in timing but I found how to manage anyway in full pleasure, joy and fun as I was homeless and searching. This is a feat I am so proud of and I learned so much about me, my body and how to surf the unknown. I am sure it came to me so I could share and help others learn resonance, balance and lightness. It is a magical world when you get into the flow. Water is the healer, the teacher of mechanics and world we live in. Flow indeed is far more fun than trapped fire of anxiety. Blessings to all! 

I don't know if anyone else has this issue but I have over my life found myself cutting off the full joy of blessing! I know so many times I got an amazing trip, a day off or an exciting adventure fully paid for to some incredible place but because I need more flow for daily living, I would think, "How can I appreciate this when other things in life were not complete or flowing?' Yet isn't there always something in process in the cycle? Is that a reason not to feel fully the joy?

This has happened so many times in my life. I would get these incredible blessings. I would indulge in them and go to these wonderful places or enjoy the day off but there was a limit on my joy. I would feel so blessed then there was this ceiling that I felt in my nervous system. "Don't get too joyful or you still have this to manage and you need to worry about those things rather than revel too much in the blessing." It would bother me so and I would think "but Lyn, you don't get anything you don't deserve. Why not just revel instead of negate this magical occurrance?"

I think we all have this ancestral memory in us that must be cleared. A training of "You better watch as if you indulge too much it will be taken away! Or don't be too happy as misfortune is around the corner." Silly phrases that certainly didn't come from the true me as I don't generally think that way. I have always been able to see the good, enjoy another's blessing and revel in simple moments. I do know that there was an odd ceiling in me. Where the revel or savor would stop and the survival kick in. It would be mid adventure that common concerns would come in and take away the blessing being fully embodied. It was a nervous system thing I now know as I overcome that. I am sure many of you have been on vacation and you watch this kick in near the end where you are already planning the return. You have lost a few joyous days of vacation unsavored as you began the next week before it occurred. This non presence steals so much joy from us. 

We all come from immigrants and they had a hard life. They did not get to have the reflection, the joy, the convenience we do. If something went well, they were bracing for the other shoe to drop or the rug to be pulled out from under them. I've had a few of these experiences but not enough in this really plush life we live in this 2000, to build a strong pulse of that. We forget we were programmed since small fries of this survival mentality from many generations passed down in protection. It was not a conscious thing but a survival thing. In this time, most of us are not in sheer survival  as our ancestors. 

I stay often with my 90 year old aunt and I have seen where so many beliefs have come from our ancestry. It has been telling to see the anxiety, the worry, the concern, the "don't get to settled as a storm could be coming". She is a very happy girl and quite funny yet she has this underlying current of watch out. She worries for the worst and is so prepared just in case and very much a planner from how she had lived. She is my moms sister so I hear stories of a life so far away from mine and the reasons for this worry. Even though it is no longer part of her life, she still carries that as if it is here. My mom did as well and we used to try to say to her, that will never happen to you. It is not a real concern but it was in her program so she had a hard time releasing the worry. We all do. We are running out of date software.

As I have taken this 4 month long journey of such splendor and surprise, I have had the opportunity to watch this ancestral memory in action more than ever before. I have no real worries like the days of old but I watch a good thing occur and celebrate. Then in comes that survival thing, like that is enough joy, go back to bracing for the bad that rolls in now. I have been breathing through it to expand my joy longer and deeper. Letting my body know that I do not need to worry. I breathe to override this dna signal I have inside that really is not mine. 

We have so many of these things inside us that are unconscious. I believe we are in a time to create a new experience here by clearing these outdated fears. We have done this in many ways our whole life, expanded beyond our ancestors. There are ceilings or stop points within us that we can consciously breath through and expand to the true reality of today. Expanding the joy just one that is present for me now. I share to support you to also revel and savor more deeply. This is the security for me. When I can stay in a field of grace and blessing longer and more viscerally, I am opening the nervous system and human story to a more current time line.

I have found this most cute cozy nook on a magical piece of land with a breathtaking mountain view. I believe it will be my new home as I surf about the mountains in NC and see where  that permanent spot to be. It happened so magically through a minister friend, a new connection that flowed to me on this journey to land. Those bread crumbs we get in life where you put out an idea and then it returns in some odd yet mystical way. You know it is by divine design for you never could of conjured such ease and grace. Almost like it took no effort. I felt the land, the space small but the beauty perfect as that is what really grounds me. Others need other things but for me, land and beauty out my door are the security of safety. 

I thought "yes" and we met. Her friend was considering taking it so I said inwardly, what is mine will not come through panic and stress. Forward another week and now I am in the next step for procuring this lil space. As I go through the process and throughout it, I could hear, "better look at others too. What if this doesn't work out" or now you have this to do and that to do and I would find myself creating overwhelm and stress where it didn't need to be. Concern of my furniture would need to be sold and new things purchased. How will I store the others and how hard it will be to sort, move and the orchestration I must do alone. All these things that aren't even yet worries and most of them sequential steps that all moves involve and really are not a big problem. They are the joy of the journey that I was turning into worry or fearful things when this was what my 4 month trip was to be completed in. 

I breathed through it all and thought, these are not worries yet, you are making this all up in your head. It could go easily and smoothly. What fun it is to get new things and decorate a new spot with some old and new. Woman love this magic. How fun to finally feel you found the place to call home after so much search and travel. How brave I have been to hold and keep searching not in worry but with flow and intention that what is mine will show up. All the juicy goodness of this journey could easily be ruined by creating problems before they exist. Or by allowing that ceiling to stop me from really celebrating fully and joyfully for more than a moment the fun of the culmination of this journey.

I hope you see how we really do create problems and worries for ourselves when they don't yet exist. We cut short the celebration and joy of an achievement or completion of a project. We start more issue when there is no reason and reveling is the security of feeling so good about ourselves and in our nervous system. Cutting short the oxytocin moments and stepping back into the mind of hurry to the next step and make sure you see all sides. it is ludicrous when you really look at the stupidity and creation of nonsense when joy is here. I have decided no more. 

I expand the joy and stretch the limits of blessing and fun. You do this by noticing and breathing. Training the nervous system to feel safe for it is. These unconscious limits are not ours. They are an old story of protection we do not need. I have always been so lucky and things work out for me in magic ways. I do not need to understand or explain that. I need to fully revel in this everyday magic and allow my field to realize this is me. it is how it works for me and I can savor, revel as it stabilizes me. The worry, the thinking too far ahead throws me back into adrenal stress prematurely. It is not only unhealthy, it is just not real  There are no dinosaurs or true worries that a few breathes, a review of the situation and calm won't figure out. The immediate response of no safety is really a problem of health for us all. 

I complete that pattern of not savoring the true joy that comes to so many of us. No more ceiling here or creating problems where none yet exist. We all know it is the journey not the destination. I see how the reaction is to panic, be worried and brace myself for the next shoe to drop but I change that in awareness. That is what this time is about and this new world we are building. Making choices out of fear or from worry are not meant to be our operating way. We are too have more joy and abundance and that begins with reveling and savoring our good. Every last drop! Even if it takes a few conscious breathes to let go of the incomplete rings of panic inside us. 

We no longer have to live in adrenal stress and if we do, it is because we are not willing to really look at what is happening, have awareness and know what we can control and what we just need to flow with. Life has many twists and turns and I will no longer let the joy be lost in some unconscious pattern or ceiling. I will sip every last drop. I will allow that savoring to be my proof and security that life is good and joyful! I know we travel through many hairy places and to see our growth, our evolution, our expansion sets the tone of abundance. Not the worry of what could happen. That is old school thinking and I release it for me, my family and all humanity. Every turn supports the all and I invite you too to enjoy this expanding joy awareness. 

This is the new era and where we are in current time not ancestral time. Let us build this together. Reach out if you need support. This has become my embodiment, to experience the daily joy no matter what is outside!

It has been a long journey since I left Colorado in April. I have been across country to various spots, in PA for a month, to so many places in North Carolina, beach included and even South Carolina beaches. The mountains and lakes in this state so very beautiful! All in an effort to find that next spot to thrive and enjoy. I wanted to write about the most powerful learning I have had about safety. I have been off my farm for over 10 years and that was the last time I truly was in full safety.

Not that I don't feel safe but it took me years to learn that the safety is within, not in the outside conditions. I had never lived alone, never been out of my hometown for 56 years but a few years here and there. So the safety I knew being a Doylestown girl was never to be created in such that way again. I will never have such a community like that and it took me a while to recreate what safety, community and feeling at home meant. I wasn't ever scared as in fear of my life, but to have the reference points of a place I knew so well.

I enjoyed Colorado so thoroughly. I went to so many vestas, Rocky Mountain National Park many weekends in a row, hiking in snow and sunshine. On lakes, through canyons and gushing streams, so much terrain I never was clued in on. Even skiing and camping in the most remote places ever. It was so fun but it was not my land. After my daughter left, it felt very far away from all I knew of the East Coast and not so easy to return. So I decided to come back east to where most of my family was, knowing that safety is often just community you love. PA also gave me that connection to remember all I know that out west seemed so far away.

Now after being about the state for about 3 months and in again so many waterfalls, vistas, mountains and beaches, I find that safety has yet another layer than just reference and familiarity. It really begins with me being fully in my body and sensing the world from there. For empaths, projectors or sensitives, they will understand what I mean. We get so overwhelmed by the energy of spaces that nature, outdoors with less people is where we can really feel ourselves. I knew it mentally, the grounding, the be in the body but I have finally gotten to where I know that embodiment feeling that all talk about.

It is visceral and like coming from the pelvic bowl of your being. If things scare me, I just jumped outside to my head or beside my body. It is a reaction created so long ago when I was little. With the world field so filled with fighting and negativity, it was just how I managed to surf the field. Now, after all this travel and home jumping, I have learned that true safety for woman comes from being fully in the body. It is such a powerful shift for me that I wanted to share for those whom may need it. 

I had to as I went to each land or place,  really sink inside myself to feel whether it was my home. I didn't want to use logic or this is the best place for business or to meet people but a place where I could just exhale and relax fully for no reason. As I began doing that along the way, it became clear that as long as I was in my body, most everywhere was safe. Yes the mountains resonate most to me here but honestly, safety and security can be created anywhere. It is an inside job. When I feel fully in my body, not outside it surfing the field if I am ok or safe, it easily tells me where to be and how. 

I am kind of amazed that I had not figured this out earlier with all my studies but perhaps we are in a time where safety really matters in a new way and I had to be ungrounded so to speak to realized what grounding really means. As a woman who flows so often with others and adapts and flexes, it was a beautiful thing to feel myself just as myself.  It sounds weird when I explain it but it is really a wonderful feeling. So many of us are up in our head and stop the inflow energy at the heart. Especially as woman, we are not fully in our body down to the root.

As I have been learning this, grounding fully inside and adapting and adjusting, I have found that when I fully sit in my pelvic bowl, life is easy and magical. The head and doing or worry is gone. The anticipate for safety is gone. The concern or problems are no longer controlling me in panic or anxiety. I am truly going with the flow knowing as I come from deep. inside my body, all is well. The mind takes a break and I use it for those things it is needed but it is no longer the commander of the ship. I think many need to learn this grounding within and we are creating it so we can develop a new world and new safety.

As woman it has been a long road to feel safe. Many of us in youth were not and so this shut off from the earth, from our body connection that is there. We don't really realize how much until we begin to practice it and then live it. That is the magic of feminine flow, in the safety we give ourselves by fully sinking inside ourselves. Not worried about who thinks what or how we are judged but how we sit in ourselves when alone. It is so simple yet we have not done it as a gender with all that has occurred. It is a cellular memory to fix the outside so we are safe. A man, a home, the money or a look. However, all along those things will never create safety. Only sitting inside, connected to the earth flow so feminine and supportive, will that true command and safety be felt 

We know this feeling for many times we are safe but to practice what that feels like in a conscious way really brings the roost of safety and magical living into play. We are not the same doers as men but a different set of gifts and energies is how we weave the world. We can never truly experience it often if we are not fully in the body and that requires safety. We could even be in safety but still caught in the loop of we are not and up too high in our reference that we can not create in our magical power. 

That seems why self love has been the importance key most speak of and we just couldn't get it. We know we need more time to ourselves but never give it for we are not fully in our body in our safe space. We are still jumping around adapting to others and we miss the sweet wonder of fill up from below or within first then flowing over. It is really quite ironic that since we didn't really understand the unsafe feeling that we have as a collective and in old times we needed men and others to survive. Now we don't. We can upgrade and give ourselves the opportunity to know safety and be in our body fully.

Our gifts, our ideas our notion of next comes from deep inside us. When we are settled and listening there, then we use our minds to create and find the solutions. We don't do it first from the mind without that safety or we just choose things for safety rather than true expressions of ourselves. We have done this for centuries and it is now time for a new way. This balance we are leading into comes from us within. safety first, in the body fully, ideas come, then the mind moves them. When we do it from our fullness, it works better for us.

Not from half safe or listening to others, or because this is what is done but from within ourselves fully, safety comes. From there overflow becomes so easy for we are fed. Allowing divinity from above and safety of the earth below, we are just the conduit for what is next. We have missed the value of below and the dishonor of the earth and woman has not supported us to learn. When we do practice what true safety feels like in our body, down to the pelvic bowl, the root, we are so much more powerful running the energies through our body.

It is so much less stressful, anxious, unsafe and panicky. As one on the road for over 4 months, it has been a blessing to learn. Had I never been on this journey, I may never of got the power of living fully in safety myself. From here we can direct and control, do and achieve in our magic way and use the mind to its proper end. We are just different with this feeling nature and body. We operate differently than testoserone and we have been creating as they do, burning ourselves out, not knowing our power or value and it is why we are unfulfilled no matter how beautiful it looks outside us. 

In the end, the truth of the matter is, I really had to embrace my lil girl inside and let her know I was sorry for not really mothering her the way I do others. That is where the self love comes in. Not as a practice but as I deep knowing we have not taken care of ourselves as well as others. As we do, as we create safety in the body, really sink into it and allow it to share its wisdom, intuition, we act from the center near our yoni, where we are the greatest, soft, gentle and vibrant creators we are.

It is such a beautiful understanding and I look forward to teaching and sharing this simple practice with others who are like me with this sensitive nature.  It is about pleasure, about savoring, about oxytocin and safety. Then the world will shift so fast like magic for we are the creators of life here. 

Connect with me for support in this most valuable learning of your power!

I feel like we are in the space between. The old world seems to be falling down and a new world wanting to form but we are not quite sure of what that is. We know what we would like to see yet the old structures hold tight. A big play to hold the old in existence yet it feels like we are just done with this injustice. Not sure how it will unwind yet open to it.

I find this as well in my own life as I seek to ground into a new land. I am sure many of us are in this in between even though it may not look as symbolic as mine. We all are shifting and changing in many ways whether it is health, being an empty nester, changing careers or resetting our marriage. All of us effected by the macrocasm. The larger field affects us all. I have found that the space, the openness is the gift.

We are not so comfortable with the openness, the unknown, the void of the inbetween. Things float by. Old tales, old memories even wounds, past stories as we await this new becoming. Day dreams come in too. What would be ideal, what we had wished for and never seemed to create,  ideas for the future. The space offers so much and it is like a bubbling cauldron of stuff within. As the secrets of the world come out, the illusions unwind, so mush our individual ideas be cleared and opened. It is a good place for it is clearing the undone by seeing it to intentionally complete in our minds eye. The famous letting go. It is not really an action to me, more a watching as the ships pass kind of feeling. Not clinging to anything but watching it pass.

The great in-between. The pause. The womb space of creation. It could be dark to some, for it is unformed so mystery is here. The ideas of whats next show up but we are not sure how it all will play out from the here to the there. The great place of creation and waiting, watching, seeking the form for our mind so we can settle. Until it shows up it can get hairy. We could clutch onto the old, or let the patterns repeat in yet another way. Or we could allow the drifting ships to pass so there is an openness for newness that we aren't sure what it is. 

I feel as though I have been in this space of drifting almost for 3 months. I don't put deadlines on things but I do put containers or parameters on what I would like to unfold. In this more fluid reality I have been living in, I find that my old certainties want to come in yet I easily outlast their call in a different way than before. They don't grip me or run my mind, they are like a background song that is fading. Each day I am really allowing a new mindset, new emotions, new signatures of me to form. Much more of the me that is authentic for I don't have the usual pressures to keep me in the old one. 

I write this to share the void and space I have inside for many may feel this as well. It is not a scary space, but it is an unformed space. I spent most of my life in one town in one story really. Then I went to Colorado and started a new one. Then I left to start yet another. I did not realize how I was in the same story because of the familiarity of my environment. It was alchemy to go to a new place which was chosen by my daughter really. Then she left and the next choice was mine. It became to be near family for that is all I have known. 

It confined the state or larger container but as I sit in this floating space, even that has fallen away. Now I am choosing for the feeling of the land and how I feel in the environment. The proximity to people and business but held by the land. All such different parameters than I ever chose for. It was always family, friends, children, familiarity. Now I am choosing by what feels the best in my being. Very different and at first quite unknown. But after some exploration, I can tell by my body feel. Where do I exhale the most and in ease?

Our body, our physical tool of this experience has more to do with things than our mind. I have talked emotions, energy in motion so many times for it is the great becoming we are entering in. Living in our bodies Allowing our high emotions, our best feeling self to also add into choice with our mind. Our body has been forgotten and the energy of it, its signs and signals have been unheard. We follow this mental matrix far too much and forget the other tools we have of our senses and our feeling state. Not to be run by as a wild horse but to allow the brilliance of the vehicle we ride in to weigh in on our choices. If we are all energy and we don't use the gift of the senses unseen to support riding energy, we are really missing most of the cues of life.

The fake this and fake that has us lost in a mental structure of shoulds and woulds that make no sense to most of us. The marketing and sales of a life well lived are based on markers that are external rather than internal. Well lived means we are alive inside fully feeling it all. Not thought forms over riding what makes sense or listening to bullshit as though it is logic. It all has become so much about programming and outside view that we have lost ourselves and our true being in the space of creation.

I too have been in this worm hole of humanity on many levels and feel we all are becoming aware of this. How what we do and why we do it are not really of ourselves. This is the in-between. Where you allow the old ideas to float off and the real essence of us come forward. We are all in this process together. Not many ahead or really no one for we are all processing the fake from the real together. The trust we had in the old is not there for it was misplaced. The values with in are calling for we over rode them for glory or fame or acceptance. Very weird time.

A time to really connect with ourselves inward so together we can create a very cool world outward. I find my life is unfolding so magically I could never of imagined such ease in letting go. The great dicotomy. The space in between. The space of epiphany. The space of creation in ease. Wow! Been wanting to feel this my whole life and alas it is here. The resonance, the frequency, the alignment, the grounding of in and out. And it is here for us all. We have been waiting for these very moments of where the pavement hits the road so to speak. 

Enjoy it. Play in it and watch what gets created. Sure some fall out will be yet the speed and magic that comes when the inner and outer align is lightening. May we all find this in between as the magical space it is. Time to allow a greater world in. Blessings to all at this very creative time. 

As I travel about looking for that land that calls me to be safe, settled and surrounded by the things that thrive me, I have learned about resonance. I think we don't really know that feeling of alignment, all is well, nothing to be done and to rest into yourself. I have learned how home is when I am feeling fully myself. Our world so much about production, outward vibe and presentation, we all hold so much of ourselves inside. We often tune to others resonance, needs, what needs to be done for others and our families, communitites and that is not our highest good.

I have really gotten to the place where when I am in resonance with me, feeling the world, enjoying myself, allowing myself to have no real schedule, I can create magic. We live trying to create the outside we want and not always in tune to our inside truly. I have been on the feminine mystery path for over 13 years and as the conditions open for us as woman, I really get the gift of empathy and smoothing the field. I get that most could not have this level of flexibility and trust as I travel nor would want to, but all can learn from me the true experience of sinking into yourself. Not for others, not for needs to be met, not for the world but for yourself. To feel that pleasure, entrained, resonant vibe of just feeling good. 

Most don't truly feel good inside. I know for many years I was balancing the outside with the within.It was about proving, being seen, getting out there, am I heard?  Along this journey I have inverted that view and it is far more about my inside vibe before any outside anything. We hear this but I finally got the embodiment of it. Where the inside desires are fulfilled when named, resonated with, felt and perhaps imagined. We don't really feel into what we want. We are chasing the world with what it wants for us. Yet it is not the same for everyone and we measure ourself against things that maybe aren't for us. I know I did. Now at this stage, it is what I want for me. It really has been a journey and revelation. 

We have our families, jobs, partners and children and for once I am coming from my center not others. I am asking does this vibe me, delight me? I check in often in the day to recalibrate to me. As a woman this is our advanced feminine nature that is awakening. Where we really do get ourselves set up first, fill up and check into our energy, our delight, our resonance, THEN as if what is before us is really for our good as well. Not all this servitude and then resentment for no return. It is often the silent cry of woman. 

I am enthused to put together retreats and classes with this resonance in mind. Not just flow but the feeling of being so authentically tuned into yourself. Not just doing to do but doing for delight and purpose if that matters. Not just being the model we were taught but creating life on our terms. Yes we take care of others but we are missing the take care of ourselves. This is the fine tuning and what creates that magnetic resonance field woman have. We have been draining it, getting ourselves ill, not knowing the true nature of our body and field of nourishing properly. It feels good to know that harmonic. 

Tune into yourself first if you want the magic of femininity. Not in selfishness but in centering to know what you can and can't do, what you really want and don't, what it really feels like when in fullness and rest. This is the authentic you that is being birthed. Get to know her as she has ease and grace, delight and fun, happiness beyond. I support you in this and invite you to connect with me or one of my retreats if you too are ready for this next level of flow, resonating to your own song!

Awwww a lovely morning in Weaverville NC outside Ashville. The views magical. The spot filled with wildlife, a humming bird came by this morning. What I have learned from my few days here is about patience. A trait that many of us are challenged by. In our fast world where answers are quick to come through AI and news flashes so much emergency, patience is a gift to cultivate.

As I travel the state, sell water filtration, visit nature  and discover new places, I am reminded of the garden pace. We want flowers to bloom as soon as we plant. However, the enchantment of watching it grow, nurturing it and then finally the flowers is the fun of it. Nature has a slower pace than the mind and our current world. It works cyclically, using the fibonacci form to unfurl. The leaves on a tree, the ways plants grow, the spiraling of water, all of it is progressing at a pace that is slower. The material world takes time to unfold. Living in it, why we think things are instantaneous is a story of the mind. 

The peacefulness of nature reminds me of patience. The mountains too. The big tall steady stature full of life has a feel of calm, settle, relax, allow, and take your time. Windy roads, big drops, nature flourishing, it is a place to take your time. Take our time. Wow, how often do we do that? I feel like this is a rarity. Taking my time is a powerful statement. First of all, it is my time, my timing and my rhythm? That is not others time, the worlds time or the timing of the mind. It is your time. Whatever that is. It shifts too. Sometimes faster and other times slower.

We are trained to reach for a goal, a destination and that we must get their efficiently, quickly and now! We put blinders on and go. We miss the things around us often, There could be side ways movement that seems inefficient yet that could be the path of greatest good. But our mind has its sights on straight and fast. Is that really the best way to go? Who's way is that? Is it yours or someone you heard or another's process? When you have your direction it works better to me. I know what I want and a path there but I allow the windy experience to unfold. I would miss so much if I just had my eye on the prize and missed all that went by.

I know there is a power to focus so I am not saying to be wishy washy. Soft focus is the best for your creating in your own way uniquely. Allow the world to work with you. It is not all your effort. When I was a grower that is what I learned so powerfully. Things are growing. With or without me, nature grows. I realized that if I added in here and there in the direction of the flowers I wanted, working with the cycle of life, I did far less than many growers trying to control the process. I interjected where I needed but didn't over nurture or panic that things weren't growing fast enough or blooming soon enough. I added where I could but it all was growing on its own. I let nature work.

I have taken this into life. I don't have to do all the work. Many times I am like all others thinking if I don't make it happen it won't. That is true on some level. You need to take action at certain points. It is not all action all the time. You get an idea in your head, you tie in your emotions and you align your physical actions with it yes. But is needs time for conditions to formulate. Our words and intentions are spells, they cast out ideas into the world. It takes a minute for this to be received and then orchestrated. Life is happening. With a few interjections here and there you steer. Not working like a ox. Timing is what it is and often you have no control like in a garden. No matter how hard I garden, the plants grow at their pace not mine. This is valuable to realize.

So we find patience is a key to all creation in form. This is a truth we all know. To get in shape, improve a relationship, build a business, get good at a skill, it all takes time. What do we do in between? How do we manage waiting? I have learned that this is where pleasure and leisure come in. Relax, enjoy yourself. See how things are moving forward and you have done what is necessary. Often we think do more, do more and yet more doing will not increase the cycle. It is larger than you, what you are working with and it has it's timing.

I know this is hard to hear to many. If things aren't how you want how can you relax and find pleasure? There must be something I can do to speed this up? There isn't usually. It is the feminine part of life that our production world has forgot. There is a rest in the work. There is playfulness between our work. There is nourishing that must occur so we can work focused. We can't work 24/7. We spend half our life asleep! There is a big clue. We need to use patience and enjoyment in our plan to create anything. 

Yes, when you feel "I need to be patient", there is your signal to enjoy life. This is time to count your blessings. Take a rest. Do something fun. Do something nourishing. Engage in fun. Take a break and giggle. It has taken a life of rushing to come to this simple answer I have heard so many times. My mind would fight it and say no I must make this happen, I must do something in the direction of my destination. Taking time out is doing something. It is allowing things to unfold like the garden. Be happy with yourself and actions and take an action to fuel. Woman are the agents of this refueling. We have forgotten our mastery of this. It is what we bring in. All so caught in production but we remember. We create the parties, celebrations, offer support and breaks, the listening, the giggles, the fun of life is brought in by us. 

It is called the rise of Divine Feminine .
Know one angle of this is to honor patience and enjoy yourself. Be merry as you must put down the doing and gather and enjoy. Maybe be alone and that is the pleasure. Ring out, take time, allow things to settle and find pleasure in that. That is what woman do. They take a mess and turn it into a celebration or some laughter. They fluff up the pleasure and joy as we all walk through so much crisis. We bring in the joyous moments while the mess is there. We take the reset, we provide the reset. So be clear within. When you feel patience is needed,  it is time for yin energy. Rest, digest, rejuvenate, renew, fill up and do that in whatever way you need in the moment. 

I am clear in this as I travel about looking for what town to live. I want to find that spot soon. Yet it is a project that will unfold and takes time. If I want the best choice, I need to visit and relax in places. See it and experience it. That takes time. I could just pick a spot and live there. But will it thrive me? Sure that is the efficient route. But is my heart going to sing? Sure I can have fun and adjust anywhere but why not have it be the perfect place for me right now at this stage in life. I can take time to use patience as fun to refuel and sense an area. Can I rest here? Can I refuel here? Are my people about? Is nature rich enough for me today? These things take time and I am taking it wisely.

I also believe a great force is with me. My higher soul, God, whatever name you use is guiding and creating with me. If I listen, I can be more like the paint brush than the painter. I can do my work but allow the world to adjust to my intention too. They call it divine timing. It requires patience. It requires enjoyment. We need more joy these days and it is build into the system. We just forgot. So let us remember the power of patience and timing. Your timing and the timing of the world. Let it evolve. Pray in the meantime or play. Whatever suits you. 

This is the power and fun of patience. I have often been put in patience and could do what I want and thought but I want to do and work. I want to be productive not rest or play. I felt like there is no time for that as I need this or that. All action coming from a fearful or hurry up energy. Recently it hit me. Play is the work in that moment. Stop and enjoy what is around you and find a way to enjoy yourself. After a bit, more action toward your goal will come in and then do it. Until then, relax. it is the recharge and the gift of refresh your energy so you have some for your work. Projector wisdom. I delight in it now. 

Use that desire to do, to do something fun and nourishing!

Reach out if you need support! We are in this together. I will be doing retreats later this year to support woman in this cultivation of using the divine feminine to rejuvenate!

It has taken me time to understand what the Feminine Teachers I learned from meant by woman will not be fulfilled in life if they do not develop a relationship with themselves. We spend our lives nourishing others easily and with abandon. We often do not put time to nourish us. We may want to but we get exhausted by nourishing everyone else. 

What I learned was that nourishing yourself was so powerful to nourish others. We have so many martyr rules that go against this. We feel guilty if we put ourselves first. It seems wrong or not nourishing. Yet if we don't nourish ourselves first then we are looking for others to nourish us. As we wait and look, and many don't know we need it or we don't tell them, we are left resentful and unnourished. In the feminine mysteries, the woman filled themselves and got their needs met themselves. They spoke up, asked for what they needed if they needed support. Many woman supported each other and shared their ways to nourish themselves properly. It is lost wisdom to us.

Over the years I have let this wisdom seep with in me. I have a few friends who naturally take care of themselves first. I missed that and saw more of the martyr role. And then heard and hear resentful woman that are expecting others to just know they need support or silently suffer putting passive aggressive energy into the room. How we are nourished and filled up is an individual thing. That is why that said woman must develop a relationship with themselves. Know their own needs, find ways to fulfill the and this is unique to others. 

I find when I awake and use my morning routine to fill me up I am nourishing myself. Considering my day, being greatful for what I have and then doing my tai chi, qigong practices sets me up. I drink a big glass of water and also take moments to savor my coffee while appreciate the beauty of nature I am surrounded by at the time. Being on the road and in new places, I have used this routine to center and start my day filled for the newness. I also find nature spots and moments in it so I can remember the parasympathetic nervous system oxytocin to calm my system from all the newness I have most days. 

I am strong in my spiritual study so I also listen to things that expand me in health, how to live better or inspiring information that support me to be in joy. We call all this high impressions which can be music, a book, quotes, videos, scripture, whatever it is that nourishes your spirit. The movement I do also brings in new oxygen, allows my lymph system to flow and supports the mechanics of my body. That is considered the second most effective nutriton behind high impressions.

Food wise, I eat colorful and organic, local or regenerative produced food when I can. This is the 3rd tear of nutrition and takes energy to create energy., so we spend less time being concerned about it.  The closer to the vine with the least preservatives is easiest for your body. These are basic nourishing with food that we all know. I also share this with my family and others. I do not cut costs on food. This is intuitive to most woman.

I also drink lots of water and am concerned with the water quality I take in. I have  filtered clean water in my home and shower. I also use hydrogen rich water from a Kangen ionizer to clear my body. I  use it for a chemical free home. When you experience your body in its true state without the chemicals in water and food, your hormones balance and find life to be more joyful. You also experience your body in balance in all ways so being positive, experiencing higher emotions is just a nature outcrop of this which many have never felt. My ionizer has been life changing for me.

I also am moving to NC where most of my family is. I think community is a great way for woman to nourish and build a relationship with themselves. For me this is fulfilling to see my nieces raise their children. I also need a environment that has lots of nature to nourish myself. Like minded growers and healers also nourish me with community. Womans groups as well so we can all learn from each other and realize woman have the same problems and we are not isolated or alone in our issues. Together we share solutions or ideas and support each other. 

I do feel for me my own spiritual study and aloneness with myself, a high impression is the way I fill with the sparkly gel of spirit. I am not tied to give this words as I feel we all reach for this wholeness of spirit. Whether it is called God, source, unity, light, love, each has its own word, it is the nourishment of self from the spirit of you or the spirit you are created from. It fuels me the most and love is the best word I have for it. When I take time to fill myself with this love, it then can flow out to others and I am not seeking them to nourish me.

I inspire you to find this relationship with yourself that fills you so you too can overflow. When I get resentful or feel exhausted, I go inward. It is my clue that I am not being a good friend to me. I am not putting me as a priority fueling myself with love from God so I can not begin to help others with clean energy. I have learned this is what they meant when they said as a woman I wouldn't be fulfilled by life unti I have a relationship with myself. Knowing me, what makes me feel good, energized, healthy, happy and content is my job. I get to chose my unique way to do that which can shift at any moment. I find it my job to learn and do what will fill me so I can better serve others with love and joy. 

May we learn this as woman so our world can be nurtured through this most challenging time.
Love and blessing to you embodying this. 

Gosh what a day! I have so much newness and change that a few things in the day are a big feat! I am sure many feel this way about some area of life . If not, the larger world climate is enough to find your bravery. To be hopeful, engage in bringing in bright energy and doing life is quite a feat these days. 

Today I spent time with chat gpt finding routes and towns to visit along with business events and family gathers. It is so brilliant but it answers so fast, I often keep going until it gives me far more info than I can digest. I have multiple routes and think around Lake Norman may be my new home. We will see. I chatted with an old friend that I will visit in Myrtle Beach, my sister about family matters, a new prospect who wants to get into the filtration industry that I met on neighbor, met a plumber about an install, spoke to a new sales rep on my team, visited with my Aunt whose 90 and had a computer issue so went to my cousins to get it fixed. I just finished a cup of tea and thought I am proud of me. 

We don't take time to appreciate ourselves enough. I have been so brave doing all these new things and still finding balance and joy.  I did not think at this point in life I'd be finding a new town in NC to live and explore. But life has it's way. Things go in all kinds of directions so you make the most and enjoy the ride. I figure this last 30,  I want my dreams fulfilled. I think being by a lake and mountains with beach not so far is good environment. Healthy people living in places that are active, care about health and wellness, enjoy the outdoors and have fun. That will be perfect. I am not far from famliy either. 

I do miss my daughter who was so heavy in my life. Her life has shifted to creating family in the UK. Very shifted. No more podcast, biz together, just a weekly chat. That is why I moved back east to be closer to other family. Who would of thought this fast twist all in a season? It is life. You keep going and play and create with the shifts. It takes bravery!

Living well is a commitment and a travel beyond what you thought. So many pass, children issues, parent issues, marriage issues, financial ups and downs., It is all life. The trick to joy is to go through it all and keep your heart open. It is all things and a challenge but there is great joy, beauty and love too. You get to choose what way you see it. Times get dark and tough but you feel, pray, connect with loved ones and you keep going. It takes bravery and a persistent attitude. This is life. When we get the moments like this 4th of July, you gather and celebrate. Good food, good chats, laughter and play. 

I just thought yesterday of the bravery it takes to live well. It made me think of those who came to the country to explore and build life in this great country. What bravery and courage our ancestors had. No electric, no cars, no stoves or appliance, a rugged bunch. So I too will feel that seed of bravery that is in my genes, my DNA and know this is our gift to live well. Through it all, we are made in to who we are today. The past paved the way for us so let us use and enjoy it.

May we treasure ourselves, our ancestors and our life we have here. Be proud. Recognize your own bravery and accomplishments. We ar in this together. Love wins in all ways always!

​A blessed holiday to you!