Let's Settle In!

Gosh what a journey life has been this past year. And it continues to morph beyond what we have known. I enthusiastically am settling in on many levels and I am sure others feel it too. Finally for the year, I have a new home and place to call my next chapter. From the planning to leave, the packing, the travel to find the next home, 5 months worth to now,  in Alexander about 6 weeks and the exhale feels great.

I also feel the great learning we are all in. From that journey to the transformation with in that has occurred for us all. Today, I feel so much more hopeful and relaxed than in a long time. The energies feel good and really my inward view has shifted. So much of my life was built on solving, proving and pushing. Now, I feel like I don't have that as the unconscious reason for most everything I do. We all were raised to be useful, offer support and be needed. I came at life thinking if I am not useful, I am not seen. It has taken a bit to really get to the bottom of things. I am sure others have found some of their unconscious motivations too that no longer serve.

In this whole journey, this transformation from Colorado to North Carolina, I learned that I really can make choices for myself in life and not depend on anything but what I want. This is new for me as many woman, we choose for our husbands, kids and others, family perhaps. I didn't really know what it meant to choose for me. In living where I do, I was the only one who had to feel good and notice how the land, the space, the place felt for just me. Not because I was close or needed or it was a good place for business or people. Just for me. This has been transforming.

Watching how I engage, why I engage and what for has been interesting. The subconscious or unconscious running us and we don't know what these motives are. For love, for money, for accomplishment. None of these bad but to get to expressing just to be me and for no other reason has been enlightening. I felt if I wasn't useful, connection wouldn't last. So I pushed to be useful over just being myself. May sound small but it is a driving need that could often put me in crisis situation for I am useful there. I really have learned that my light energy, me in my playful spirit is already useful. That being myself is enough to draw in all I need. I never really understood that before. 

It may sound easy or simple if you already have learned this lesson but for me it has lightened my load tremendously. I feel so much lighter just knowing I don't have to offer support with teaching, words, deeds. Often just being somewhere in my true energy is enough. Gosh how uplifting is that. No longer choosing ideas by whether I add or clean up, or bring something or solve something. All those are good if it feels right but not as I better add or I am not really seen or acknowledged. 

This has been a good relaxing shift. I move slower, more aligned with how my body feels and how I feel. After a journey of many others and places, it is a welcoming relax. I can just be me, listen inward more and do what is called for by that. Not because it will bring me something. Because I can be me and that brings something already. I think many are catching a shift like this at this time.

So I am really settling in! To myself, to my home, to my new area, to my own relaxing. So much less stress and moving from a more aligned internal dynamic than before. I love this time. I know the world is wacky but I really feel a big shift coming for us all that is good and will bring about a better world. Not that things won't be falling apart but there is a quiet underlaying of things coming together in perfect timing. 

Love to you all!