The Space Between

I feel like we are in the space between. The old world seems to be falling down and a new world wanting to form but we are not quite sure of what that is. We know what we would like to see yet the old structures hold tight. A big play to hold the old in existence yet it feels like we are just done with this injustice. Not sure how it will unwind yet open to it.

I find this as well in my own life as I seek to ground into a new land. I am sure many of us are in this in between even though it may not look as symbolic as mine. We all are shifting and changing in many ways whether it is health, being an empty nester, changing careers or resetting our marriage. All of us effected by the macrocasm. The larger field affects us all. I have found that the space, the openness is the gift.

We are not so comfortable with the openness, the unknown, the void of the inbetween. Things float by. Old tales, old memories even wounds, past stories as we await this new becoming. Day dreams come in too. What would be ideal, what we had wished for and never seemed to create,  ideas for the future. The space offers so much and it is like a bubbling cauldron of stuff within. As the secrets of the world come out, the illusions unwind, so mush our individual ideas be cleared and opened. It is a good place for it is clearing the undone by seeing it to intentionally complete in our minds eye. The famous letting go. It is not really an action to me, more a watching as the ships pass kind of feeling. Not clinging to anything but watching it pass.

The great in-between. The pause. The womb space of creation. It could be dark to some, for it is unformed so mystery is here. The ideas of whats next show up but we are not sure how it all will play out from the here to the there. The great place of creation and waiting, watching, seeking the form for our mind so we can settle. Until it shows up it can get hairy. We could clutch onto the old, or let the patterns repeat in yet another way. Or we could allow the drifting ships to pass so there is an openness for newness that we aren't sure what it is. 

I feel as though I have been in this space of drifting almost for 3 months. I don't put deadlines on things but I do put containers or parameters on what I would like to unfold. In this more fluid reality I have been living in, I find that my old certainties want to come in yet I easily outlast their call in a different way than before. They don't grip me or run my mind, they are like a background song that is fading. Each day I am really allowing a new mindset, new emotions, new signatures of me to form. Much more of the me that is authentic for I don't have the usual pressures to keep me in the old one. 

I write this to share the void and space I have inside for many may feel this as well. It is not a scary space, but it is an unformed space. I spent most of my life in one town in one story really. Then I went to Colorado and started a new one. Then I left to start yet another. I did not realize how I was in the same story because of the familiarity of my environment. It was alchemy to go to a new place which was chosen by my daughter really. Then she left and the next choice was mine. It became to be near family for that is all I have known. 

It confined the state or larger container but as I sit in this floating space, even that has fallen away. Now I am choosing for the feeling of the land and how I feel in the environment. The proximity to people and business but held by the land. All such different parameters than I ever chose for. It was always family, friends, children, familiarity. Now I am choosing by what feels the best in my being. Very different and at first quite unknown. But after some exploration, I can tell by my body feel. Where do I exhale the most and in ease?

Our body, our physical tool of this experience has more to do with things than our mind. I have talked emotions, energy in motion so many times for it is the great becoming we are entering in. Living in our bodies Allowing our high emotions, our best feeling self to also add into choice with our mind. Our body has been forgotten and the energy of it, its signs and signals have been unheard. We follow this mental matrix far too much and forget the other tools we have of our senses and our feeling state. Not to be run by as a wild horse but to allow the brilliance of the vehicle we ride in to weigh in on our choices. If we are all energy and we don't use the gift of the senses unseen to support riding energy, we are really missing most of the cues of life.

The fake this and fake that has us lost in a mental structure of shoulds and woulds that make no sense to most of us. The marketing and sales of a life well lived are based on markers that are external rather than internal. Well lived means we are alive inside fully feeling it all. Not thought forms over riding what makes sense or listening to bullshit as though it is logic. It all has become so much about programming and outside view that we have lost ourselves and our true being in the space of creation.

I too have been in this worm hole of humanity on many levels and feel we all are becoming aware of this. How what we do and why we do it are not really of ourselves. This is the in-between. Where you allow the old ideas to float off and the real essence of us come forward. We are all in this process together. Not many ahead or really no one for we are all processing the fake from the real together. The trust we had in the old is not there for it was misplaced. The values with in are calling for we over rode them for glory or fame or acceptance. Very weird time.

A time to really connect with ourselves inward so together we can create a very cool world outward. I find my life is unfolding so magically I could never of imagined such ease in letting go. The great dicotomy. The space in between. The space of epiphany. The space of creation in ease. Wow! Been wanting to feel this my whole life and alas it is here. The resonance, the frequency, the alignment, the grounding of in and out. And it is here for us all. We have been waiting for these very moments of where the pavement hits the road so to speak. 

Enjoy it. Play in it and watch what gets created. Sure some fall out will be yet the speed and magic that comes when the inner and outer align is lightening. May we all find this in between as the magical space it is. Time to allow a greater world in. Blessings to all at this very creative time.