In honor of the solar eclipse of the New Moon in Capricorn, I want to share the power of embracing your shadow. After a healing bath, I went outside and suddenly heard myself going into forgiveness of myself for all these odd things through out life. It seemed alittle random and as each old and new situation came in, I just forgave myself for judging myself for all the things that floated by my mind. I wasn't sure if it was the eclipse, the salt bath, the meditation I did in the bath, the heart mudra , a moment of release that came upon me or most probably the unhidden gem in doing all this self care!
It doesn't really matter why it came but I was thankful to honor myself and forgive myself for these things, We must be our own best friend which is the purpose behind exploring self care. Living here is no easy task. We all learn through mistakes and sometimes we even make the same ones over and over. This is just what is here. I have learned through all my spiritual study and support of others that holding onto these unkindnesses we have done is no way to live. In fact, en-lighten-ment, lightening up, comes from embracing and allowing ourselves leeway for these things and LETTING THEM GO! That is the spiritual process and forgiveness the greatest tool to lightening up. Allowing what was to have been and moving on with the lesson and even forgetting about it.
We all have done things throughout our lives that would not be considered kind. The power of the shadow is that we don't embrace this brazen, often child like part of ourselves, ignorant, maybe even stupid. In casting in down inward and hiding it, we create the shadow that will lurk in us as self hate, unworthiness, crazy and maybe even psycho. Everyone has this. When we accept it is part of learning, part of being human, part of living and a common issue we fare better. We can then learn how to embrace, deal with and accept this part of ourselves as being just our nature. Like day needs night, our shadow supports us to know greater ways of living the light.
Self care is about honoring ourselves so it is valuable to know where we don't and deal with it. Forgiving yourself is a powerful tool. We judge ourselves far more than others do or even care too. In forgiving our misdeeds, our miss takes, we learn to embrace ourselves, our humaness, our less beautiful sides. We can embrace it as the whole of us and this experience here. It is probably one of the most missing pieces and powerful reasons we don't truly care for ourselves properly. To really love all parts of us, forgive ourselves and let go.
If there is something plaguing in you, ask Spirit to support the release. You can apologize to another, you can do it in your imagination, you can write it and burn it up. All these support the basic self in saying it is ok, i forgive you and still love you. Just like children, we have parts of ourselves that need to be embraced in the same manner.
We all have small pieces in us from childhood that wreak havoc. Silly beliefs that truly don't make sense if we could see them. No one gets out of here without mistakes for it is how we grow and learn. I inspire you, on this blessed new moon with an eclipse, where these things often will show up, to just watch them move and forgive yourself for them all! No matter what they are! Love yourself enough to stop allowing the shadow to lurk inside like a big cloud of negativity that stirs you in weird self defeating ways.
This was probably so far, on day 3 of self care exploration, the most powerful thing that came forward as I do things everyday in January to honor myself. Playing with small and large ways to honor myself, no doubt will bring up those hidden reasons why I should not. I am certain this is a key piece to why we don't make time for this as woman. We have a plethora of hidden reasons deep within why we don't deserve to treat ourselves as the Queens we are. I am thankful it has shown up so early on. For this will be one of the most powerful months of life for me if I get the opportunity to really see what works to fill me, what beliefs try to stop me from doing that and how I manage to learn and love myself past them.
Truly a powerful realization or "Aha" moment for this happy, light, playful muse! Wow is all I can say as I see the large learning as I write this. Thankfully, I am seasoned in the art of self forgiveness. We do it alot in spiritual circles realizing most of the time, even if it appears as another, it is only a reflection of something inside of us. I got to really see that magic come forward tonight and blessed it is a lovely bit of self care that has lightened me, enlightened me and inspired me to do the next 27 days to see what other gems of love for myself i will find!!
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|Lyn Ann Hicks||
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