Here is Princess the goat tangled in the horse tale. Often she plays with PJ's tail and gets all tangled up to where she is stuck in it. She reminds me of the many tangles or crisis's we get into ourselves. It seems crisis is part of our world. Unexpected and expected circumstances roll in and throw us a loop. Our own doings and the events of others that directly or indirectly effect our lives.
For me in this segment of my life, it seems they are coming from within myself and outside at quicker paces. So new ways to manage and center myself are on the table. That is also part of the learning of crisis. How can we find peace and centering while the nightmare swirls? We must update and reorder ourselves all through our life as we grow and conditions change.
I recently went through a rapid series of events that felt like one crisis after another. We all go through periods of this and take our turn. As I kept going through them, grasping for balance, it seemed the next one hit before I could process the last one. I knew I was getting further shaken but time didn't seem to give me a rest. This is how it appeared atleast. However, I knew that I needed alone time to regroup, to stop all my doings but I couldn't see how so I kept going forward, with what balance I had and thought "I will soon." As we all know, this is not the best strategy for as you spin, it starts to get out of control and seems to attract more mess if we don't slow down.
Needless to say, I got a great lesson to regroup for I didn't put forth the moment when I felt I should. It was one of those hard lessons, the cosmic 2x4 as we call them. The default. Like a healing crisis that if you don't slow down, you eventually get illness to stop and regroup how you care for your body. So yes I got my "wake up" to do things differently. It was a hard one and will have consequences to come.
As I write, I am digesting the learning of all this. I know that I was getting off balance, not processing and did not give myself the moment to stop and regroup. I let the outer world dictate my pace, my movement and that is not wise for us most times. I could of stopped, for we always can but my desire to be all, do all ego overran my inner knowing. This is so important in crisis. Take the minute. It can be just 5 minutes to go inward and find our sealegs. I heard the call and over road it time and time again. So I got the support to stop in not so wonderful a way. However, it has given me the rest to recenter. The lovely universe, our divine part does get involved. Just often not in what we call lovely but definitely effective. I am on an inward break now!
The other thing I garnered is that I can't judge myself for the way it played out. We are taught to be so hard on ourselves and it is our first go to. Some feel this is good yet in my study we seek review in neutrality not judgement. Shit happens as we say and it is for our growth. In fact, error is the only way we learn. So to spend time beating yourself up or playing hindsight quarter back with a negative spin is never the highest path to growth. Our society has taught us to berate ourselves or ask questions like "Why did I do this when I know better?" then proceed to feel bad about ourselves.
At any given moment we are doing our best. Some days that is better than others. I have practiced enough compassion for myself to stop any of this kind of pattern. As soon as it sets in, forgiveness is my go to now. We are on a world that spins so quickly and learning the game here. We will mess up, do less than we expect and relearn things often sometimes. This doesn't make us stupid or bad, it makes us human. So when crisis hits and you make bad choices for you are uncentered, forgive yourself. If you were in a clear place you would of been different. That is why stress kills. We chose unwisely when we are stressed and it creates more strife. It is wiser to reflect on better strategies than hash over what has been done.
In the speed of this world, crisis's will play its part. Try to realize sooner than later when it is about. In that realization, make the time to stop no matter what and find the moments to recenter as many times as you feel you need. Learning from this situation has been valuable. Knowing where I didn't use my wisdom is valuable. We all know alot of things but putting them into practice the true measure of it. It takes time to create new responses.
Be gentle on yourself. Realize we all lose our head when stress and strife are about. It is part of learning to manage our world in higher ways. We only gain this through practice. In two weeks, whatever seems so large will be gone and we will be on with the next. Learn from them each so as we continue on, there is value in the crisis. We are becoming and shifting purposefully. Use it all for your upliftment and find ways to giggle. For in the end, it just doesn't matter. What does is that we continue. We find joy. We find love. We find next to spark of joy for it is all here. Focusing on the negative is just a bad strategy to have a happy, healthful, joyous life!
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|Lyn Ann Hicks
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