I can so feel the energy of rebirth this year! Maybe it is where I am in my life, the changing of the guard from one way to another really settling in. Ending a marriage of a long time and regrouping is not done in one year or two. It has been my experience that it is quite a journey. Letting go of so much, patterns, ways of being, identities, feelings of all types, friend circles and your reference points. All this letting go takes time and filters through all your being. it is certainly a process and I have really allowed it to take the time it needed. Finding my way to newness had to begin with opening parts of me by this letting go.
In many spots there was a void, an opening that I wanted to fill but it wouldn't quite fill at first. Now with this spring it feels like many things are flooding in to fill the void that are most perfect for me. That waiting, that anticipation was challenging at times. Now it seems I have rolled through it to where the new things more in alignment with this new life I have been creating are showing up. These transitions in life longer than we desire yet purposeful and filled with divine timing.
I feel at times, I am at the gate of heaven where you get to review your life, the things, people, experiences that occurred flashing before me to look one last time as I leap into this new budding flower I am to be forth. Very key to rebirth, a final let go of those things that were hard to make peace with and had to come forward a few times for me to review them until the light of goodness and right perspective came forward. Maybe it is more like a neutral perspective that I was seeking so the release is effortless rather than painful.
At this point in rebirth, as with the earth revving up, I don't carry anymore sadness, resentment, hurt or dissatisfaction with what was and how it played out. Things are complete and I am settled with that. It took a bit of effort to get here. I had to go through loss, sadness, wishing things could be different yet I believe that is part of the honoring all the good that was. It is natural to long or want to keep the good with us. It truly is, it is inside and it is what makes me this version of myself today. I find myself crying now more in such gratitude for the experiences and people I have had and do have in my life. It is the most exquisite space that I can only consider it to be a major rebirth. It is really an uncoiling of something deep inside that is coming into expression and all the old negative stuff is just falling off effortlessly.
I am finding how I am different than I thought in many ways and different than others that I thought I was so alike. It is not a bad difference or something that keeps me separate from others but an honoring of my unique way rather than trying to fit or suit what I thought I was. It is a beautiful discovery of my own essence of truth rather than some ideas I had of who I really was. Truly a Lotus Project as my book title describes. Growing up through the muck and mire of life to the unfolding of the petals of the lotus flower that opens its core center to the sun. I feel my own unique, exquisite bloom for this time is coming forth and is far more fragrant, beautiful, big and magnetizing than I ever dreamed.
The differences feel good. We are taught this clan mentality and I do love my tribe and having one. It is more like finding my own sparkle in the diamond. My own face on that diamond that puts me as part of the whole yet I have my own sweet part that feels so beautiful. Holding my own small side of the magic stone. It makes me even a greater part of the unity for I am seeing my special way I add to it that only I could. Proud that I have my unusual gift that only I could sparkle and add, loving my special place that is all my own. Really a falling in love with me and my mission, my message here.
We all are naturally in a rebirth each spring. Another year, cycle, season comes upon us in life where we step forward in a zesty way, breaking the ground to grow. I inspire you to really feel and revel into this process happening outside with nature and inside as all spiritual paths. The rebirth, the ascension, the resurrection all about us in and out. May you use this as a wonderful time to love who you are, find a greater expression of yourself and savor that you are here, that you are needed and your most exquisite wonder is being called forward into being.
We need each one to be their real, true, authentic self as the world evolves. Join me in this celebration of yourself! May your awakening be rich, deep, transforming and ecstatic! Mine sure is!!
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|Lyn Ann Hicks
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