Check in With Yourself

How do you sense where you are in relation to the world? We can get caught up in the running after ourselves. Our mind filled with this and that, our emotions rolling about and our physical body rushing to keep up. Truly being aware of your state is a great way to keep health and well being at its best. It also supports our beauty for rushed is not a good look. We must check in with ourselves often, throughout our day, cultivate present awareness.  At least with how we feel think, feel  and move physically. 

To ground our spirit and have a bright experience in life, we need to be present in our bodies. Know how we are in relationship with all things of the world. You need to check in and also have a community, friends or family who support you to get back on track. They support you to stay true to yourself often with a reflection that " hey you need to pay attention". This latest escapade of shingles rash or whatever was brewing inside me certainly painfully made me aware that I am not managing my relationship to my health well. A friend today told me I was a negative influence, WOW!  So we must really reflect on how we are relating.

In crisis it is hard but then most growth comes from it. So here we learn to till ourselves and plant back into the earth by seeing how we relate to life. Our health. Our friendships and relationships. Our finances. Our job. Our hobbies. Our self care really. How are you relating to the world. Is it working for you? Are you  bringing in your spark of inspiration and creativity or weighing down on things or neglecting them. This crisis is a rebirth and time to reorder how I relate. It can only be done by checking in with yourself.

Indeed the illness, the friend, the victimhood I feel is the point. We are only ever in the victim role when we have not mothered ourselves. The Mother Archetype the solution to the Victim Archetype. It is of the first chakra, our root. If we don't feel safe in the world and take care of our needs or feel we can, we will express the victim, thrown about by the world. Whether big or small ways, our role expressed and the solution is to tune in and mother ourselves. We are strong powerful nourishing natures and we are not doing that for ourselves so we will not feel good, powerful or delightful to be around, lost in our turmoil. 

Fortunate I am, to have strong people and body ailments to see where this was playing out in me.  I felt like a victim these past years. Trying to find my new ground in the world.  My mom got sick and died and I was mothering another woman down the same road all at once. This mothering of self was absent and since ultimately we should do this for ourselves, I failed to find the time. When your mother dies, I am sure there is great reorder in your mothering understanding and you no longer have a mother. It is your responsibility to fulfill that position and it is clear then. Their is a shift in ancestorial and dynamic energies of a family and it reorders all. There is definitely a check in going on inwardly, I see it is time to be alone and refuel.

I thank my body and my friend for the frankness and cosmic 2 x 4 that landed here. There are times when a snap out of it is in how we learn. An intercurrent as we call it in homeopathy, You need a strong reset to remember what you are doing. It is all good despite the pain and sadness I grieved out. We have to forgive ourselves and like ourselves even if the whole world doesn't. That is mothering of  the Divine Feminine, to love it all. We are all responsible in a new way as the energies shift, to care for ourselves first so we don't inflict on others. If you do, you forgive yourself, make it as right as you can and move forward learning deeper how to set yourself up.  You can't be the  bright spirit you are so it is  shared with the world if you are not  clear with you first. 

The ending of the year, is the time  to really see what it has brought, how you related or handled yourself and what you can preserve in learning from it and move into expansion. What limits are you allowing to be experienced? Are you doing all the things that will make you feel good? Are you aware of how you are relating to the world? I did not feel good dealing with, like many others, the care and illness of a family member. We all may have this as a right of passage here. I inspire to lift all others in this victim role as I see I am not one. Things are not working well for I am not caring properly for them. Not watering the plants. 

So check in often with yourself to see what is it that is really going on. As my friend said, we all go through good and bad and it just means it is time to grow. Crisis brings growth and new ways of being. My shell of Lyn as a daughter, as a sister and as an individual must shift from these  circumstances of life. I am very thankful for the sight, the role I am being that is certainly not the vibe of my highest gift.  This is how we learn and part of my teachings. We get off balance to get on balance and there is no judgement just consequences. If there is then let it be cleared. Look at it. See how you judged yourself, others, the situation, the world, that you come out with new ideas of how your relate to it all. 

Part of the astrological energies are to cleanse us of skins, limitations, misperceptions that are not serving us at this time. I am certainly in reorder as are so many others. To take these issues that hurt my heart, find blessing and learning in them is why they are here. It is not bad, It is the universe supporting me to find a path more aligned and claim the beliefs clearly that I hold true. It is all good and what growth, trial and error are about. We mess up. We go over the edge. We do stupid things. We are learning and all is allowed. I too, must allow myself the "I lost it",  as I do others. We are always learning how to be better and it comes in all ways. 

I knew I was losing steam and not mothering myself.  But somewhere inside I could not find the way to do that with my work load.  Relate to yourself first and see how you are relating to other things in the world. Are you helping or supporting? On one hand  I was supporting  my mother but on another i was not supporting myself or my friend. It is really beautiful learning when you can take responsibility and know you are off.

I inspire you to see where you are not relating to the world in the highest. I imagine it will bring you back as me to the role of mothering yourself. If we are inflicting on others we are flailing, so to speak and that is the victim. "I have no control, oh I am so sorry I hit you, I am whipping  sparks into the world that are not settled."  We are in a great shift and knowing that we let in the things our world is made up of. If it is not supporting you, clear it out. Otherwise you will continue to roll down the path out of control. Clarity, self love, self acceptance and forgiveness your biggest tools. 

Despite the recent events, I feel good as I write. My direction clear. My inward review and greater learning to mother myself first is just supporting me to clear where the victim is playing out in life. Having authority over yourself through really checking in and knowing your state is the only control there is. If we feel out of control, we will start wobbling and put out energy that is not supportive, Feeling unsupported myself, how could I fully support others? Finding  safety in my new world.  It is a process.