Patience

Well I don't doubt that many of us have learned a bit about patience of late. It is that base of stability. It is a quality that we could develop in our fast paced society and apparently with our current situation have brought plenty of it to ourselves. I am finding great joy in the patience. It has a nice vibe, a peaceful quality that I never really experienced before. Without the world moving fast around you, it seems to settle in as a pleasure rather than a problem.

I feel the antsy feeling of the world.  We want to get going now after a bit of lock down. Yet let's not forget the things that have been cast upon us and the learning that they have brought. I know I have definitely gotten to know myself in many new ways during this time. I have faced my drive to move without being able to use it in the regular sense. I have had to be very patient enough to crest through to find the peace in waiting without anxiety. Developing deeper trust in a bigger picture and purpose that one day perhaps I will understand. It has enhanced my faith in ways nothing else could. I have enjoyed myself in greater stillness than I have ever experienced. I have found safety in the trust whereas before I had a different measure.

I have been in Colorado 6 weeks during this Corona scene. I am in a new place and know few. I haven't had an opportunity to develop community or even get the layout as I would normally in regular conditions. I also have been in air bnb's rather than my own space. I have had my own space within another's home but it is different than being grounded in my own home. it all shifts tomorrow and I am enthused. However, I want to take a moment and reflect on what I learned in this odd circumstance.

I sit outside a 70 acre horse farm surrounded by mountain views. I am in the prairie really. There are 35 horses and pastures about me. I never knew the world of horses but I am very glad I landed here for a few days. It does remind me of my old farmer life which is so pleasant submerged in the nature of things. Birds, rabbits, prairie dogs, pigs and horses all around me. I have found a space within just by being in such a large space around me. I definitely am getting a chance to connect with nature in a grand way here that I didn't experience in the lil barn I was in at the edge of town. I needed this peace, this wide view, this range to settle me into this new life. We often find the simpliest things that inspire yet we couldn't of known the depth of it. 

I have made due with 2 weeks worth of supplies for 6 weeks. I had winter gear and it is 70 or more each day. I picked up a few things to support more summer and can't wait to get to my usual clothes. It has been interesting feeling pretty, being in new outfits for my podcast/youtubes, finding a way to mix and create with the supplies I have. I pretty much have managed very well. There are times of longing but I realize how little we need to survive and enjoy life.  This has been powerful and although I have been learning this a good part of 6 years, this last 6 weeks I have been very simple and light as we call it.

I have had to entertain myself in a place with unfamiliar surroundings. I could investigate nature but often finding where to assess has been an adventure. I have interacted with few local people other than the places I have stayed and the grocery clerks. It has been a very "Lyn" adventure other than the project with my daughter. I've had lots of time to just be with me, learning of myself and watching my mind create things or want to move to do and there was nothing to do. In all of this, I have found a more enlivening pace. It is slower but far more nourishing. I feel far more sensual in noticing things with this slower pace and more enlivened which I would not of thought possible. 

I feel a renewed feeling in my body. More feeling of the world around me as though I am just getting switched on to a greater physical experience. Having time to notice has really created an energy in my body that I never had before. I am alert, more aware in many ways that I can't even explain. My mind doesn't go off as much and I have a quiet observation that makes the world far more electric. Like a new way of physicality is upon me. Far more tuned into nature and all the currents around me.

I have had to be patient no matter what. I can only move as fast as conditions have allowed which we all know is way slower than before. Almost like a stall. This has, however, brought so much transformation in my being. I am less hurried in energy, relaxed and in enjoyment of it. I feel calmer than I have in quite a while and yet have the least amount of "security" that we consider to have safety, enjoyment and calm. It has been a very good time for me to enjoy myself beyond what I thought enjoy myself meant. And it is myself, my true self that isn't always moving that I have gotten to really know.  She wasn't around much before.

I have sat more and just dazed out into space more times than probably the last 5 years! It has been nice to play in the void of not doing anything. The creativity and imagination faculty has been amped up in myself and in all. The innovation has been about in fine ways and I believe this is all part of our increased patience. The settle into what can't be done, a little dazed out in perhaps discontent at first, that eventually turns into a creative inspiration. I am sure many have completed things that have been nagging them for a while. The energy that flows free from these moments has me greatly impressed. We read all these ideas but for the first time perhaps we have had to live them and see the benefits of health, vitality, sensory and creative impulse that occurs in this slower pace.

So I am finding a great advance from this time away from the familiar. It has enhanced my physicality and sensing of the greater world and energy. It has given me opportunity to know deeper, quieter parts of myself.  It has tapped me into inner worlds that are inspiring, imaginative and unending flow of energy. My faith and trust in all will be fine so deep beyond what I have experienced. And patience is a new virtue that I value not just because I have heard it.  I value it for I see what can be done while you are waiting. Very magical enlightenment.

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