Who Are You Now?

In my journey in new lands, I have found myself to be more quiet than I was in a world that I knew. The space of no thing, or nothing has tripped me up many times in the last two years. So used to doing and doing, even when I was not centered. I have had to really challenge my mind and beliefs about action and accomplishment. It has been a process. 

At first the rest was good. I needed it but after a bit, I felt like I needed contact and action. We all probably felt this. I would move this way or that, sometimes it worked other times, it netted no results. I have really had to go inward beyond and try to feel my way through this. Sometimes I am bored. Other times confused as to which way to go. I have days of too much activity and I get overwhelmed. It has been a true inner journey as well as outer here in this new state. I do realize that action just for the sake of action is wasteful. Yes, we must act but the intent is far more important than the action. I learned this many times here. Sometimes going out to be with people but if they are not the people that inspire me, what is the point? 

In my home town, I always knew people to interact with. Here I get to choose those and what things inspire. It has been very opening as it is quite a question. Who do I want to be around? What things do I want to be doing? What purposes do I want to be involved in? These are huge questions when you have a blank slate. I have narrowed down many of these ideas. Then it becomes going out and finding that. This takes time and trial and error. I am finding my way with it. It is  covid question, who am I now? 

We are not taught the value of being quiet or knowing our true feelings. We often operate out of a set of norms. Being in a new community I see how I have no norms. I don't have to be this way or that based on how I know someone and what they expect me to be. This is very interesting. It is freeing yet it also is overwhelming. I can be me with no constraints. Who is that girl? Being quiet lets me learn. It is not always comfortable and I usually could just go do something and avoid this question. Here I can not. I inspire you not to avoid it. Many times along the way this question comes in. You recraft your branding as a wife, a mother, a professional, a empty nester, etc.. many times in life. The word brand sums it up well. Are we a brand? A ketchup? A beautiful label we put on ourselves. The label changes. This giggles me. 

Who are you now in this moment? With all you have been through and learned, who are you now? Not the old version of yester year but right now?  This question made me step away and begin a list. A delightful list of all the things I love.. It brought a smile and a giggle to me. I think this is the etheral question that needs to be answered in the alone silience. We have had this reset. A slow down to recreate and open to the one we truly are. It is kind of truly magnificent! Never in my life has the whole world gotten to stop, go inward and find what ever they do. 

On the spiritual level, this is the gift and upliftment of this time. How exciting to the Goddess in me. Perhaps we should ask ourselves that daily to get the juiciest experience. Starting with this moment and considering who are you in this moment seems really big. Who am I in this moment? Apparently a writer!!  Maybe it is the gift of age to know that slow down is good. In fact, really evaluating what you are doing day in and out asking if it inspires your heart is a good start? If not, how can you microchange something to head more in that direction? This takes quiet time. 

Quiet time can be many things. Meditation, prayer, sound healing, dazing out the window. I look often out the window at the mountains. They seem to say stop. Sink in. Settle. Be calm. Breath. Find joy in this most present moment. They help me stop so I can really embody being in my body fully. Presence comes in then. I still myself. That is quiet time. 

 Who are we? What are we doing here? Are we to allow this insane world to continue? What is our small or big purpose truly that will help the collective recreate a safer world? Safe is what we seek. A safe place to be and know who we truly are. Who others are and our kids? Where we can play and try out ways of being,  okay to make mistakes and as a group, we help each other determine and cooperate together to bring in this safe place by being ourselves truly. War and resistance must be cleared from our collective. How can we in our peaceful way make it safe here for us to be us and others to be themselves?

That is what my inner world says to me these days. It asks the question from deep inward. What's my gig?   What is yours? Let us work together if we align. I want to bring healing and safety to the world. The only time I can find that or be that who is me is when I feel safe. Nourished, filled with yin energy, Satiated and settled. We should have a world like this where safety exists. Then we can be creative and discover who we are continually as a process as we roll through life.  

I do know one thing. We are creative. We have fun being creators. We are enlivened and inspired when it feels good and like play. That is the passion of life. This creative feeling. The thing that has energy to it so you don't have to make yourself. That is the who you are. We are on a reset to determine this. It is actually huge and fun if we ask the question in lightness and inquiry. What are you creating to make the world more safe? That is my question after who am I now.

Let's use this winter season to rebirth this who am I! Let us slow down enough to really dig up that real us. The one that enjoys life and find it easy to express our true selves today for we are safe and secure. That's my wisdom for the moment. Present tense being. 
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Love and light to all the Politicians, People, Ideals and Us as we move into this new place of ultimately safety. Be creative and be you!

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