As I am in respite with illness and the most ugly rash, I can only consider to count my blessings. I have been in great overwhelm that resulted in this great clearing of illness. It started to come out on Thanksgiving as I was at my best friends to spend time for the holiday. It was delightful to rest, be around a family I love and participate in the New England snow. 2 Feet of it! We got snowed in as my illness and shingles really flaired. I was scared that I was not ok. Blessed I was with my dear friend of level head and came home safely afterward and got the meds I needed.
As I chill, care for myself with soup, do the things that we don't ever get to in our busy lives, I realize how grateful I am. Even with this mess, pain and fear that comes with illness, I feel ok. I know people want you to be down and believe me I have cried and been sad with this illness. It is not so much the illness as the death of those around me and the strife that preceds and comes after. Yet there is always a blessing. I have another friend visiting for work and enjoying that company, My house if full of holiday color and lights, cozy and calm. I needed to just do nothing but relax, healing treatments, reading and I am even inspired to write today. I have healing megahertz sound on, candles lit, I am free form writing clearing my being of all levels. Taking this time to tune into me.
As woman, we often are called to so much caring. It is our nature. We feel good to care and help others for we are created in the divine feminine, the nourishing nature. We just haven't learned the full rule of nourishing ourselves before we serve. We serve, we feel good, we do the tasks of care as it is our nature. Often life calls us to do things and be in situations that we really don't want but our nature calls us there for we are born to serve and support all life. However, we need to do this in overflow. Not by using our energy alone. We miss this and when we find ourselves depleting ourselves, putting the needs of others over ourselves to the point of illness, we have lost the great way of the divine mother.
We all try to stay filled as we support. I did not quite get it. I knew I was going down, tired and overwhelmed but it seemed It was necessary to keep going. I do not get upset with myself for this is our nature. I do realize now for the going through it, that greater measures are necessary for myself to be whole and healed. I am grateful that I am learning, understanding my own limits and listening inward deeper. These messes, failures to know the nourishing law correctly are part of the process. The feminine wisdom has been lost and our generation seeking to find it. So I too learn, even though I know the laws, how to live them in greater ways with each attempt.
The divine feminine is the Mothering Principle of nourishment. We must mother ourselves. Not waiting for our mothers or thinking another will do this. We draw on the mothering of ourselves, from nature, from the divine ones, from the Blessed Mary, from where ever you find it. It is in us. We are it. We must cultivate and use this for ourselves, not just others. We all need support, rest, renewal and love. We can only do this for ourselves and know our limits and our beness that works to keep us healthy and participating.
I certainly participated beyond what I am able. This illness a clear sign for myself. I willingly accept it as my bodies way to say, Stop! Back up! Lay down! Be chill and peaceful. Fill your well. So I do. I learn yet again and grow and expand into this understanding of myself. It is our process here and so we learn and embody the health and beauty that we are. We must watch and listen as we do to others. We need to hear our needs and release any thoughts or beliefs that say it is wrong to say no and take care of ourselves first. This is part of our path of our generation and for all woman before. There is no super woman who can do it all. it just doesn't exist. We must know how to care for ourselves as we do for others. It is new and different for us all.
I sit in gratitude for this reflection and learning of myself. I became a minister to understand self ministry which I believe many woman need to learn. I step deeper into my learning of me. Of my own unique things I need to stay healthy and feel beautiful and stay connected. And if I can't, then I step away and go inside to learn how to feed and nourish myself on whatever level there is. It is the magnum opus of life. How do I mother me to be my best expression in a world of so many ideas and information? I learn by trial and error and I use the error to preserve the wisdom.
I am thankful. I am learning. I am finding greater ways to care for me and thus others. I look back on the year and wonder could I have done something better or been more clued in. My answer is it went as it went. Now I have time to see what I could of done to support myself. I am not sure there is an answer or this was just one of those times where it was important to get illness and clear my being. All is in divine order so I take what I can learn and use it forward. Illness is not bad or wrong, it is just a message from our body. If we don't listen, the body does what is necessary to support itself. Illness, healing crisis a way to talk to us.
It is nice to not participate in the stress of the holiday and experience the soothing of it. The beauty of it. The magic healing that is there if we notice. I am blessed to see it for the love that it is. Not caught up in keeping up with anyone but myself. Feeling good at whatever I do slowly, gracefully and in nourishing of myself. I will slowly gather my gifts, attend events, marry a set of friends and engage in the holiday on a level that serves me perfectly.
The Blessings Already Are!
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Life comes at us with such force some times. Crisis, panic, sadness, challenge, all stress us to barely get through the day. This is normal. There is no landing where this experience of life is all blissful. Often we see things in cycles and we just must ride it out. In these times, finding joy, laughter, motivation and enthusiasm is a practice. There is a lesson in this of rest, rejuvenate and care for yourself so you can get going again.
Choice is always with us so we can rise up when we feel the intensity is too much. Self care, self compassion and self loving are the most important things we can do. Often another part of us wants to push, know, get out of the scene or deny the yuck we feel. This is far more detrimental than accepting the crap we are in. It is not lovely, there doesn't always have to be some reason or rational that the mind wants to have. Shit happens is the phrase and for good reason. We don't have to always claim fault, ridicule ourselves or berate ourselves for feeling bad and being unmotivated.
I feel like I have been under the shadow of death for a good part of the year. Watching two matriarchs go down as the circle of life has it. There is no mental rational that makes this feel good to participate in this. It is life. We all go through death and it is a heavy cloud about us. There is great pain and sadness in crisis. To be as healthy as you can through this, you have to acknowledge and accept that. You will not feel so full of joy and energy. In bad times we are tired, overwhelmed with emotion and we need a break of self care. It is the best path through it without getting further issues emotionally, physically or mentally.
Down time is not valued in our society and it is the very thing we need to recharge and reboot. It is also the way that we have vital energy when we are left fielded by life's experiences. The value and healing of self care is the only solution. Something we all know yet do very little of. It is as though we must pretend, buck up and get going again and that is not always our best way back into happier states. We have to go through the low vibe and ride to the other side. Otherwise the feelings, the low energy persists in the back ground until we allow it to pass through.
No one is excited to do this. No one wants to feel bad and experience sad, exhausted, overwhelmed emotions yet this life has plenty of it. To avoid is to allow it to persist. So hug yourself and go through the crap that you feel. Gently allowing this low energy to express for a moment by taking time to step out of life. There are so many options of self care. A bath. A walk in nature. A facial, a movie day. A nap. Self indulge in something that feeds you on the inside.
The rush through causes more illness and low states. Our body has it's limits and will fight us if we push it to far into the doing aspect when it is out of energy. So we call it a low time, go into caring for ourselves and know all changes. We will get through this hard moment as we have all the others. We can inspire rejuvenation and renewal by doing the self care. It is what you body, emotions and mind are calling for. It is the only healthy way through.
If we don't take time to rebalance when we have just gone through a crisis, we will add more issues of dis ease to ourselves. There is no way around it. As part of my reset through this dark year, I am nourishing myself in so many ways. In fact, I am not doing much else. I have stepped outside of doing anything other than the minimum. How long this will take and when it will end, I have no idea. I do know if I don't stop and regroup in ways nourishing. I will not be ready for anything good or even be able to revel in it fully with this exhaustion. I also realize that I can make bad choices when I push further as though I am fine.
We pretend so much of our lives rather than living them. Pretend we are "good" when we are not. It is not a healthy choice to live in vitality. It is normal to feel off at times. It is normal to be overwhelmed and angry that life offered us a not so delightful experience. To deny or pretend goes against our body wisdom and care. We have to see clearly, feel and find peace with the challenge of life. We learn, grow and appreciate the joy when we have been in the non joy. Don't fake yourself out or anyone. We are human and can only take so much til we get to needing a break from it all. Soothing ourselves back to enthusiasm.
Awareness of ourselves is a powerful elixir. Often minding our way through the world we go with no awareness of our body or feelings in a way that could support greater health and joy. We are not making up the world in our mind totally. We have many pieces to ourselves that we can be aware of and use as knowledge to get ourselves on track. Don't discredit your emotions, your body or your state. It is all you have to experience this plane. Give it some love, some attention and some tune it. That is multidimensional living. Rest, care and down time is part of it. You don't need to feel bad for noticing life sucks for the moment. You can gently care for yourself to renew through it. Knowing that your energy will replenish and greater joy is right around the corner.
This is how we get through the hard times. We notice, we feel, we sooth ourselves and we recover. Like the animal we are, we go sleep in our space and do gentle things until it has passed. Our mind needs to quiet down for a bit so the rest of us can catch up. It is the power of caring for you as you do all others. It is a powerful healing tool that is always available. We know it but more importantly, use it! It is your path back into an magnificent life!
We are not taught much of death but we have it all around us. In the old days where there was one dying in the other room as one was being born in another. Maybe we had a greater understanding of this circle. Or perhaps being on a farm with animals, seeing this life cycle often made us more comfortable with it. It doesn't have to always be death of a loved one either, death is in all forms. Could be a marriage or other relationship, a job, a way of living, a life cycle. Death and rebirth are all around us really. We still don't have a good relation to it or skills to cope. We need to find new ways to manage this.
Woman's bodies go through this cycle monthly. They are also usually the ones to deal with the situations of death and rebirth in our culture. Our body maybe has an innate wisdom to know what to do and to be there for others in all kinds of death and rebirth. I consider it is part of our nourishing purpose as we are the birthers of life. We can hold in these sad death like situations with comfort and care. Not really having answers to it but just being there with love for others. We want to shy away from this yet we are the ones who find ourselves helping in it.
I have been in a death cycle for 6 years with the ending of my old life. I lost many friends and my community from it that has been a great loss. I also supported friends with their mothers dying and at the end of this cycle, my mom passed unexpectly quick. So it seems this gloomy state has been about me for a bit. I had the recent death yesterday of a woman I cared for part time as she went through her last part of life. It is a bit overwhelming and sad. Sadness we are not so enthused to feel and try to stuff it, shift it quick or pretend it doesn't exist. For me that has not been an option nor do I feel it as a healthy approach. Death, sadness, loss, not getting the things we want are all part of this sense of losing people, places and things. It is part of life and healthier to feel. For it does transmute us.
Blessed I am to really revel and feel my feelings for it is the healthy way to manage through life. With the discomfort we have with death and loss, most don't give it the space. It can create illness and as I have learned, most illness comes from this unprocessing of feelings. They hide inside and create this dark area not dealt with, stagnation per se that can lead to dis ease. So for the last 6 years this gloom has been about me. I have had no choice but to deal with it.
I have discovered that there is also this richness that comes with loss that is very indicating of love. We wouldn't feel so sad if we didn't love things, people and circumstances. So this grief and loss is really just another facet of love. Heartbreak and sadness is not our favorite expression of love but we only have it if we had love in the first place. Oxytocin, the pleasure hormone of the parasympathetic nervous system is about in grief. The evidence of the love and the washing of the other side of it. We are actually in healing states when we cry, feel sad, miss things or others. This healing hormone is present and supports our body in renewal when we give into the sadness. We are healed and supported as we process our feelings. Not hindered in health.
I have also had much reflection as I finish this death cycle. A review of things comes from loss, grief and death that I wouldn't have do if I hadn't gone through it. Allowing this sadness to come forward brings the juice and gifts of things I loved. I have more compassion for myself and others. I value things differently from this reflection and find greater ease in the changes of life. It has not depressed me or condensed me but expanded my understanding of life and its unexpected shifts. Able to step back and see the good and bad, painful and liberating of the pain by actually just feeling and allowing it. Not getting caught in it but letting it be and move through me.
It also transforms how we see the surface of life. The superficial things that all seem to think matter. When death and loss is about, all those things leave. Hearing someone moan about traffic or another seems so trite. What we really value comes forward and life has a new, deeper meaning to be here. You let go of pieces of your littleness you have for you clearly see how ridiculous it is. You have greater compassion for others for you know not what they may be dealing with underneath. You have a greater connection to life, to being alive and less small thinking about all of it.
Judgement leaves too if you process your emotions. At death, all seem like little children. They are helpless often and their childlike nature of hoping their beliefs are true, that they don't really know what is next and even fear of a child seems about. They look so innocent and vulnerable. You can no longer hold anything against them in action or deed for you just have compassion for them as they will soon leave. Our fears of this come forward too and can be seen. Even in situations or things, this judgement can leave. Yes, it is hard to lose anything you wanted. But an acceptance comes in at some point and the whole judgement leaves you. You see more accurately and without all the mess. It is quite innocent and honest. Your feel free and open that it just is how it is and all are doing their best.
Quiet, crying, feeling low all seem fine things to do with this death cycle. I have learned not to bypass it only to find myself losing it at something small. I have learned the art of self care instead of just busying myself. Ironically, when you allow these to come forward, they don't last long like they do when you avoid them. They lie in hiding waiting to bubble up. You don't cry for more than a few minutes I have found and as I stated earlier, it offers healing oxytocin. You get out of fight or flight and actually create renewal. Tears of all situations come out and it really does feel good. We think it won't but it does. You make peace with sadness instead of trying to avoid it. Sadness, loss, are all part of life. No one gets away from it. So it is healthy to be able to process these emotions so energy isn't used to hide it. Greater joy can come in after it is cleared.
Sacredness to the process of life and death, rebirth has become very clear to me. You can't have new things or experiences without this letting go. There is only so much room in you and you will encounter many little and big losses in life. You don't take it as seriously if you go through it and feel it. It leaves sooner than later. Avoiding it creates alot of stress. Just going through this regular life emotion and processing creates a health and an understanding. All is sacred that is part of life. Your begin to really feel life in it's highs and lows. The highs are more valuable and delicious. The lows just are. We find sacredness to it all.
In being lost, in loss or confusion means that being found or finding your way is just the next progression. If you don't allow being lost, unclear, sad, you won't get to the next leg while you are stuffing it down. All is change and has it's way so you flow with it. Accepting your feelings, acknowledging them allows them to leave and new ways to come it. It is really quite exciting to feel these things for they go and higher joy comes in. Answers, support, clues and messages stream in. It feels quite magical that you can go low only to be lifted by outer sources. Invisible support comes in. It is very mysterious and fun.
There is a great richness of love that you know when you feel and process your loss. Life becomes colorful again in a way it never was. You grow and expand your depth and compassion for yourself and others. You find less small things being an issue in life. You seek support from the world in magic ways. You find yourself more ok with all that shows up. You learn to ride the cycle easier. I imagine some incredible greatness will come forth in this next cycle for me. I have learned alot in this death cycle that has inspired and lifted me to new awareness. I understand that love is all that matters in a deeper way. It makes me soften, kinder and more caring.
I inspire you to find the richness in loss. I have lost many of things, people and dreams in this cycle. I am not depressed or thinking life is not good. I am the opposite. I find simple inspiration that can lift me so high. I find inward comfort that I didn't have before. I am more accepting of all, mostly myself and my ups and downs. I appreciate life more deeply and know how powerful a smile or caring can be. All has great learning and great love in it. I wouldn't know these things without this cycle and the allowance of it to be felt and processed. I encourage all to dive into this for themselves. It is healthy. It is comforting and it can be releasing so new fun and wonder can show up.
I am enthused for this as it makes all life richer in all ways! Blessings to those in this, for it is like compost and has rich nutrients that you would never imagine! Feel, process, cry, be sad! It will transform into great joy and learning! I promise that! This I have experienced and am much lighter for it!
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We all have the ability to feel our environments and others for we are all made of the same stuff, energy. In fact, we already are using this empathic gift unknowingly in many cases. It is part of the gift of the 6th sense as well as part of being in a field of energy.
Our senses are the gatekeepers of this information. All our senses are tuning into our environments and others constantly. If we are not in our body, participating in our senses, busy thinking all the time, we miss all this information in our conscious awareness. Our body still records the sensual experience and happenings it is experiencing. We are unaware. Often we are minding and not at all tuning in to the sensory stimulation or radio waves of feelings. We are missing an awful lot of life and the environmental signals around us.
We are in this sea of energy, which is emotions, energy moving. How can we manage this gift of feeling? How do we know what is us or ours from what is another's? How do we discern this energetic world? This multidimensionality we are becoming conscious of? Many books are written on it and classes taught. I teach about it in my Awaken Your Magical Woman as well as wrote a chapter in my book, The Lotus Project, the Art of Being a Woman.
Most importantly, this is a process of learning. This subtle energetic nature has been happening our whole life. To become aware of something that is happening when we were unaware of it, is a practice and process. There is no one, two, three program to do it. To be masters of this emotional, energetic nature takes play and practice. This is our sixth sense to consciously tune into invisible fields of energy through sensing. It is developed and we learn as we do it.
That said, there are a few important factors to keep in mind. Do know it is a practice so I offer that you play with becoming aware of yourself, your feelings. The first part is to know your own emotions! You must know what you are feeling, when you are feeling it and be very accurate with yourself. Often we stuff down feelings, hide them, say we don't feel something when we do. We hide it from ourselves. No wonder we are confused! Have awareness of yourself and tune in. Know your own feelings and pay attention to them. Notice when you sense anger and annoyance or frustration or joy. Most people have no idea what they are feeling until it blows up in intensity.
If you get tuned into your own feeling, your energy vibe, then you can tell what others energy vibe is because you know what it feels like. Anger is anger, joy is joy, no matter who feels it. We all have the same emotional frequencies. We may not know why one feels the way they do but we can certainly feel the feel of it. Knowing what anger feels like inside, allows you to sense anger in others. Body language helps yet most often people hide their feelings.
To one tuned to empathy, you can't hide for it is a frequency in the room. If they know what that frequency feels like, they know when it is present. If it is not their feeling, then they will know it is the others. It is basic but takes skill to know your own emotions and frequencies of them. Then you can easily decipher yours from others. People often deny their feelings and are unaware.
How to protect yourself and all else must first come from an awareness of knowing you and your state. Not what you think you feel but what you feel. Then when you co mingle with others, you know your state and then can start to sense their state different than yours. Sometimes it is obvious. As woman, we feel a room without thinking. It is so natural that we don't even realize we are doing it. As we embody this emotional mastery, it makes the world a whole new magical place and we can read it in more clarity.
If you know your own emotion, when go near another, you can perceive them. You can start to see how environments and moods of others effect you. You can watch the play of energy around you. You have to be aware and observing, not minding. Our mind often tricks us or is in thinking so this sensing can be missed unless we are embodied.
Often we take in energy, feelings of places and people and then try to get rid of them like they are our own. It doesn't work and it could circle us into anxiety or depression. Trying to fix an emotion or state that is not ours can't be done. An easy question if you are in this wondering why am I so "whatever feeling" when it seems to make no sense is to ask yourself, "Is this mine?" Yourself will quickly answer you with whose it is! So it is easy to then let it go and move back into yourself. Just one simple question, "Is this mine?' If it is not then, "Whose is it?"
The last thing I will share for now about this gift is the purpose of it. We have empathy so we can know what people need without them asking us. As babies have needs, we sense what they are without them voicing it. We have this magic, built in, sensing mechanism that is always noticing our environment and others feeling or energetic state. It allows us to nourish others easily, designed by our very nature. It is a tool of compassion and service. This gift allows us to support others around us by tuning into what we are sensing and then offering what is needed. Healers often have a very developed gift with this.
The issue that we run into, happens when we ride in the harder emotions with others. Our gift can use us instead of us using it. For example, both my parents died of cancer. So if I talk to one who has cancer or has a family member that does, I know what that whole situation feels like. As they begin to share, I sense with empathy my experiences of it. I know what they need at that moment. I know the nourishing solution that will help them. So I feel, empathize with them and then I drop the gift and offer what I know will help. This is using my gift rightly.
Often, we empathize and go into our own past experience as they are sharing their current experience and that is where we go wrong. It is not a gift to relive our past while another is in crisis. It is a gift to connect, walk in their shoes for a moment, long enough to have compassion, know what they need and then drop the connection. Otherwise we are both now in very low vibe together and sinking further. If I don't go into my old emotion of when I was there, I can use my higher vibration to offer love, support, what is needed to lift them. If I allow myself to revel in my past tale as they tell theirs and stay in their shoes, we both get more in crisis. Do you see that little nuance that shifts using the gift and being used by the gift?
The cool thing about this sensing is that we can also ride others joy, success and enthusiasm! It works with positive emotions too. If I am down and ride someones up, I can lift myself through this empathy. Not by taking their energy but by feeling the vibe and letting it lift! Unconsciously we are doing this for it is all energy. I don't consider energy vampires. Most people are so unaware. They are just naturally feeling higher vibrations and the law of nature is that two vibes will medium out. So you go low, another goes higher. This can be easily stopped with awareness.
This is when boundaries come in. We offer others our high vibe when we chose to and if we don't have enough to share, we don't allow the exchange. It is knowing yourself, your feelings that allows control of this gift. We get so lost in our minds, in our panic and rush that these energetic laws will happen and we won't be aware. We are playing in fields of energy every moment. It is fun and fascinating when you have awareness. I inspire you to know yourself better, then you won't have so much confusion of this world of your emotional nature and energy flowing.
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As I take all my talents and decipher them into how to share the joy vibe with others, I realize all healing, health, life energy, vitality, shakti, bioenergy, whatever you want to call it is about play! Oxytocin, seratonin, dopamine or the parasympathetic nervous system, energy medicine, miracle healing is about having more joy and pleasure in life! This creates the right energy, chemical reactions in your body that lead to health.
To play we must be present, doing what we are doing, in joy, giggling, laughter. This youthful art is what destresses, and heals the system to create vitality or life energy. We could go through the science, the details, the studies, the blah blah, I study it all. No matter how you cut it, it is about being in the feel good chemicals as much as you can in a day that it becomes a healing habit. Then the body repairs and corrects itself. Currently we are in the fight or flight cortisol habit.
If we lighten up, play, mess around, we get greater health and rejuvenation! This is so incredibly easy and fun! We could eat this and that, take these things, move this way or that, they all help but all this falls into place when we have more play, more present moments being in the body in fun not stress. It is that simple. You can take whatever path to play and lightness you want. There are no rules as to what makes you feel nourished, filled, light, relaxed, open and playing.
This is such good news to me and I find it easy to work this health system. I just have to gather many ways that get me into a youthful, playful, energy every day. Then I will find more joy, abundance and brightness in each day thus a happier, healthier life. I connect with my body vessel in pleasure, in fun, in relax and it's innate health system kicks in to let me ride in vitality. We train ourselves to relax and play rather than be serious about everything. The seriousness is what is creating the stress thus cortisol. We are so hard on ourselves and play is just the opposite. It is light on us.
As I am rebirthing through this cycle from flower farmer to health and beauty coach, writer and speaker, i realize it is all about Play! Sharing this with others and giving them awareness on how that energy feels in the body, is the way to add healing to the world and individuals. I can teach others what the vibe of the body is when they are in this healing nervous system. Once you understand this "feeling" of the body and really sink into it and know its nuances, they can reproduce this easily. You can create it in all ways throughout a stressful day with what inspires you.
In essence I am like a play therapist. I like this new direction explaining the energy medicine I learned. It all boils down to play and pleasure. Whatever your dis-ease, you can cure it through less stress and more play! To be more healthy and beautiful, glowing in vitality, play until you feel an oxytocin vibe and your body will find its healing!
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Did you ever go through something and feel so lost in the going through of it, that you don't see full perspective until you reach a certain point? The time element, 20/20 hindsight so powerful. As you went through whatever it was, your perspective was in one view then, suddenly one day, you look over it all and see a new perspective. I had such a revelation today.
The power of completion is incredible. We have so many open windows really, different projects on line at once. Then the right season rolls in, you find endings to things hanging in the wings and feel so energized. Today I put away patio furniture for the winter, doing the seasonal close down with help. Then I cleaned my car in detail for it was needing it for at least a year or so it felt like. I ordered all the random belongings that I have going in and out. Sorted them, organized what was to be with me and then finally got to the actual cleaning of the car. Our mobile space so part of our lives, finally got a clean out. The last task I did was cut back my plants at Meadowbrook for winter rest. The perfect moment landed as I worked in the sun and rested the perennials for harboring inward til spring.
I felt graceful and contented as I shut down each thing that was long overdue. The plants inspired me to recall my last season of life. As I meditatively cut them back, a remembering of these old friends that have been with me for almost 20 years. From my cutflower farm, they were my pals for many seasons of bloom. Remnants of places and times before. I thought these are the last of the oodles of plants I have from the farmer days. They have been tended to since I left my farm. In a new world as I, settled in so well now. I thought "Wow. These are some of the gifts of my family days long gone. I realized how there presence has shifted the land here and that they were one of my creativities of the farm in Ottsville. I noticed all the land shifts I had made here. I lived here for 5 years until I finally got my birdnest, treetop home as I call it over a year ago.
I thought of when I first left, afraid and confused. I knew a new life was to unfold but knew nothing of it just that I was done with the life I had. Not that it was so bad or troubled but that a new phase was ready to unfold. The whole 6 years I wondered what am I doing? What is this new phase? Going through loss of a marriage, a farm life and my playful magic kingdom of 16 years was a long process. It seemed like forever for a new way of life to come in. I had to work in different careers, make due to live and find out what it was like to be on my own. I had been a tender of community, of flowers, of a family life so this me, myself and I seemed foreign. It took a while to get what it means to care for myself. Even though I was out making it, I still had my old way deeply rooted.
It took a few project efforts to get my purpose to go. I wanted a spa, education, event spot on my farm. It didn't work out so I collaborated to create a spa with another and that dropped out too, after a few years of work. Then I began the Room at Meadowbrook with Sue on her farm. It has been slow and challenging at times. Sue had always worked alone and I was always a collaborator. Finding our way to collaborate with no real knowing what would come forward. Yet though this we did to manifest this space that soon will be Meadowbrook Healing Sanctuary.
The road feels hard it to begin from point zero. Being in the world of others rather than playing on my farm. Finding ways to feed myself as a new idea unfolded. Connections, dating, adventuring and sinking into this new life seemed harder than other things I have had to manage. Yet today, as I played with my old familiar plants, an epiphany came of this past 6 years of all I had done and completed.
I could feel my energy build as I cut back the hostas and peonies. I looked at all the plants and gardens I created so easily here. I could of been burdened by clearing them on a cold day as the sun warmed me I suddenly saw what the last 6 years had been with such completely different eyes. Settled else where and on this new path, I got a new glimpse of what had gone down. It had a powerful flavor of accomplishment, tenacity, creativity and persistence. I was in "Wow" moments for all that had occurred positively in those years that I had not ever seen in this way before. My mind knew all I did but it had all the turmoil and strife story mixed in. Today as I cut back, cleared old memories as I did, I saw the beauty of all I had completed and built in the transition years of my life. I felt powerful and filled. It was a magical afternoon. A shifting epiphany.
I could of listed the things in a mental way but that wasn't what occurred. It was an energy shift of seeing things one way to a whole new way that had a feeling of power. Not confusion or lostness as I so commonly thought of this last chapter. Today it had a magic spirit of what wonder I have done in between trying to recreate a new life alone. I savored it as I cut back the plants. I thought I am cutting the cords, ties and hard memories of this time and putting them in the compost pile. All the hardship, challenge, insanity and fear, getting cut through and discarded for this new season ahead. No longer holding me in the story, the shape of the form. Really seeing the last chapter as the great success it is.
I know what I have done of course and worked so hard. But inside me, vibrationally, in full emotion and grounding, I truly hadn't seen the real picture of what I was creating as I was rebuilding or finding myself. Today, with the time, the sun, the plant friends of old, it reordered me to a new picture of this segment of my life. It felt full, rewarding, transitioned and switched into a more magical view of what was going on underneath the regular changes. These epiphanies, switches in consciousness come through time and reflection. You can't really call them in but when they show up, you say, "wow" what a wonderful way to see something that seemed so different from another lens.
I am not sure if it was the plant magic I am so fond of in all forms. Or the letting go season of fall that fits in all levels. Cutting the plants, clearing my memories and perspectives. Deciding without my mind but in my being what was to be kept forward versus put on the dead pile. This review not one of thinking but of watching or multilevel experiencing as I worked on the physcial garden. Suddenly one moment the picture was one way and the next, it had a whole new take that was in my favor of accomplishment and change. Persistence and purpose. Dedication and foreseeing. Really a magical afternoon.
I love when we leap, recatagorize life's events after a period of time. You need that element so you can see how when you are in something, it has up close views of everyday. Once you reach a certain hindsight, it all seems to make sense and you can let go of the issues that challenged you or made your world hard. A most beautiful story comes forward and your role so much clearer upon distance. I felt like a view, a phase of life gone. And I tucked it away in closure with a more correct view of what had really occurred. Not with the emotional charge or the mental judgement and expectation I had seen before. In a new realignment how it fit the larger picture. The purpose in the change, "hard" or maybe even the lemonade I had made out of lemons. It tasted sweet as nectar and rejuvenated my whole being.
A soulful view perhaps these times are. When we were so on top of what we were doing and had no idea it was happening. It feels grand, empowering. I feel lighter and composted my old ideas. They were valid before but no longer truth as to what was occurring in this chapter. The birds eye view. I feel like I am flying for the heaviness of the process could be let go. I soared above and was impressed with what I had done.
I invite you too to find time this fall season to reorder yourself. This was a 6 year ending but all endings give us lightness after the grief of loss is processed. The end of the season, the end of chapters that were so good yet all things change. The unlayering of life to see the paragraph summary rather than the detailed words of how or what. It is the time to let go, review and renew our vision on what has been done. See larger pieces of the plan that are working even when we don't know it. It is that time to let go of the hard, the husk, the challenge of the year and keep only what uplifts and allows us to fly. It is peaceful and satisfying. I am contented as I head to a bath feeling better about me and my world than I did earlier today. Closing a chapter and starting a new one all in a moment.
Be still and find calm in this way of the fall. Reflection, rest, reorder is not highly regarded in our culture. Yet it is so powerful to change you, to catalyze your viewpoints, your story, your unfolding of life. It is honoring and sacred . It is often what we miss in this hectic pace. The moments of great soul. So fulfilling. Contented as I write. Peaceful and a underlying joy to see my world with a new lens. Take the time to do this for yourself. Let go. Realign, Review. See the truth beyond what you saw .
Then you can go forward with less husk and baggage, fear and judgement. And even Lightness to start the new chapter that all of this came together for. Really a lovely afternoon of regeneration of my light!
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I feel like I am an expert at this after 6 years of hard living. I have been in the hardest leg of life for me to date! Despite it all, I live life in an artistic, playful way. It is easy to let life whip us around and condition us to see things in ways unhappy. We all go through challenging periods but it is not enough to drop you out of joy. Joy mostly isn't an outside condition, it is an inward vibe of energy.
If we get serious about it, maybe it could be all doom and gloom. I watched the news today and it giggled me. I couldn't even take it seriously. It is the he said she said drama. Many give me a hard time for not watching the news yet I haven't for 6 years and it hasn't been a problem for me to be out of the loop. It has made me healthier! This vibe is certainly not going to give you joy or any high level energy. To me, that is the game. How do I find joy and fun as many moments as I can? The news is not an answer as are so many other things.
LIfe is art. It is innovation and creativity. We are always making choices to go here or there. We are thrown all kinds of things out of the blue and it takes creative thinking to make it all work. Some parts of the painting are dark and gloomy yet we get the next day to add a bright color, shift our view and make our painting brighter. Awareness of what we are doing is important to live creatively forward. It is the goal right? Joy, happiness, bliss, fun. Isn't that the goal of working and accumulating all these things so we can have a joyful life? Somehow, many got lost in this goal and do not even enjoy it let alone consider it a artistic, playful creation. Yet it is.
I educate others on how to ride in the vibe and energy of lightness. It is a self fulfilling prophecy. How can we really be so serious about all this? Nothing is as we were taught. The morals, the ideas of leadership and strong character are certainly not alive in many places. The values are all amiss. People talk a good story but when you watch how and what they do, it never fits. Not that I am aligned in all ways and I am not certain any of us can be. We try things, mess up, we do "wrong" things, disasters occur and in the end, these things don't matter, they are part of this experience. It is how did you love and do right? How have you been joyful? Who have you helped? What goodness did you experience today? What are you doing to create pleasure, fun and joy despite the mess about?
I invite you to consider that this is an artistic, playful experience. Seeing it as this over a serious success story really gives you freedom. Consider the goal is to fall in love with your life. Not because you get this or that, here or there but because it is here as it is. Most know that no matter what you plan, dream, design this life to be, it doesn't show up as we desire or expect. At some point you accept, what is to happen will beyond your will, actions and ideas. When you shift this, it is more of a ride with unexpected twists so we learn to accept, often let go and still find moments to enjoy it. Artistry is a point of view. Some like abstract, some traditional, some messy, some precise. It is subjective and unique to all of us. Then it becomes a playful adventure. A mystery and story where we can be heros and heroines not matter what occurs.
I find this perspective more playful and light. No one is living the life they dreamed. It is impossible to control anything with so many variables, temperatures, conditions and people. They are enjoying the life they are living and thus it becomes a dream life but they are not living what they thought life was to be. It is an opposite perspective. They love so much of their life because they know how to have joy or make joy out of what is there. It is not an outside job. Having the outer conditions perfect is impossible. The perfect and dream comes from inside and it is more an emotional vibe than an outer condition. As you catch this, the whole picture shifts so totally that you wonder why you ever considered it could work the other way.
So play with your life in an artful way! It is far more inviting and the expectation shifts. You have more control and freedom for your goals are to enjoy, laugh, create fun out of whatever happens. Your control the inward vibe by presence rather comparing it with the outside conditions. There is greater laughter, less devastation, less pressure and far more fun and creative living. Making a masterpiece out of the colors that are there is much easier than waiting for the right colors. In the end you only need the primary ones and can create most others from them. Then ride the wave, dance through life, turn lemons into lemonade all make more sense. You notice, they are playful light perspectives, not serious goals.
A youthful giggle comes in and suddenly the world has far greater fun and magic. This is what I share. How do you enjoy it anyway it shows up? That is mastery. That is the masterpiece. That is the Magnum Opus written about for centuries. In the end it is not how many breathes you take, it is how many breathes that take you away!
Artistic, creative living!
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One of my delights is to study systems and see how to create quicker ways through them. I love philosophy, science, spirituality and health of the body. I am intrigued by all types and the less known modalities through my curiosity. It is a big story to me. As I learned from Spiritual Masters about my body health. I enjoy seeing how what I learned from them that seem basic and often absurd are now being considered revolutionary medicine. A student I am.
As these magical and scientific systems report ways to health, the parasympathetic nervous system seems the winner in all ways. This is our nervous system of repair, renew, rejuvenate, tend and befriend or rest and digest. We are all running around in the sympathetic nervous system of fight or flight as though the world is burning down. That is the only time we need this system and it is a short term juicing system. Our problem is that we are using this all the time and burning out our bodies.
It will create disease on all levels for we are not designed to run this way. We unbalance all our systems. When in this fight or flight, all other jobs our body does, digestion, healing repairing , are put on hold. So many of our bodily processes are not occurring as designed. This backs up the renewal, repair, the feeding, the clearing, assimilation, etc. Of course, you could see how illness would eventually come forward! The body is like a car that hasn't any oil, no lubrication of sorts. There is no rest, joy chemicals and the body can not operate optimally.
The parasympathetic nervous system is the main system we should be in, especially woman. Our feel good chemicals are rolling through our body, creating high moods, peaceful minds and relaxed bodies. This is also when the body detoxes, heals wounds, repairs its organs, all this occurs in this magic nervous system. In a society where we are in sympathetic nervous system rat wheel, we can easily find greater health by just creating ways to shut down that rat wheel some of the time and be in greater relaxed states.
Therefore, in the end, pleasure, joy, fun, relaxation, are the elixirs. We can do these in any way we want but know this is the way to recenter and reset our body. Calm down, slow down, find pleasure in nature and the things around you. These are the healers. Participating in things we like, enjoy, that fuel us and support us to laugh and be joyful. Yes, the world is crazy but we are the only ones who are allowing this fight and flight run us. Yes, the world trains us for that yet all the science is clear.
If we want health, we need to find joy more times throughout our day. Quick shifts, fully body awareness and listening, taking time to enjoy and do things you love in life. The rush of adrenaline is killing us. Our pineal gland gets calcified reveling in cortisol. We need the oxytocin of pleasure, seratonin and all the other good chemicals. It is basic. It is clear. It is proven. It is up to you.
I know you have a million reasons on why you can't enjoy life or slow down. How this won't work. That is an ok answer if you want to find out how you can burn out your body. There is a million ways you could break down from this adrenal stress and go on drugs to try to support your thyroid, heart, etc. The choice seems simple and clear Great health comes from you slowing down, finding easy pleasure, creating ways to have joy and relaxing into all things!
Be in the dinosaur run or pleasure of life? You get to choose!
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,We have so little information about a life process that happens to every woman. Fortunately, science is starting to uncover greater understanding of this and how our body is operating. This is a process that is purposeful, healthy and part of our path as woman. There doesn't need to be a denial, a dread or a fear of problems that occur when we stop producing eggs. It is part of a brilliant sacred vessel that gives life and there comes a time when it is no longer the main function of our body. It is natural, normal and healthy and it is a time to give life to ourselves!
I imagine I am in it. I no longer get my period regularly and at times I can experience hot flashes from too much coffee. It has not been a big issue with me. I have learned of my body and what is actually happening to it. It doesn't make me feel old, unwanted or uncomfortable. I am in a life process like getting my period, now I am not. It is natural for my body not longer to be able to produce off spring and I am happy about it. So let us get an understanding of this process so we can feel better about ourselves and what is going on.
Stress can cause this process to start earlier than normal. All my health information shares how our body gets burnt out by being in high levels of cortisol, adrenal stress. When our mighty adrenal glands are exhausted, our body doesn't run as well as it should. During menopause or perimenopause, these glands are very important in the transition. If they are taxed, the transition will not be as smooth. Our body can't do it's work so easily. It is paramount to get a handle on our responses to the outer world so our body is less exhausted in life, This stress creates issues that are not necessary or healthy. Finding ways to be in oxytocin, the pleasure hormone are the way to rejuvenate as a woman. There is no other way than shifting our body state out of this cortisol and into the parasympathetic more often. It helps with all life, this transition as well.
As the ovaries get to the end of their egg generating years, the energy that was used monthly for this process moves upward through our body on a journey to our pineal gland. On it's path it passes through all our body and gives us an opportunity to clear ways of being and review old issues. Our primary focus for most of our life was the family we created. When in those years, it is our nature to consider the group, the peace of our family, the stability of them as our highest purpose. We put up with situations and conditions that work for all and sublimate our desires. It is natural and part of what woman do. Society expects it and we have been trained to be a good woman. Peace on the homestead creates health of the group. Our nature is to nourish so we do this and often through denying our pleasures.
As our children grow, our life and purpose changes. We reclaim back energy for ourselves. We haven't put ourselves in the picture fully for years. The empty nest, depression, SAD, putting our nurturing toward animals or a cause, all can come forward during this time of change. We are in a process that is much like the teenage years when we first got our period. Our body now moves the energy upward, allows us the reflection and review of these quieted desires and griefs. We are given the time for this past to come up and be release as part of our birthing a new. Our pineal gland in our brain supports us to expand our wisdom out of our small group of family and into the larger world. In doing this process, we revisit old wounds as part of this journey. Having put others before ourselves for so long has created issues that we get to clear in this later life process. It is purposeful for we are reconnecting to ourselves. We no longer need to tend our clan in the same way and can do things we desire.
As we get the opportunity to rebirth ourselves from the full on caretaker role to a role of caring for ourselves in a way that will support us now in the world, a lot of old stuff is to surface and purposefully. We are capable to handle these griefs or losses now. We feel through them. It is a very pensive time in life of inward movement. We are looking at ourselves, our lives, what didn't work, letting it go and moving into a new expression that we haven't had since we became mothers. This is a huge shift and delightful when we understand we are refining ourselves. Yes there is labor involved. We can put time into us and whatever path we want once again.
Fear is present for we have been doing this role most of our lives. We have shelved parts of ourselves. it is ok for we are now reviewing them again. It is an investigative time to reflect and let go of imbalances so we can be authentic in who we are. The energy goes upward and passes through the power center. We get to see where and when we gave away our power. Anger surfaces for us and the hormones and chemicals in our brain bring this and old memories forward. It is part of the physiological process. Our brain is now stimulated by the very hormones that worked in our womb. Activating a part of our brain to clear issues and renew our power.
Many woman will walk through old abuses as an opportunity to reset their views to clearer ways to support themselves. All the injustices we put up with little and big, get a review so we can realign ourselves for this new way that doesn't involve others running the show. We get to process how we use our power, where we got it taken away or gave it away and how to now experience our power differently in light of our waning parenthood. Marriages actually fail at this time for a clearer view of what was happening comes forward and we get to decide if this is the life we want now that there is no clan to sacrifice for. It is part of the biological process for us to take a look at our memories and anger so we may be changed from it.
The energy goes through our heart and wants to clear any imbalances there. It is a gift this review of ourselves. We get to clear out old stuff that is no longer supportive for our future selves. We let go of these hurts by processing them. It is why depression, health issues of these organs and melancholy is part of this transition. We are preparing for our birth of our individual self in a way that supports us. It is like lightening sparks us. It goes through our body, lights up our imbalances on its journey to the brain so we may heal ourselves through a reorder, self care and gentleness. Allowing our real self to come into being in this next leg. Health issues all a sign of the imbalance and an opportunity to care for ourselves in a greater way.
The energy travels past the thyroid and throat, another menopausal health issue. What has been unspoken, what words did we not say. We are in a new position now where remaining quiet for the good of the group is no longer necessary. We get to review and speak up for ourselves. Again, the chemicals in our brain are being stimulated to go through the memories, anger is inspired and unspoken words are brought forward. This is for our review so we can transition to this new phase of life that supports us fully in a way of self development that works for our spirit of being.
These reproductive hormones are now supporting the reproduction of us by stimulating areas of the brain. They are creating this review and new look at life for us to clear our past and go forward taking care of our true individual self. No longer having to be quiet, neat, ordered and holding the clan in peace. What a beautiful process this is to grow into your authentic woman in this new stage.
Of course it has it's hardship and it is meant to have this review for survival of ourselves. We can know this process is happening and honor it. The anger is a stage of it purposefully. Not so we can rant at others but so we can allow that anger to process things that need not hold us in that old place. Perhaps giving us power to change things. In doing this we become a more authentic version of ourselves. Our pineal gland comes alive, we are a true wise woman of our culture. Now helping the larger group in ways that work for us.
That is the story of our body, the emotional energy that we are processing in our menopausal years. It is taking back our power that we, as woman have given up for our clan to thrive. We no longer need to do that as a biological position or an emotional one. Our body sets us up for the next phase where our strength, our truth, our individual being can be further brought forth in the power it is. We should welcome this transition and use this inward movement to our great benefit. Health and understanding come from this reflective time.
It is similar to our body growing with a baby, business or an idea. We birth all kinds of things, it is our gift of being a woman. We went through the shifts of our body as it grew and feed the life inside and managed through the emotions. the tiredness, the challenge of it. So we do it again on the back end for ourselves. This sacred vessel is well designed to support us here and we need to get on board that it is working with and for us, not against us. There is wisdom to how it runs. We are now the baby to be born yet again in greater power and beauty.
Unfortunately, we have not carried an understanding of our body or our role through life. We just were not taught how it works as the ancient woman's mysteries share clearly. See the big picture and the beauty of being a woman.
We are young and vivacious, we get in surged with hormones that stir our body to give life. This is an innate drive and we know nothing of it, often we disconnected from our body right then and there. We lived this cycle unknowning of it or the path to work with our body. Maybe we had children and fulfilled that nourishing reproductive drive, nurtured our offspring and supported the clan we created. All natural instinctual processes we are designed to do. Now as we leave those years, our gift of ourselves is given back. We get surged with hormones again to review, release, change perspective after all this process and become an individual again. Now wiser, more powerful for the process. We are woman. This is our life path and purpose. It is a beautiful gift of nourishing force. Now we get to nourish ourselves with all the wisdom we learned from doing it for others. How lovely is that. A beautiful story of menopause.
As we embrace the true story of ourselves, we gently allow this review to support our rebirth. We get support in the form of herbs, medical help, psychological help, whatever you deem necessary to birth yourself in comfort. It is not all comfort for it is birth. So we walk through it like all other phases. We are gifted back ourselves. The childlike girl we were before this whole process of hormones began gets to come into expression. We are ready to be a new, beautiful, wise expression of ourselves. How cool is that?
I know I am enjoying this rebirth fully and enjoying every bit of it! It is just the Art of Being a Woman!
Christine Northrop, The Wisdom of Menopause has great herbal and medical information on this process and ways to support you.
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So many of the new health studies and treatments are uncovering what the Masters have known a long time. Our unconscious, subconscious, unknown part of ourselves is running the show. We use our minds and ideas to move through life and we hit glitches along the way where often our beliefs systems are not in alignment. We have many pieces to this multidimensionality. Our mind doesn't run everything as we have been trained. Yes, when in alignment with our spirit, emotions and body, certainly we can create. Yet often this hidden side, the shadow, the unconscious has a great power to our experience and we are not conscious of it and how it works. Thus, its name "un" conscious.
What a quagmire we are in. We have this base system, developed as a child when we didn't have all the information or used our youthful mind to create ways to be in the world that runs us unconsciously. Hypnotherapy, psychology, many of the health practices are a way to uncover these basic beliefs that run us. That is why it is a passion of mine to share the healing and expressive arts for answers lie in them. This unconscious is tied into us through our emotions. The energy element, not the thought, the feeling nature is what holds this in place. Your conscious mind may want to create something but somewhere inside you, you have a counter idea that will create resistance and you wonder why is this not working? It is unconscious or in the sub consciousness? Here I use them interchangeably.
Know thyself, heal thyself. How are we to do this when we have a powerful system that runs us and we have a challenge to be aware of it? So much energy of protection and safety is tired in the unconscious as well for it was how we managed to survive in the world as small beings. There are nonsensical ideas and cause effect responses that have nothing to do with the reality we live in now. We have this locked in emotional energy that is holding limits for protection that is no longer needed. So what do we do?
As I have been taught there is a plethora of ways we can address this and many ways is the best approach. More important to that is our understanding that this runs us. We have to accept this first before we can change anything. This perspective can support you uncovering the mess. When we are thinking, out of presence and in our heads, our unconscious is running us. It is driving our car to where we are going, walking, doing the things of life while we are off thinking and out of our body essentially. The unconscious is running us while we are out thinking. This is very important to understand. We all know this and live in this world doing it more often than not.
We are out of presence when we are thinking in this way so we don't have full control of ourselves or are we getting the environmental clues about us. That is why present awareness, being in the now, being in the moment is so powerful. This is actually in the only place where change can occur. Changing our minds is done in the mind, changing our emotions is done in the emotions and changing our behavior is done on the physical level so we have to be present to shift any of these things. We can't think a feeling, we can't think an action. We can shift how we feel (present) or we take action now (present). We can think all we want but it is not doing anything. If we want to change a level or an idea, we have to work on that dimension, not just think about it.
As we get hold of this idea, knowing we have these multi dimensions running simultaneously, we can start to address getting things aligned. Until then, we are just going from one idea to another through outside stimulation instead of from our core inside. Lets consider an example. My spirit wants me to create by sharing as a life coach. My mind is on board for I have wisdom I have learned that transformed me and I can share it. My emotions love to help others so they are passionate about sharing. My site, my literature, the physical plane stuff is in place. So it appears that I should have a great manifestation. I am teaching and sharing with others but I want more success at this and farther reach. Our mind would say "Do more work. Get out there, you have to have better seo, clearer words, greater visibility" and that could be true. But there are times when people don't have the physical level stuff up to par and they still create so is this the only answer?
Now lets see what my subconscious, basic self girl has inside her that needs to get on board. Is there anything inside me that I am not aware of that could be causing a glitch? Well, it is unconscious so I can't just think about it and get an answer always. it is called unconscious or subconscious for we are not fully conscious of it. However, I can bring light to it, find sideline ways to get to it. Hypnotherapy can get me in the Theta state where this story lives and reprogram it. Looking at my childhood and what were my first ideas of success can bring in some answers. It is a dig to say the least to get this unconscious conscious. Many spiritual schools do past lives, processes, energetic shifts to re-calibrate the unconscious. So we must begin here if things just aren't right. Our world says do something different when often it is believe something different is the answer. It is not the action but the beliefs.
In this example, I have many ideas of success as I was socially trained. Get the stable job, work hard, get a paycheck and you will have success. Coaching is a relatively new industry and although gaining ground, it is not a consistent paycheck. Right there I am going against a belief on success. I am not doing the job/ benefits route so I have a part of me that thinks you can't gain success that way. My reference point for success now is out of alignment. I must update that success can come in numerous ways, the job idea is just one way to reach success.
I also have an aversion to the word coach. Words mean different things to people and often why communication is hard. Coach implies sports and I lived in a sports household and although I played sports, I didn't like its competitive nature. It had too much pressure for me. So now when I call myself coach, the seo word that describes my industry, I have an aversion the name or have an odd association with it. Here again, my unconscious ideas have a programming going against my life path. I am starting to make these beliefs conscious.
In the hidden part of me beliefs exist that go against what I am doing. They are counter the plan. I like the word mentor more. Yet mentor implies free and that will not gain me success financially either. We have so many of these inside us. It is a tangle of a life and quite the can of worms. It is part of the learning here to be conscious and in control of what is running you.
So there are just two beliefs and there could be many more things inside me working against my creation in the unconscious. I have to know myself, find ways to dive in and update some of this dark side that I am unaware of. That is why alignment, getting all of your pieces on board of a dream are the only way to draw things forward. We must have all our being on board and if the subconscious, unconscious, hidden side of me have things running counter, I will not be able to create in full vibration.
Another example is someone trying to get well yet inside as a child they got loving attention when they were sick. So they create illness as a way to get attention even though it is not so healthy, it gets them what they are seeking and the unconscious is doing this. They may consciously think, I am doing all these healthy things, why is this happening? For when they want love or feel they need support, the pathway to get it is to become sick in the unconscious. We have loads of this stuff inside us that is just bad information seen through the eyes of a child. This is the work of know thyself. To uproot these ideas and let them go free and adding the correct beliefs that we know to be true now. It is a process, an unfolding.
Illness and genetics are passed down this way. Our family has heart issues or cancer so if we use the same beliefs of our ancestors, we too can have those issues. But today, science is showing that with evolved thinking and emotional processing, we can change our path and shut off those genetics or evolve them to new experiences. Our DNA is not set information as once thought. We can evolve these strands through our experiences and actually change them. So we have many ways this patterning of the unconscious runs us without our full awareness. The game becomes, how do we unlock these ideas when we are unaware of them.
Developing ourselves through bringing the light of Awareness is key. We uproot these ideas time and again until the new pattern sticks. We realize that an under layer exists and we uncover these things as we go through life. It is a process of knowing ourselves and our unique operating systems as they come forward in life. We find ways to align ourselves fully and this dig is part of it. These patterns are not bad or wrong, they were how we saw the world and kept safe when we were young. The issue is that we are not those small beings in survival. We have gained many experiences and successes that override that information and we just need to reroute ourselves by conscious awareness. We don't need to get upset with ourselves or use self berating behavior that we are making odd connections and choices. We just love the pattern that worked for a moment and realize we not longer need this outdated information. It is how it all works.
This is the core of self development. We allow ourselves to update our selves, our stories, our beliefs, our motives. You learn to know yourself and the odd ideas you have collected. You see if they are purposeful now, and then shift or discard them. It is what we are doing anyway. Science is now offering great therapies that dive into this unconscious as spirit schools have been sharing practices to reveal this as well. This is how we grow and evolve.
Grounding our spirit is bringing in our unique way which is clearing the trained way of being. We unmask. The unconscious, subconscious, the dark hidden parts of ourselves that we through protection tucked away in these areas, must be unmuddied. It is what it is. Our being is set up this way to survive and protect. Once we no longer need these protections, we root them out as they appear. Being mindful, aware, going through old issues as they surface, all for our development of being who we really are underneath these things.
To clear our body of these emotional ties is the play we are in. So many processes out there are on the mental level. That level will not access the subconscious or clear it. It is the job of the emotional nature. Fear, protection, anxiety, unworthiness, are all emotions. They can't be thought out. We know for we have all tried that for that is what we are taught. It doesn't work. It is not the level where they came to be so we can only shift by using the feeling nature. This is the cause effect level. That tends to be a problem for we have discounted this nature. We look at it as the lower nature, to be subdued, not listened too, unstable. In fact, it could be but it is what creates this unconscious dark inside. So we can only rework it through an understanding, a processing that goes in on the emotional level. Another reason to play and notice our emotions. They are guidance as the thinking is and yet, no one is really teaching us about it very clear or popularly.
Until you want to get cozy with this energy nature, the emotions, energy moving, you will not uproot these outdated beliefs. You will be run by childlike eyes in many areas and unaware of them. Self development is developing these into wiser ways. We become aware of our idiosyncrasies and change them in a steady process. The good news is there are great roots to the many connections we have so we go for that root and many unconscious beliefs change simultaneously. Our roots are created in our childhood so clearing those ideas is the way to do it with greater efficiency.
We are just opening to really understanding this multidimensionality on the mind level. Be patient and gentle. This is our evolution. I find making it play, not so serious is how to work it. That is how I was taught and there is no right or wrong in play. Just an uncovering of information. I showed you about myself and how these ideas could effect my success. I look at them, feel them and then let them go. I live more accurate beliefs and watch for when another tie to that idea comes forward in the present and clear that. It is the process and we do it unconsciously so now we can do some of it consciously for a healthier way of being.
Let me be clear that we do not need to go back to our childhood like opening a can of worms with our mind. We investigate it presently as issues come up in the present. If I consider, something is out of alignment, I then investigate what beliefs I have that could counteract it, then and there. I am present, going forward in sharing my gift and then as I find a block, I then investigate in present awareness. That way we are not getting caught in a mental loop trying to find a needle in a haystack. We are doing something now, we look at then to see if there is a clearing of old information to be completed. It is very different than living in the past or allowing it to run us. Present awareness will bring us to these past things easily, in play, in investigation and as an observer. It is effective used this way. I have found it to be the easier, quickest way to play with my unconscious.
I Inspire you to play in the same way. Present awareness unlocks the past! Method is very important here so you can free and update rather than rerun the program! Playing with life!
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