We all have different lessons to learn while we are here. One of my lessons is in belonging. Others may not have this lesson so I am writing for those who need to hear this. To feel like you don't belong is like being cut off from the field. You feel you have to do something to fit in, contribute, make impact. Not that these things are not valuable but to share or express so you can belong vs share and express because you have value are two different starting points. 

If you ever felt you didn't belong, you may have this lesson. What come to me today was that we belong or we wouldn't be here. I already belong. I am here, alive, participating and part of the field so to speak. I don't need to earn anything, I am already here so I must belong here. Here doesn't even matter where that is, for you already belong. 

When you had the black sheep role or perceived that role, it was a feeling of not belonging. So you felt you had to morph or perform or shift yourself so you could belong. Then your actions were of proving your worth so you could feel you fit in. It is a subtle thinking. It is very nuanced. To fit in I must..... fill in the blank. What a survival position to begin from! Wow! It makes us have to perform for belonging rather than be and already belong because we are there. 

Maybe you can't resonate with this for you don't have this lesson. If it does, I hope you see this shift. If we don't feel we belong, we will morph ourselves into what we think will belong. That is a lot of work to be the round peg in a square hole. Instead we could think I am here so I must belong so what can I add or express coming from I belong here? Not I don't belong and I better do this or that to belong and then add. That is  a lot of steps! It requires reading the field, knowing what is appropriate, finding a way to do something that adds value and be part of it. 

If you decide you belong already and you are there for a reason, you already have value then offer something, you are coming from a place of authenticity and value. It is a simple shift and it can change everything. I belong by just already being here. I am connected to all that is because I am here. No proving, nor fitting in, just because I am here. I think our training has been that we better add value or we won't belong. How about we add value just by being? That washes so many patterns away. 

Your field begins with an inclusive sense rather than an outsider sense. The inspiration to do comes from a whole different place. For many of us that are empaths or different than others in what ever way, as we all have our own different ways, we have misread the reason for this. It is to bring that different way, that different perspective to the table not to change ourselves to fit in. Whatever our thing that makes us feel like we don't belong is not real. It is some child like training you got that said be like this or you will be cast out or you won't be loved. It is a child like perception. Maybe the world you landed in, you were different and you're there to bring in that difference rather than hide it through conforming. When you were little you just thought I will model what I perceive as the way to be so I can survive. You misunderstood.

Now, as I sit in a new place and new everything, if I ask where I belong I will be motivated to find places that I think I belong in. If I say I am here now, I belong already for I am here now, what comes forward to do? It is subtle but it is very different energy that moves at a different pace and from a different startng point. I have built communities, created friends all looking to belong. Instead, I could just consider I belong and then see what shows up rather than seeking belonging. 

In seeking belonging, I come from the I don't belong yet so I have to find where I belong. Instead I belong, I add value already, where does that go? It is participating in all around me from a very different point of view. I will see what it brings. I belong here in the mountains of NC because I am here. So what stirs next? A very different question than where do I belong? Belonging is so huge in life. It is the juice of living. To feel recognized, seen, helpful, participating, it is a genuinely a wonder of being human. It is already here for we are here. We belong because we exist. We don't really have to seek that.

As I say I am here, I belong here so what do I want to do now? It comes from a whole different energy than seeking to belong. Do you see and feel that? It allows us to express, to participate in belonging than to look for belonging. This is a huge shift for me to see this subtly in my thinking. It transforms how I expand here where I belong in NC. I don't look for belonging. I look to express my belonging or because I belong. I get to exhale. I belong so how do I want to express here? There is no urgency or need anymore. There is a restful moment of grace and then allowing the answer to "how do I want to participate that is me adding me because I belong." 

Life is filled with these simple ideas that take time to really see the network of weird ideas we gathered as children and were trained to believe for survival. As a child, if you are not approved of, you will not get cared for or only partially loved. We saw through these survival eyes how to be. It is not the truth of it here. We were born so we belong. How and where we belong changes when we stop seeking to belong. Shifting ourselves to different groups and ideas so we fit in is not necessary. If we do that, we don't really fit in for we are not really being us. And a part of us knows that so it creates not belonging for your are shifting to belong so you don't belong there for your reasoning is off. The not belonging is showing us our reasoning, not that we don't belong.

Life is trippy. I am always learning more about how to ride this wonderful experience of life. Same days I get it, other days I am so innocently unaware of it. As we grow, we can unlock these silly ideas we have and change them to more accurate information about what is going on. For me today, it is about belonging, which is really got proving in it, and doing so your are seen or known or add something. What if my presence here without saying a word or doing an act is enough? Just being somewhere is enough to say I belong and I am participating.

For me this is a big "AHA". I already belong here. Now where would it be fun to add value? Where would it be fun to just be? Where do I feel most comfortable being me? Allowing this to sink in and see what comes forward from this angle vs where do I belong? How can I experience life from this perspective rather than the old one? I already belong. I am adding to the world just by being. I already effect things. I don't have to do anything more. If I get inspired I could do that but if I am not in this moment, just being is enough for all things to flow anyway. 

I will keep you posted on this revelation. It is very different than I saw before and the desire to belong. That desire is now fulfilled. I do belong. We will see what happens next!

We all have been in waiting, whether now or at another time in life. Waiting for something along the way. Often the fall, a letting go allows us to empty and there is a void in between the old leaving and the new being seen. As I am in a new home here in a new place, I am  integrating in a new community. It takes time to mingle in the right places, find the things that resonate, interact in a new world in a way that supports me. 

While there is many ways I can jump in, there is also a waiting for the things that will really inspire me. We are taught to act in full flow which is not always the right action or use of energy. We only have so much energy and we know focused intention has the most power. I look, listen and allow myself to digest all the noise to see exactly where to put my energy that will benefit me and others. It is a bit different than go everywhere, be everywhere to build. Maybe at one point in life that was the way of being. Right now, waiting, watching and seeing where I want to be is more powerful. When the world is so loud as now, listening can be the best ally.

You can't rush the flower to bloom. I learned that in my flower farming days. It is up to the plant, the conditions, the way of nature. We are part of that very process ourselves and the waiting can be alittle scary or feels like there is no movement. We forget that movement happens as well in stillness and incubation. It doesn't look like it on the outside but as the seed grows under the soil, life has moments of that too. When we don't know what to do, we often rush into action for we are taught action brings results. Sitting in the waiting, holding our trust as what we intend has time to unfold, can bring powerful results as well and we use our energy wisely.

I am learning how to do this in life more fully. I love to act, get involved and see results. I can also burnout through this strategy. I have been traveling quite a few months and now that I landed, I sense the quiet and stillness are often the way of action. I am creating a life and rhythm that really feels good and inspires me. In a new place, at a new moment in life, the waiting and stillness is part of knowing what is next. The quiet listen. At times it feels good. At others, I  feel the get going mind to come in. I exhale it out knowing the idea is put forth, the trust is often the waiting and the world accepts that offering and takes time to bring in the form. 

It is like sitting at the ocean. In comes the tide, it comes forward, then slowly ebbs back, holds for a minute and then the next wave comes in . This is the natural cycle of energy. I am observing this tide has flowed out and in that holding, we all experience as the next cycle of water will come. This is where trusting all of life is becoming, you too is the way. Trusting in the uncertainty as our world is a bit in upheaval, knowing the solutions come  in their own timing. We are not in control of it all, only ourselves and our part. That has a cycle also and it is ok to hold in the uncertainty. Something the mind is not so comfortable with. 

It is in these moments of waiting for the next cycle to turn, that savor, rest, stillness, renewal is the solution. Fill up with the good that is here, the good that has happened, the good that will show up. It is quiet and peaceful if we can let the mind do its thing without our listening. Like a background noise that is just used to running things. Our heart has the answers as well and it is a time to listen to that when we are waiting.  The channel from head to heart take a moment to align and connect.

It is when you love on yourself, do the gestures that renew and dream the goodness you wish to see. It is a time to honor all you have done, appreciate yourself and feel the goodness down to your toes. There is a harmony and rhythm to all creation and I am finding, if I allow myself to slow down and align with it, I get more filled and nourished. Especially when I don't know for sure how to move next. Often maybe the next move is to sit, savor, reflect and just enjoy the beautiful color of nature all around me. Savor your harvest. Enjoy all you brought forward this year during this harvest season. It is ok to slow down and renew. 

Despite my mind wanting to move and solve, I am riding the larger rhythm of the world, of my heart and of my body allowing  a little rest. Part of me wants to do but the body knows how to use energy. Listening to it and using the your energy wisely is a skill I am mastering.  It is important for health, wealth on all levels and true happiness. We have cycles and as I am learning to ride it more deeply and joyfully, we will see our next turn. It will show up and then we have full on power to act in focus and joy. 

Love to you all and enjoy the savoring magic and beauty of autumn! Slow down and listen. Who knows what possibilities and joy is in store. The mystery can be fun like looking at the night sky. It expands, you can't see it all, it sparkles and glows and you just savor knowing the next morning will come.

Here we are to one of the most spectacularly beautiful times of year. It inspires clearing as the leaves change and fall, slower paces as the dark descends, fun outdoor harvest events, the celebration of the a year of planting. We all feel the call to slow down and enjoy the beauty. I have found as I am at the start of the leaf change in NC, a stillness inside that is expanding. 

Most of us do not invite the stillness. We are so trained on production and activity that stillness is like sleeping. What I am finding as I flow with the presence and the seasons, a slow pace through the whole year is far more healthy. I can go and go and then drop from burnout. It has been a pattern my whole life. As I spiral my learning of this, I am seeing how it is far wiser and more efficient to be at a slower pace that sustains differently. Truly the breath, our leader and indicator of the rhythm that will support us well. 

We all know the natural cleansing of this time of year as we head into the inward winter cycle. It feels good to lighten up, clear out, purge and slow down. It still amazes me that from  all the learning on healing and health, water and breath are the two most important simple solutions to rhythm and flow. It is right under our nose, I have studied many systems and to realize in all of it, hydrate and breathe consciously bring the best pace and health. I inspire you in this magical pumpkin time of year, to visit how you use both in your life. 

Our pace is so hurried and the level of information we receive is overwhelming. When I watched kids in Colorado for a friend, what always got me was how the kids reacted after sustained computer activity. When they played games or were given computer time to play, it really was like taking a drug from an addict when they were done. They also expressed anger and frustration when time was up and really took a minute to reorient to playing outside or doing some other creativity. I don't know if we realize how much this techno world effects us. Not that it is bad but to see how balance and remembering to connect to the reality around us needs its space too. We are so tied to the technology and it often is dictating the pace. 

We all could be run by the outside that loudly grabs  our attention. That is the mess of fight or flight. The intensity of we have to do and be alert and be ready. As I have taken this journey to find a new home, never was I in such uncertainty. My breath was my ally to remember and calm down. The water of hydrating and remembering to flow the other solid thing that kept me sane and in calm. We don't realize how much the air we take in and the water we drink are the rhythm that runs our body. So simple and so profound that in all the things we do daily, these two matter most to our pace and fluidity, adaptability. It is a power trait in these times.  To be able to adjust and reorient so important. 

Even now on this Sunday morning, as the beautiful day unfolds, I feel the stillness of the mind so clear. It is something we all contend with, the mind chatter of what should be going on and the reality  of what is. To let that stillness seep in so the mind can rest and our body can recalibrate to the slower way. It offers joy and clarity in action as well as calm in the being. I inspire you to play with these to ride in a pace that works better for your body. Gone are the days where we can ignore the body and its signals. We now how illness will speak loud after not listening to it. All these ideas really add up to pace and inward listening that we have not been trained to use. 

The exhale so powerful. The rest after it so full of contentment. The hold after the inhale of all the potentiality available before we exhale. These pauses in the breath cycle truly where the field of opportunity, creativity and possibility live. And I have missed it most of my life. So busy moving and breathing shallowly thinking I would miss something if I didn't rush. That life would pass me by. When really so much of the joy in life is in those moments of pause or savor of the wonder I am around. Whether a conversation that has no timing or a sunset that warms my whole being. These are the pauses that regulate and sustain us. Play with them and see if you find a different pace to address life. Yes your mind and patterns will kick in but see if you can override them into more peace and calm.

I share as I learn what works for me. From the very beginning of learning the feminine arts, the oxybreath or breath of passion I learned always amazed me how I could shift into parasympathetic nervous system so easily and quickly. I could get the present chills in my body of oxytocin, all through a simple breath. It shocked me then the ease of it and still I find it the most basic tool that works the most for me. Noticing how I am in a state of movement or panic that feels not so good. A few simple breathes with the pleasure sound can reset me.  Yes we all know and have heard. Are we using this as fully as we could to embody a magical life?!

Enjoy the harvest season! Reach out if you need support to shift from anxiety to flowing in grace!

I feel very strongly about this topic as it seems the work of the hour for woman. Our world is so fast and we are trained to be running at top speed. There is no pill or support that will allow balance without some awareness and practices. Being in panic, fear, anxiety, even low level takes awareness to realize there is no emergency. Your body trained to be in one so your work to support it back to balance. Yes, there are wild yams to support hormones, SP adrenal supplements, and the thoughts listed above that will help but you too must do the noticing. 

As one who runs low level panic most of my life, I have been in a journey with this. After traveling for 5 months with no home and finding the place to land, adrenal stress could of run me. Fortunately, as I have written a book, learned from the feminine mysteries and shared with many woman's groups, there are solutions that require you to notice and then reset yourself. I do not know of any other way to get back to flow that doesn't require us to be aware of our state and then take actions to change it. Life is participatory. Erika and I created a class 20 Ways to Oxytocin Pleasure for that is what is needed. You are in charge of your state. 

Breathe, breathing is very important in this. I know we have all heard about breathing but it is paramount if you want to ride in the parasympathetic nervous system. Your breath pace is the indicator of what nervous system you will ride, fight or reset. It is really that simple. Practical too for it is an easy practice we can notice throughout our day. As I traveled and even as I was in a bit of fear in Colorado during shut down, breathe was my ally.  We all say we know that and write it off. I have found it is the most powerful practice besides hydrating with good water that will create health. Simple, practical, doable.

So much has changed for me and it continues too. I am in a new space, new community and I have to root in and find the spaces I belong. I am not as good at that as others for I lived mostly in Doylestown the majority of my life. I do know that being in fear, will not get me anywhere good. Not in state, not in finding my place, not in health. Therefore, this breathing and setting up my nervous system is important as I walk continually into new situations. The adrenals could be overactive so I work to bring calm clarity moment to moment.

Many offer supplements, cleanses. lots of ideas on how to clear the adrenals and get back to flow. If you don't have a practice of what is my state? Do I need to be in panic or rush? If not, how to I regulate back to flow and enjoyment? No additive will work fully, It is a behavior pattern of stress that has to be retrained. This is how I live and the breath matters. The inhale, considered the active space, the intent, the action, the production vector. The exhale is the release, the balance to action, the night to day. These two need to balance in our life and why moving slow is key to health. We have forgotten this release vector. Then, there is the pause after the exhale. This is the powerful space of fullness. Of all possibility and almost a rest as the next breath conjures up the action of inhale. 

The rest of fullness is the key power point in our breathing. It is the pregnant space where new ideas, the next action, the flow is ridden. Our world so set on this inhale vector, this production and  2/3 of the cycle is left out of whack. It is killing our bodies all because we don't value the exhale, the rest and the rejuvenation step. Breathing shallow and fast, halts and shortens the most powerful vectors of breathing.
I am not one who does breath work other than natural understanding of breathe as we flow through life. It is a basic yet powerful transmission that allows me to flow through it all.

I, too, continually learn more and mastery of this. The exhale, the pause is where mind will stop and relax. It is where you ground and connect with the larger field of life. I have been so trained in the production to fear even. If I am not moving in a direction, I am falling back. That is so untrue. If you want to work with the larger field, with the larger world, you are only a piece of it. You have to catch the rhythm happening and flow in it. You are not doing everything. You could address it that way, but then you are not working with the magic of all we are part of. We are to ride the wave, the larger field, to act when it is time, not before or after. That requires awareness and the breath the easiest, quickest way to align with this.

I have spent the last 5 months in movement, the inhale, the flex of being where ever I was as I sought out where to be. This was very unstabilizing in some ways and it was very teaching in how to find balance and grounding without a cocoon to go too. To me my own space so important and I had none really other than my awareness and breathe. Now that I landed, I am in the full exhale vector and sit in the rest. It is quite challenging as move was the order for months and now sit is the measure. To balance all the adjustment, grounding, settling, the exhale is being relearned for me. There is no hurry, rush or looking for stability. It is here so I now train my body to this new rhythm which at this moment, is heavy in sitting, grounding, not acting. We all know how challenging that can feel. We want to move but my body says let us reset and rest here. All possibility is available, let us sit in them before acting. The exhale and the rest between. 

Perhas this seems basic and simple yet that is how I see energy and offer it to you so you can be aware. This is basic and normal. We are fields of energy and the more responsible you can be for yourself and field, the less stress you will live with. We have let the outside world run us, we have been trained that way. With the outside world swirling, we learn to not swirl and choose where to jump into that swirl or we will get sick. We will burn out our adrenals which most have. This is some simple view on how to ride it differently. 

In math or the Codex terms by Robert Grant for those who want logic, life is a spiral creation. A triangle in movement. All is just geometry swirling and interacting. There is the x vector, production, action, doing. There is the y vector, receiving, resting, downloading, listening, clearing and the line that connects the two, the hold in opportunity. This is the balance point where the x and y are in zero point, this gives the direction. We are off in our action vector so our spiral wobbles. The inhale the x, the exhale the y, the space inbetween, the field of creativity and gestation. Our world has forgotten the two most important segments of the spiral that bring in direction and creativity. Now wonder we are worn out.

It is also tied to the divine feminine as that is the exhale, y vector of receiving. We do, we receive. This is an equal spiral.  I think the pause is scary for us as we think, how will it get done forgetting we are part of the larger field breathing us. At least that is how I see all this living in flow. As one designed to want to act and move, panic and rush, it has been a huge transformation to learn this and put it in practice. Allowing is another word we are not so good at. Allowing things to order without our action but our intention. Yes this is a new way of living we are now embodying. It is different than just masculine production. 

Reach out if you need support, practices or coaching as you shift into flow. There are definitely physical things like good water for that alone teaches you about flow. Fluidity supports this new way that is not so rigid and structured. Many dehydrated so it is even harder when your body isn't in flow. That is why it is my mission to educate others on quality water. It is a problem the water we drink and a simple shift can add tremendous health. The rest is awareness and practice in settling down and floating almost. Yes act when action is called for but watch and enjoy 2/3 of the time, allowing the world to do its part too. We are part of an integrated, flowing system that doesn't take all our energy to work in. Let us ride in this new way and find greater health. 

The world is a changing and I see it as good. Slow down, watch, see where your energy belongs and impacts. Massive action is not needed to achieve. Aligned, focus action is and in the rest of the time, pleasure and joy watching goodness in life is a healthy past time. What we all seek anyway! No it is not so easy as I am one of action but without the divine inspiration, action is just doing and often fruitless. Allow the inward voice to speak. Listening seems what is called for more often these days and thus I am. 

​Blessings to us all as we ride through this changing time! Love to all!

I was laying in bed and couldn't sleep with worries on my mind. I did not want to have them and thought what a bad use of my mind this was. I thought what if I could be happy right now with what is going on? It felt kind of profound to me. Like how about at this moment, I decided I could be happy anyway rather than concerned?

It took me to a whole new slew of ideas. I thought of how we move from one thing to the other and even though things are really good, we concern about the next set of issues. Even with this moments issues, when is the moment to be happy? How long do I say now and rest? We usually only give ourselves a few moments for that true happy feeling then we are off to the next task. I felt good considering all the things I had to be happy for but was I really FEELING it? Really feeling that feeling down to my toes and nothing else? I took the moment to really do that! And how wonderful it is! To then spin out or extend on it so my body could be cozy fully with the happy feeling.

It transformed for in the moment and even now as I write,  I feel really happy and can i hold it? Hold it longer than a moment?  I could even keep coming back to it and allow it to be how I live? I live with many great moments each day and  do savor them but do I savor enough? Do I really feel happy? And if I don't am I really thinking this or that will get me to happiness rather than being there now?  Or is it that I am already where I could be happy right now? 

The mind wants to continually pull us out to this or that. The world situation or what someone said or if that doesn't work, whats my back up? Or how can I pull this off or what will I do tomorrow to get me to this or that? It is endless and I really feel in this moment, I am missing a whole lot of joy. Why can't I be happy right now? My mind could say well you have to figure this out. Or thats great for this moment but how about next week or what about expanding in your new community? It is like it creates problems or issues that aren't even there yet. Thinking ahead to prevent problems. I thought what a dramatic way to live! Always concerned for the next moment and the disaster that could befall so I will figure it out.

Suddenly tonight I thought, that is not a good plan. It would probably be a good question to ask myself daily and even throughout my day. What if I could be happy right now? I would relax. I would just quietly revel and enjoy the moment and perhaps even find things rolling smoother for myself. I wouldn't be prethinking through things in the same frequency if I was in the joy of the moment. I wouldn't worry as much for I would be busy appreciating what was. Counting the blessings. Daydreaming the good that could come or that I desired. It would be a whole different use of my mind.

As I layed there thinking about how happy I was in this moment with whatever problems or issues I have, a smile came through, a deep one. I decided to let anything that could take up my mind be let go and just be happy for all that was right now. It transformed my energy. It balanced me. It quieted me. It allowed me to call the day complete. It inspired me enough to get up and write about it. A deep smile inside from the innermost core of my being. Just happy for what is.

I hope to take this idea forward into the many tomorrows I have. When a worry or an idea of what to do next comes in just stop and say, yea but can I be happy anyway right now? Can I shift my energy to be happy even if that is? Can I settle myself into that quiet joy and let it go for a minute and focus on how happy I am? It brought in such a flavor of goodness and optimism about everything. I exhaled so deep. It took  away that vigilant part of me ready to solve and manage. it was a truly relaxing calm.

I thought I would share this with you for we all could ask that. There are many things we can attach to and be concerned or feel like we need to do something about. In fact our whole life could be one big slew of things, one after the other. I am not saying deny your feelings but definitely put them in perspective. Everything is not a dire emergency to get all riled up about. IN fact most things are not and we are just so wound in adrenal stress with the world state that we are going overboard! Try stopping for a moment and  be happy anyway and with whatever it is. Check it out!?  In that state, whatever we have an issue with is more likely to open the creative field to solve with out the incessant thinking. Just stoping the loop and settling the being, and being happy anyway. For most of the things will never occur. We can't think through every thing that could occur. We can appreciate all that occurs and then have a lot more happiness as we go through. 

Maybe this isn't as profound for you as for me. But tonight, I am going to be happy despite my concerns. I am going to feel the goodness for the 99% of the things handled, on track, in alignment and going well. I will just put off that 1% for a time. Really end my day with big enjoyment and maybe tomorrow when I wake up any issues will resolve of themselves. I think that is the way of magnetism. I win at it some times but I think I will go for winning at it more. Being happy with what is,  (acceptance), smoothly allows me to move in flow. In flow a whole new set of circumstances can come in just because I am in that appreciative more than that preparatory mode. We hear this all the time and now I will live it one more layer deeper.

I will keep you posted. And for now, be happy no matter where you are in this moment. There is always something good if not many things going on. Let the mind take a break from vigilance and allow the body to rest in goodness. It will thank you and you may find, the things solve without the vigilance. It sure feels good so I am going to ride it. 

Love and blessings as we ride through these very odd times.

When I went out west so long ago, I purchased this stone image above in ceramics and it always resonated with me. In todays world, belonging, acceptance and cohesiveness is up for review. I have had a life journey of this and much of the judgement, exclusivity and ousting people from the group resonates deeply for me. I have always wanted to be open and accepting of others for I felt the not belonging in many areas of my life. I feel it has been a purpose to understand others and even if they believed different than me, to look for common ground even if it is small. Some of us learn this in family and we learn to connect against all odds of difference. 

Some you just won't find that thread and that is ok as well. I never felt it was ok to judge but discern, by saying inwardly,  "we are not on the same wave". I can open often  to not call it wrong but just not aligned to me.  I want to believe and be me, so I can allow others to be them in their ways. This is not easy and does take practice and feeling through my emotions to find that openness and clarity.

 I can say, for me, it is a survival mental pattern. If I don't belong, if I don't resonate with others or adjust, I will not survive. Often love or any thing we need was not available if we did not conform. I never understood this but it is very much in our humanity. All of us are divine, so it seemed unkind to not allow others to be what they are if I wanted to be what and who I am. I have had learning in this loop deeper and deeper through life. I think humanity has as well.  Are we going to get along and unite or are we going to fight?

Right now with the split in things as it is, I have reached in deeper to understand this thread of belonging in me and others. In reflection, I have realized that as I complete this loop in me, I can be part of creating  a new way. I can honor another's path without shifting mine. Many times, I was quiet or conformed to be liked or allowed in a circle for acceptance. Now I realize, if I just accept me and love me, the desire to belong is not so outside as it is an inside job. Love doesn't require alignment. It requires acceptance of all that is. 

Like nature accepts all the creatures and processes going on at once, I too, can accept all creatures and beliefs as her.  I don't have to agree or align, I can just move to areas more coherent to me and allow the others to be in their own coherence. This way I feel peaceful, I discern where I feel safe and move to that zone. I let others have their safe place too. Some live in the desert, others in the mountains and yet others at the beach. We all belong or we would not be here, alive at once. When I get triggered by another's belief or ideas, I just breath and allow the old loops to complete. Into the earth not up to my head to create a story or a mental loop of againstness. I find this to be very centering and peaceful. It is a chance for me to notice I have ancestral survival patterns inside that are ready to release back into the earth that holds it all. 

As I am ending a long journey of being on the rode and feeling for that area I resonant with and can belong in all my wholeness, I have learned a lot about belonging. Most of it is an inside job. I sense and feel where on earth, in this case, in NC, I feel the most stable and alive. I didn't listen to my mind of where is the most people to connect with or do my business. I allowed each area of the earth I went to, to speak to me in feeling and resonance. It was very different than how I went to Colorado. I went there for my daughter and it was a very logical outward choice. For this next chapter, I did it differently. 

I am going to live for a bit in the mountains around Ashville, a place I did not expect to go. I was considering closer to family, a different environment than mountains as I already did the great continental divide in Colorado. But in going about the different areas, there I felt an exhale and a great connection to lush beauty. It unfolded I knew people there, met others through connections and followed the breadcrumbs so to speak. However, the true test was how I felt there. I felt home like bucks county with winding roads and lush waters. 

How do I tie this into our current world? Well, I will be expanding to find my community and belonging there. I will open to new opportunities of people that I have never met and am really not sure I will find resonance. Many would say that being an open thinker and into the healing arts that makes sense. I just didn't want to go to an area where grief was prevalent from the flood a bit back.  However, grief is everywhere these days. As a farmer, the lush mountains called and I felt resonate within. I am sure as when I was in Colorado, I will find many others that don't resonate with me. I don't need to be concerned, for it is that way everywhere too. As I whole my resonance and values, I will find those through shear attraction. 

We are in a time with lots of judgment and exclusion that I really don't want to be part of. I don't believe in the ideology of our leaders on any side so rather than concern myself with that, something out of my circle of influence at this time, I will focus on what I can influence and engage in those that are resonant to my principles where ever I am. I do not think it is cut and dry as many are calling it. I think it is individual and the more I align my values to this changing world, the more I will draw experiences and people that hold that some resonance. 

We live in a harmonic field that has all the notes in it. As I find harmony and acceptance within, I will find that same harmonic outside me. I think we all could take a minute to find that peace and harmony within so all our worlds can be more naturally balanced. Our humanity is all the notes of the scale. Yet certain notes sound harmonious as others create discord. Knowing your harmony and rhythm will naturally bring you to a song that sings rather than one that is off key. These things make sense to me and that is all I am balancing for.

Belonging is important to us all. We need to find that for ourselves and as for me, instead of seeing the discord and calling it out, it feels better to keep looking for the harmonic. That is how I have taken this journey for a new home and it has flow. It seems to have served me in a discordant world. I will know when I get there and root in. I do feel the excitement of that expansion and find focusing on how I am adding to that harmonic in business, in friendship and in myself, I feel peace while there is craziness around. We only control ourselves and our contribution. The rest of nature is doing it's thing. We either harmonize and add our own note or we express discord. For some discord may be their purpose. For me I want to belong and feel the joy of that. I can only know my mission and do that and let others do theirs. 

So I offer those who do want to belong, to first realize your survival patterns that are deep in us all. We will survive and our ancestors had far more hardship than us. It has been proven through the generations and it is time to complete that loop. Sense your center and what you feel and seek those places to belong and feel safe. Safety for most of us is an inside job. Then add into that by contributing safety, harmony and connection. Some places just feel better than others for each of us. Seek those places and build. Building harmonic communities and allowing others to do what they are doing is far more powerful to me than fighting against anything. it is just my learning at this time so I share what is working for me and bringing joy, alignment, flow and peace.

For as I can clear the resistance and unsettled in me, I can resonant out peace and belonging so others can feel it. Songs do it, nature does it and so will we as humanity. I believe we will find a way that all the notes can find their place in harmony. Perhaps it wont happen fully in my lifetime but I can lay that ground work forward for the next generation. We all belong and we are just learning to create a system that allows all to be here in peace and collaboration. 

Much love on your journey! 

So I have been on the road now going on 5 months and will root in October in the mountains of NC. It has been such a journey of learning to flow. To not be grounded in my own place or in the beginning even know where that place would be, creates anxiety naturally. I could live in this adrenal stress and miss all the fun of this mystery.  We all live in far too much adrenal stress. Our body thinks we are in emergency when we are not. Being on the road this could amp up. Flowing and adapting to so many places and others has a bit of high alert. I wanted to reduce, relieve and clear that for I am not in danger. There has been fun at every turn.

In noticing this, not wanting to let this state run me, I have learned so much.  I have food, shelter and lovely people and experiences where ever I land. So it is not real to be in this anxiety. Our pattern of waiting for the other shoe to drop is deeply embedded in our body for many. Especially empaths, projectors in human design and woman. Safety is a luxury to our body and a healer. Even when we are safe, we don't really feel it to the core of full relax. This  has been my noticing and practice my whole journey. Really tapping into my body,  my emotional states, my mind to keep bringing me back to the joy and presence of where I am in that moment. We need to update this  safety in our body. 

In these conditions of travel, it is even harder with the uncertainty yet a good way to know if practices really work. I have gotten to states of relax and trust beyond any other time in my life. It feels so luxurious, a child like delight and a trusting vibe that produces what seems like magic. I have been in deep tears and fears, felt sad and all the other emotions too so this isn't just about fluff. It is the power to notice, release and relax that is the magic. The deep breathes and flowing feeling in the body my only tools. Nature too as I always find presence there and have deepened that. We can be in nature and still be clutched and thinking panic. It will soothe us deeper with the intention of  awareness and presence.

"Am I safe in this moment?" is a great question. Our mind makes up stories projecting forward that most will never come true. I have learned to abandon my mind unless doing business or an organizational tasks.I let it be the background sound. My mind was and defaults to overactive and my head clogged from too much fire, electricity or thinking. It doesn't allow energy to circulate through the body and these create burn out, clog and, over time, illness. I have a glaucoma eye that is softening so I know this overthinking, analytical thing well.

We are in a time where many are learning to embody this energy fully down to our toes. This electricity, spirit, God, fire of life is wanting to be more grounded in our physical being. Bringing down the minds ideas to feel and express and act or letting it circle on out if it is  not  needed. As I have learned the magic of our body in relaxed states, used properly, things needed magically are orchestrated, not thought into existence. We have been trained to think all into being and not included all our other parts of ourselves, like our energy body or the larger world we are connected too and creating in. It is not inert matter. It is a flowing life stream already doing its thing.  Our ideas are only the beginning  and why so many techniques don't work.  We are all students in this life force, learning to work with it.

Embodiment is allowing the flow of fire into your body. There are many systems, ayervedic, chinese medicine, yoga, qigong, nuerology, trying to explain to us how to truly ride in this body and be in full control. Not run by the mind, emotions, physical patterns or sensations but by our will of spirit. It is a new time for this and it has never been done as a collective in this current world condition. I feel as we do this, realizing we are using the earth forces to bring in our wonder, we will create a new world. Now we are operating outside the body mostly run by old patterns of human survival and existing like a whirlwind. Sometimes in charge, other times running old currents for years. Now we can really start to create intentionally and fully. It begins by being fully in the body deep down, the life stream flowing. 

Truly , this way to live that has so much more fun in it. It involves big trust that life supports you fully. We have not experienced that as young children so we go through that process of unwinding the old for this new frequency and trust.  For me, when my triggers come and it is always safety for me on some level, I allow them to pass saying, " I am completing this old spiral of energy." We have stuck experiences in our very cells. The triggers support us to notice and release. It is a good thing to sense that survival or fearful way. Breathing through it, allowing tears but with the idea of the witness of you knowing it is not happening now. It just feels like it is. You are now an adult and can reason or get out of the situation. You don't need to respond helplessly as a child with no wisdom or reacting with no awareness. I so often notice how many old fears are continually running us and it is not now. If we unconsciously operate as we have from them, we will just repeat the very things we are trying to transmute and grow from. 

I have learned life is richer when you notice, allow to feel and release right then and get back on balance. This unwinding has gotten my experience of life so much more rich and sensual. Colors are brighter, joy is richer, all experiences so much fully without the extreme survival tension holding me back. It is a process and I imagine I will go through it my whole life but I get the process now and don't need to be lost in the glitch of repeat. Our body is such a friend and shows us the way when we honor its talking rather than treat or fix it. Those are purposeful but in the future we will not heal in the way we do now. Maybe it will take 100 years but it is moving out. 

Anxiety to flow is the best way I can say it. I notice, I feel, I let the old complete and then energetically all releases for me down into the earth. Then a well of water, of nourishment arises and I feel so much better. Lighter, gigglier and more alive. I have unlayered so may tensions. Deeper and more keep showing up but I know the process, I feel the lightness. and it is quite fun after a bit. It is a youinverse. What we see outside is truly a product of our inside hidden depths. As we address in lightness and release, the inside feels clearer and  the world does the same. It is really quite magical. 

If you need support or any other chat on this please reach out. I learn so I can share and I feel so alive these days even without my home. It is found and now the logistics will play out in timing but I found how to manage anyway in full pleasure, joy and fun as I was homeless and searching. This is a feat I am so proud of and I learned so much about me, my body and how to surf the unknown. I am sure it came to me so I could share and help others learn resonance, balance and lightness. It is a magical world when you get into the flow. Water is the healer, the teacher of mechanics and world we live in. Flow indeed is far more fun than trapped fire of anxiety. Blessings to all! 

I don't know if anyone else has this issue but I have over my life found myself cutting off the full joy of blessing! I know so many times I got an amazing trip, a day off or an exciting adventure fully paid for to some incredible place but because I need more flow for daily living, I would think, "How can I appreciate this when other things in life were not complete or flowing?' Yet isn't there always something in process in the cycle? Is that a reason not to feel fully the joy?

This has happened so many times in my life. I would get these incredible blessings. I would indulge in them and go to these wonderful places or enjoy the day off but there was a limit on my joy. I would feel so blessed then there was this ceiling that I felt in my nervous system. "Don't get too joyful or you still have this to manage and you need to worry about those things rather than revel too much in the blessing." It would bother me so and I would think "but Lyn, you don't get anything you don't deserve. Why not just revel instead of negate this magical occurrance?"

I think we all have this ancestral memory in us that must be cleared. A training of "You better watch as if you indulge too much it will be taken away! Or don't be too happy as misfortune is around the corner." Silly phrases that certainly didn't come from the true me as I don't generally think that way. I have always been able to see the good, enjoy another's blessing and revel in simple moments. I do know that there was an odd ceiling in me. Where the revel or savor would stop and the survival kick in. It would be mid adventure that common concerns would come in and take away the blessing being fully embodied. It was a nervous system thing I now know as I overcome that. I am sure many of you have been on vacation and you watch this kick in near the end where you are already planning the return. You have lost a few joyous days of vacation unsavored as you began the next week before it occurred. This non presence steals so much joy from us. 

We all come from immigrants and they had a hard life. They did not get to have the reflection, the joy, the convenience we do. If something went well, they were bracing for the other shoe to drop or the rug to be pulled out from under them. I've had a few of these experiences but not enough in this really plush life we live in this 2000, to build a strong pulse of that. We forget we were programmed since small fries of this survival mentality from many generations passed down in protection. It was not a conscious thing but a survival thing. In this time, most of us are not in sheer survival  as our ancestors. 

I stay often with my 90 year old aunt and I have seen where so many beliefs have come from our ancestry. It has been telling to see the anxiety, the worry, the concern, the "don't get to settled as a storm could be coming". She is a very happy girl and quite funny yet she has this underlying current of watch out. She worries for the worst and is so prepared just in case and very much a planner from how she had lived. She is my moms sister so I hear stories of a life so far away from mine and the reasons for this worry. Even though it is no longer part of her life, she still carries that as if it is here. My mom did as well and we used to try to say to her, that will never happen to you. It is not a real concern but it was in her program so she had a hard time releasing the worry. We all do. We are running out of date software.

As I have taken this 4 month long journey of such splendor and surprise, I have had the opportunity to watch this ancestral memory in action more than ever before. I have no real worries like the days of old but I watch a good thing occur and celebrate. Then in comes that survival thing, like that is enough joy, go back to bracing for the bad that rolls in now. I have been breathing through it to expand my joy longer and deeper. Letting my body know that I do not need to worry. I breathe to override this dna signal I have inside that really is not mine. 

We have so many of these things inside us that are unconscious. I believe we are in a time to create a new experience here by clearing these outdated fears. We have done this in many ways our whole life, expanded beyond our ancestors. There are ceilings or stop points within us that we can consciously breath through and expand to the true reality of today. Expanding the joy just one that is present for me now. I share to support you to also revel and savor more deeply. This is the security for me. When I can stay in a field of grace and blessing longer and more viscerally, I am opening the nervous system and human story to a more current time line.

I have found this most cute cozy nook on a magical piece of land with a breathtaking mountain view. I believe it will be my new home as I surf about the mountains in NC and see where  that permanent spot to be. It happened so magically through a minister friend, a new connection that flowed to me on this journey to land. Those bread crumbs we get in life where you put out an idea and then it returns in some odd yet mystical way. You know it is by divine design for you never could of conjured such ease and grace. Almost like it took no effort. I felt the land, the space small but the beauty perfect as that is what really grounds me. Others need other things but for me, land and beauty out my door are the security of safety. 

I thought "yes" and we met. Her friend was considering taking it so I said inwardly, what is mine will not come through panic and stress. Forward another week and now I am in the next step for procuring this lil space. As I go through the process and throughout it, I could hear, "better look at others too. What if this doesn't work out" or now you have this to do and that to do and I would find myself creating overwhelm and stress where it didn't need to be. Concern of my furniture would need to be sold and new things purchased. How will I store the others and how hard it will be to sort, move and the orchestration I must do alone. All these things that aren't even yet worries and most of them sequential steps that all moves involve and really are not a big problem. They are the joy of the journey that I was turning into worry or fearful things when this was what my 4 month trip was to be completed in. 

I breathed through it all and thought, these are not worries yet, you are making this all up in your head. It could go easily and smoothly. What fun it is to get new things and decorate a new spot with some old and new. Woman love this magic. How fun to finally feel you found the place to call home after so much search and travel. How brave I have been to hold and keep searching not in worry but with flow and intention that what is mine will show up. All the juicy goodness of this journey could easily be ruined by creating problems before they exist. Or by allowing that ceiling to stop me from really celebrating fully and joyfully for more than a moment the fun of the culmination of this journey.

I hope you see how we really do create problems and worries for ourselves when they don't yet exist. We cut short the celebration and joy of an achievement or completion of a project. We start more issue when there is no reason and reveling is the security of feeling so good about ourselves and in our nervous system. Cutting short the oxytocin moments and stepping back into the mind of hurry to the next step and make sure you see all sides. it is ludicrous when you really look at the stupidity and creation of nonsense when joy is here. I have decided no more. 

I expand the joy and stretch the limits of blessing and fun. You do this by noticing and breathing. Training the nervous system to feel safe for it is. These unconscious limits are not ours. They are an old story of protection we do not need. I have always been so lucky and things work out for me in magic ways. I do not need to understand or explain that. I need to fully revel in this everyday magic and allow my field to realize this is me. it is how it works for me and I can savor, revel as it stabilizes me. The worry, the thinking too far ahead throws me back into adrenal stress prematurely. It is not only unhealthy, it is just not real  There are no dinosaurs or true worries that a few breathes, a review of the situation and calm won't figure out. The immediate response of no safety is really a problem of health for us all. 

I complete that pattern of not savoring the true joy that comes to so many of us. No more ceiling here or creating problems where none yet exist. We all know it is the journey not the destination. I see how the reaction is to panic, be worried and brace myself for the next shoe to drop but I change that in awareness. That is what this time is about and this new world we are building. Making choices out of fear or from worry are not meant to be our operating way. We are too have more joy and abundance and that begins with reveling and savoring our good. Every last drop! Even if it takes a few conscious breathes to let go of the incomplete rings of panic inside us. 

We no longer have to live in adrenal stress and if we do, it is because we are not willing to really look at what is happening, have awareness and know what we can control and what we just need to flow with. Life has many twists and turns and I will no longer let the joy be lost in some unconscious pattern or ceiling. I will sip every last drop. I will allow that savoring to be my proof and security that life is good and joyful! I know we travel through many hairy places and to see our growth, our evolution, our expansion sets the tone of abundance. Not the worry of what could happen. That is old school thinking and I release it for me, my family and all humanity. Every turn supports the all and I invite you too to enjoy this expanding joy awareness. 

This is the new era and where we are in current time not ancestral time. Let us build this together. Reach out if you need support. This has become my embodiment, to experience the daily joy no matter what is outside!