 So I am learning of this feminine flow that we have heard of so long. Ideas take time to form and to emanate. It is so funny I am in the water business for I always felt on the physical level, when I got that we were 75% water, a light bulb went off. We are more like jelly fish with fascia holding us together. Emotions lie in the fascia which seems like a gel like water state that kind of holds our body together like a glue.
When you consider this more deeply, Dr. Emoto's studies shows that water crystalizes shapes by the emotions put toward it....... Really see that and consider it. So inside our body, this same gel crystal thing is happening in suspended substance of this gel, water, fascia combo holding our body together with the muscles and bones. So if I have pure water I drink, cook and shower in, then my water inside will have less mess to clear out. It will be easier for my body to do its functions which really is just digestion or chemical reactions to produce energy. If there is toxins inside our water, our body has to do something with those as it uses water as the communicator, transformer, carrier, toxin clearer and nourisher all at once. So I get the plain physical benefit of clean water and health of ourselves is clearly affected by the quality of water we input. I also get that when the water is in charged small units with available hydrogen, #1 antioxidant, it will pull out free radicals . Free radicals are seeking a free -1 electron that hydrogen water flows into you. That is why I use an ionizer for health. The water structure is easier for the body. In nature water is found this way, like a hydrogen mist at the bottom of water falls or the spray of the ocean. The healing waters like Lourdes and any where that water is literally flowing across the rocks or smashing down, it is like lightening or electricity that breaks the water bonds to create the healing hydrogen electron mist. That is how I easily understand why clean water is important for us in our homes and why hydrogen water is so healthy for our body in this toxic world. Take it another layer for the ionizer gives you the safest sanitizer germ killer there is, Hypochlorous Acid, electric salt water. Consider tears, they too are like electric (charged from emotion) salt water. How did us ladies not know this was 100X more effective than bleach? We are buying all these toxic scented substances to clean around our water body and we have another option. Once you get the toxins out of your home, consciously, cleaners, personal care products filled with endocrine disruptors, your body actually comes online differently. It can feel and regulate hormones better. It is being flushed of food toxins easier and can run in greater health without all the toxins everywhere. It made sense to my health understanding. This understanding is why I am sharing water system. Quality water first, then hydrogen water to detox with each sip. We all are moving toward the house detox already with less chemicals or less danger. But water is no danger to our system. In fact our body uses that state of water at different points of our system already to kill or digest or fever up. Now we get to the part I wanted to really share. For being on this journey of water health, selling the machines, living cleaner, not so many hormone disruptors and if they come in, my body is nourished most easily by quality water. Back to Dr. Emoto. On the emotional level, we can see how fear and emotions are in the gel or crystal water phase in our body. So when they say we hold emotions or that our body holds trauma in its cells, you can see them as stuck in the fascia water web in your body. You can get that water holds things in place, it offers a field of communication through the body and electricity runs through all this giving messages. Hard areas or stagnant cut off flows will create messes, pockets disconnected, no flow. Illness starts to build in here. Our body gets hard, less supple. Then we are dehydrated and it becomes more sticky and less fluid. Make sense? Again consider tears and crying. You actually release charges through the salt water of emotions. These cleanse us like hypochlorous acid. They are our natural purifiers. Gosh how often do we hold in those tears and they can't cleanse out the emotions. Pretty wild. At that level of understanding, WOW, water is pretty important part of us. We haven't even gotten to the mind level or how the brain is 73% water! We can understand the way water operates in our body as it operates outside the body. Thus why they call it flowing. Things move in waves, in circles out, in spirals, not linearly, like the ocean flowing, ebbing, pulsing. We think things move in lines but water shows us that is not true. On a planet of over 75% water in a body of over 75% water, it tells us more how we move and operate. It is how we embrace that emotional nature not as a problem but as a way to operate in the world. Waves come. Energy flows all around. You sense them, You coil ,you expand, it is a wave, watery filled really and we are bracing at it so flow is really just a concept. Can see how illness can fester as pain, as stagnation in the body? See when we brace, flow is not possible. If you can get lower in your body, from your pelvic bowl as your center of gravity, you can then begin to feel this flow. In the mind you are disconnected from it for it is in the body. You literally have to be fully in the body grounded down so you can fully understand how the wave flows. It can't be done in the head which is what we all have been doing a while. When you are anchored in your pelvic bowl, you can suddenly feel flow of the world. energy, water all of this. I am just feeling, sensing, fully understanding this and water is the teacher, how it moves. Try it. Feminine flow is like water. Water is like riding something. It is already moving. So there is less effort when you work with the mechanics of it. You must be down in the body and that is what I always missed. So water is just so important to us as beings on earth. This is where I am in my study of the elixir par excellent. It is really a state we are just becoming aware of and the world moves in such a different way. It is not the angles of mind like triangles. It is the triangles all building a helix together, a vortex, a fibonacci sequence, it is non linear. It is geometry connected in a chain of movement. Maybe I am getting too deep but I want to energetically convey this flow, this water, this movement, this knowing to come back on line inside you. Water nourishes purifies, flows, cleanses, clears, connects, In this 5 year study of water and using the best options, it has really effected me and I feel now I am getting more fluid in my physical nature because I am using it not only physically but as flow, feminine flow. It is slower. Water is slower than mind and thought. Of course the embodiment of the divine feminine coming on line too so it is all connected. They say the emotions are like water and I think again of the fascia stuck and memories locked and water, which is awareness and communication, it all seems really important to health and beauty. Think of it. Communication when it is good, flows like water. It is a dance of sound, energy, back and forth, that is how flow works, fluid and like water. Do you feel what I am saying? Feeling the key word ,for you can only really feel when you're in your pelvic body fully, .....anchored. Honestly, this is the most profound health and wellness, vitality and beauty tip I have. Quality water! It is simple but all these changes come into the body. Naturally, easily, clear and purifying. It is the foundation of this next phase of humanity being in the body, balancing the feminine flow with the production . A fluid dance. Very fascinating and beautifying. Reorganizes how you think of water?! Flowing forward.
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 It was over 13 years ago that the feminine way of being came across my radar. I had a Vibrant Living Festival at my farm and those whom ran it asked me to have their teachers come and do retreats. It sounded fun and little did I know it would put me on a long journey to understand feminine flow. I heard the words. I wrote a book. I taught woman's circles. I hosted retreats at the farm for others and then ran many of my own. It is funny for now I am learning a deeper layer of it.
It was not me or my slow understanding, it is the structure of our world for us woman to follow masculine principles. We can hear the feminine way but something just doesn't register for all the world is in production and the safety seems to come from that. We are all mostly in survival on some level. Wanting to prove, perform, devote and serve. Even the words can only register in our minds for we have disconnected so long from our body and our sensing. Our openness to see what is alive in the field rather than what our mind wants us to create. It is kind of subtle yet not really grounded. No one showed us the gifts of femininity. There are not many models and we certainly aren't trained to use these wise gifts. They say it is the rise of the divine feminine and I have heard it for years. I have heralded it and desired it and yet I still am learning for it is a presence in the body, an embodiment that we are all now moving into. It sounds so lovely when you hear the words, receptive, nourishing, creative, open, sensing. intuition. It resonates in our heart but we do not really know what it means for it is not a mental behavior, it is an embodiment. Where our body leads us and we are just not taught this or sure what that means. We are under such pressure to live as men do and in a world that is built on production and doing not sensing what is next. Production is part of the feminine but it is done differently. So here I am 14 years in and yet another aha moment comes. The basis of this feminine flow is an actual inward safety. Without this safety inside, a knowing that all is well and a sovereign sense that the world is working with you and you are safe, you can't embody it. I know this so well as I have lived in that inward survival that I was not safe without doing, serving, adding into, producing. I have come at the world in an inward panic truly that will only bring about the things I am concerned about. Basic survival really and so many woman live in this. How could we not be? Men may too but I am a woman and can only share from that lens of experience. If we are not taught or experienced that the world is working with us and for us, how could we feel safe. We must do or we will not survive. It sounds practical and correct. Yet that is not really what feminine flow is about. I can only flow in this way if I have an inward knowing that I am safe not matter what. We all have been trained in this unsafety and indeed it is in our cells. We haven't been safe in many ways so it activates our masculine energy to prove, do, achieve so we can feel safe. It is an outward way that may work for men but it won't for woman. Perhaps I had to lose all my roles to really see this in a way of trust in embodiment. My whole life I lived in a bit of anxiety, panic, worry for survival on a very hidden level. Performing, offering to have value, melding into what was necessary to have peace and survive on some level. What a scary way to live but I have done it most fully. In losing all my roles slowly, from divorce, from jobs ending. from ending my mother guidance role, from leaving the community I grew up in, from moving to a new place where I don't really know where I am, I am seeing the connection to my body and sensing. No longer able to live in a survival world where it will kill us and our body, I finally see how it all works. Funny and ironic. The journey to feminine flow truly. Blessed with so much wisdom of so many systems and the wonder of age and experience I can see how I am done all the opposite things that wind my body into tension and even glaucoma! Wow! What a revelation that I am creating my own form of stress and chaos and non survival by my own beliefs and doing of misunderstanding how it all works here. I know I am not alone in this for we all were trained this way. We are all seeing that the world is not as we were taught. All the things we trusted, all the processes we did, all the systems we thought were designed to support us are not real. They are not here for us, they are set up for the few to thrive and the many to not. As I go through this revelation, I see we are going from the perspective of the outside gets us safety, goods, objects that will let us relax. But it doesn't really. Those with tons are in the worry to lose it as those without wonder if they will ever get it. Moving to a world where we create these things inside and then the outer changes. That is why the divine feminine is rising. This pole of aliveness has a knowing of her creation, her connection, her support of the world, her precision and sensing knows how to work in this world. It is a remembering. It is the inside out approach that we all talk about but don't quite know how to do. No one has shown us or been doing it. So of course this is a new way of creation yet it is the way the whole world creates at least nature. I write for myself when I want to really know I got a principle, learning, revelation. It is my way to reflect through words what I know within. So that is what this is. Finally, I am understanding this feminine flow as a total opposite to how I lived. It is within me now, as a visceral feeling and it requires a full trust in the world. That the world, all creatures, all things, all happenings are working for my becoming. A feeling that I am safe just how I am and I receive just because I am here. Not for performance, action, or doing. It is like I am the flower that receives the sun because I do. It doesn't need to do anything and the sun doesn't say oh I won't give you light if you don't do this. Only these flowers get sunlight and not you. All things receive the sun and the nutrients from the ground just because they exist. All life supports you because you are alive. Not because you did something. This is a huge shift in grounding and feeling safe and supported inwardly beyond anything I ever felt. The words might sound like something you heard but I now embody and remember this inside me fully. It lets out an exhale. An exhaustion. An expectation. A smile. I can relax fully and let things unwind. It is new to me and so many others for this is what our time is about. It is coming from the space of safety, of I am here so I am supported by all or the sun if that makes it simpler. As I sit in this new found flow, I realize my system, my body, my layers are so taunt from all the years of proving. This is all a subtle, nuance of really knowing your body, mind, emotions and spirit that I am talking about. It is not really conscious, it is in the deeper parts that motivate us to move. Moving to participate, to produce, to survive, to serve or to be liked, to be this or that. The feminine flow comes from something deeper that is more a watching, an observation of things, an intuition, a body signal to move that feels light and curious not a mind produced idea. It is such a profound shift that I am still in the uncoil of all the years of coil. It is like a reversal in how I lived. Insane really. To start with I am safe all the way through my whole being and then in that safety, true safety, what wants to form? It is not loud or action like we've known. It is slower, like a rhythm and trust and it is not all action all the time. It is a more flow. We have to give ourselves permission to listen, which means more stillness and slower pace. We listen more. We receive ideas and intuitions. We nourish ourselves first so we feel open, safe, managed and full. These are true energetics not just a massage once a month. A way of living from presence. Allowing the world to meet us halfway, to show us the next steps and to observe and then move or listen and then move. So opposite us pushing our way to what we want. I imagine that is why it has taken me so long to get to this visceral safety. It is a surrendering to the flow of life and jumping into it as part, not a separate entity trying to get what it needs by pushing, proving, producing as if I don't I will not make it. Such a scary underneath motive that so many of us live by and don't even know it. Crazy stuff really. Gladly, we are shifting from identity to essence and presence. From mission to resonance. Service to coherence. Doing to sensing. Clarity to listening. Effort to flow. Holding others to holding ourselves. Roles to being. Striving to emanating. Completely different than how I have ridden in the world. But to me as a woman, those words, the feelings they conjure, the field I sense is so nourishing. That is what I am remembering. This is how the world works, not how I was taught. Maybe you catch some of this, maybe not. It is just my ramblings as I learn the Art of Being a Woman as my book was all about this. I caught it then in a way that worked in the structure of a family and in the role as wife and mother. Now, without roles, it is the same thing but deeper inside I embody it. It is that time. The time to honor that we are in a body so precious, that is gets to experience this place as our spirit sinks in further and will create from the inward center not the mind conceived ideas only. Reading the field, feeling the field, knowing we are one in the same with it, not separate or cut off. It is a delicious time. I am thankful for this learning as It is unwinding years of stress tightness, constriction and misunderstanding of how to flow. I am enthused for this next leg more than ever. Knowing I get to flow, I get to pace my own rhythm, I get to see what the world offers me when I trust I am working with the field in collaboration not direction alone. I imagine I will anti-age pretty fast and with water as my guide of this feminine flow, I couldn't be in a better position. To share my ideas, maybe but to share clean, crisp, water of resonance, purification, nourishment, flow, that is sharing what I am learning. Life is fun and magic that way. I am exactly where I belong. The blessings already are!  Congratulations to my lovely daughter for she was married this weekend!!! Exciting but I was not there or anyone for she got married in England. Short notice and a tricky world. It is heartbreaking not to have been there but our children do what they do. And they are allowed to be who it is they came to be. I just never imagined it would entail this distance and diversity. She was beautiful and looked happy. There is joy in my heart for her heart. In summer she will come and celebrate with family. I lost my role quite quickly as a mom guide to witness. Many go through this with their children and it is my turn.
So I am lost in space in many ways. I lost the close role with my daughter which I admit was a big part of my last 5 years of life. A podcast, our water business, our closeness, it is all shifted hugely. I can move on and indeed have to a new home in a new state. I am still in the reorder phase. It feels like eons but it is only my mind making it dramatic. I have wonderful things ahead and fun things becoming. For today, I feel lost . I feel like all roles have dropped. I think it is good, for we are an essence not our roles. We are educated we are those things so when they shift or change we get thrown. It is part of the process. We adapt, adjust and expand into new expressions. There is an in between. I am there. Much of the world is. The old world almost complete and gone, the new unformed. It is a big space as the empty canvas. It is the gestation that we go through on many levels through life, just never had one this big. I allow the lost in space feeling. It is where creation comes from. It still feels aimless and dark. I am releasing the low emotions inside. Giving them the cleansing moment to pass through. We must go through our emotions or we get ill. It is energy and we have stuffed so much down. There is good healing when you really feel them as the waves of energy they are and not get too caught up in the story of it. Things change. Things don't work out. Things are not what we want often yet life still has beauty, joy and love. Floating. floating, floating. The caldron of creation. I think the whole world is in this. It is a wonderful space. It just doesn't feel like it when you are in it. We want to move, produce, achieve, create. There are times in all ideas where you are in the void. The beginning. It is full of possibility. It is completely unformed. That really scares us or at least me. What really bubbles up and inspires me to move? Not what should I do or how should I create, it is now what opens me? What widens me? What wants to express now? It is also winter and the cycle of the year is perfect for the inward hang. Hanging in the creative openness with all possibility. Sometimes there seems to be too many ideas that I am overwhelmed or there is sadness and stillness. Really it is to get cleanly in the stillness. The zero point. Settle in there and listen. Then it bubbles up in its own time and how still you are. Patience and quiet. Something that weirds us out. But where creation and expression begins. From inward out. It is not the outside fills us as we thought. It is the inside decides and then it flows out and creation happens. Very wild space and yet so many in this very spot just with different circumstances. New ways are calling and old roles no longer supporting them. I feel the true feminine space of creation. A place where my roles don't exist or define me. I am not acting on devotion, service and duty. I am not really acting on anything but being me. Very different for woman as we are roles and many of them service and it feels good to us but it is not the true essence of us often. We go deeper to the expression of just us. Not our service. The deep void of creation bubbles up. Very interesting space. Age, experience, world changes, such an unexpected spot. The rebirth of ourselves after years of tending and nurturing. I write this for all others that may feel this space. It is not really lost but it feels like it. We have so many things shifting, energies of the sun flares, astrology that hasn't existed in hundreds of years and the age of aquarius as we all have heard is truly a shift bigger than our minds can understand. It is right and purposeful but it feels very odd. My inner knowing sees this as the void before the reforming. Things are cyclical and always changing. If you are here with me, know you are not alone. It is a good thing really we just like certainty and there really is none and may never have been but we thought there was. Exhale. Sit in the quiet. Allow the unwinding of old. Rest. Unlayer your mind and stories. Let is all go in a surrender that what was is not anymore. It is ok. New forms come in all the time and when we rest enough in this space, we will be reanimated by our very own essence into the perfect next step. Our world has not honored this void of creation and now it must. Old systems and structures on a personal and global level are falling down. It is quite unsettling. But we are here for a reason and our spirit of self has a purposeful space here in the collective. Allow that spark or voice a moment to speak and it will show you the next pieces. I know I have the outline to this next chapter. Let the details form not from forcing as we normally do but from them coming to you. I find I am learning yet deeper that all life supports us. We are not separate beings forging our way through by ourselves as we were trained. Pick a goal and push to it. Yes there was a time for that but it is ending. It is more like center in yourself and watch what is unfolding. Then jump in where it feels good, easy and fun. Like participating in a play versus being your own character all alone. The energy of life is filling us in a new way. We are becoming aware of the field of life we are part of not separate. It is sensual in a way I never felt. I am connected differently and energetically. We are coming into a new way that is not yet here but we feel the shift. It is a more collaborative view and energy that says you just need to watch and do your part. You are not carrying it all. You never were. You can relax, observe and watch how life meets you. It is a cocreation. it is not an individual build. We are finding this connected energy in a new way and learning how to work with it for it is the life energy we are. We just were cut off somehow or unknown to the connection of the field. Now we are learning and we will find our way in a much more grounded, less stressful way to create. I feel it. Exhale, observe, recharge, and then jump in where it feels good. Not hard, not pushing not forcing but join in the field. It is here and I too am learning it. I do know we are exactly where we are to be. So ride the flow. Wait for it as we often say. It is cocreation on a level we never did before. Blessings to us as we hang in this void for a moment!  Gosh what a journey life has been this past year. And it continues to morph beyond what we have known. I enthusiastically am settling in on many levels and I am sure others feel it too. Finally for the year, I have a new home and place to call my next chapter. From the planning to leave, the packing, the travel to find the next home, 5 months worth to now, in Alexander about 6 weeks and the exhale feels great.
I also feel the great learning we are all in. From that journey to the transformation with in that has occurred for us all. Today, I feel so much more hopeful and relaxed than in a long time. The energies feel good and really my inward view has shifted. So much of my life was built on solving, proving and pushing. Now, I feel like I don't have that as the unconscious reason for most everything I do. We all were raised to be useful, offer support and be needed. I came at life thinking if I am not useful, I am not seen. It has taken a bit to really get to the bottom of things. I am sure others have found some of their unconscious motivations too that no longer serve. In this whole journey, this transformation from Colorado to North Carolina, I learned that I really can make choices for myself in life and not depend on anything but what I want. This is new for me as many woman, we choose for our husbands, kids and others, family perhaps. I didn't really know what it meant to choose for me. In living where I do, I was the only one who had to feel good and notice how the land, the space, the place felt for just me. Not because I was close or needed or it was a good place for business or people. Just for me. This has been transforming. Watching how I engage, why I engage and what for has been interesting. The subconscious or unconscious running us and we don't know what these motives are. For love, for money, for accomplishment. None of these bad but to get to expressing just to be me and for no other reason has been enlightening. I felt if I wasn't useful, connection wouldn't last. So I pushed to be useful over just being myself. May sound small but it is a driving need that could often put me in crisis situation for I am useful there. I really have learned that my light energy, me in my playful spirit is already useful. That being myself is enough to draw in all I need. I never really understood that before. It may sound easy or simple if you already have learned this lesson but for me it has lightened my load tremendously. I feel so much lighter just knowing I don't have to offer support with teaching, words, deeds. Often just being somewhere in my true energy is enough. Gosh how uplifting is that. No longer choosing ideas by whether I add or clean up, or bring something or solve something. All those are good if it feels right but not as I better add or I am not really seen or acknowledged. This has been a good relaxing shift. I move slower, more aligned with how my body feels and how I feel. After a journey of many others and places, it is a welcoming relax. I can just be me, listen inward more and do what is called for by that. Not because it will bring me something. Because I can be me and that brings something already. I think many are catching a shift like this at this time. So I am really settling in! To myself, to my home, to my new area, to my own relaxing. So much less stress and moving from a more aligned internal dynamic than before. I love this time. I know the world is wacky but I really feel a big shift coming for us all that is good and will bring about a better world. Not that things won't be falling apart but there is a quiet underlaying of things coming together in perfect timing. Love to you all!  I don't know if anyone else feels this but I feel a surge of wonder! Despite what is occurring on all levels outside, I feel a lightness in the air and within. It is this wonder inside, or enthusiasm, or just playful energy is how I can describe it. Realizations, aha moments, shifts in perspectives are happening. It feels very fun!
It is fall so in the seasonal look, we are letting go of things that no longer serve. There is a great freedom in this natural fall off. It happens every year on many levels but this year it feels like we are really stepping into a level of creation that has not existed before. It is a thread of joy and becoming that vibes or hums underneath. I am experiencing this wonder and delight bubbling up. I know this is the month of gratitude as well so things feel cozier anyway. All these seasonal, weather cycles affect us and then there is something magical in the air too. Does anyone feel it? Hard to put into words and it is far more of a feeling than a logic or thinking. Joy is just bubbling around if you sense it. It is an inward mode, a trusting or a collaboration with life that I never felt before. Perhaps when control is no longer an option, this letting go gives us freedom to morph and shift in ways we never considered. The world is spinning and the normal ways don't work so we kind of throw in the towel and realize, I can make my small space safe and joyous only and then power rolls in. I admit I have a mystical spin on all of life so I look for the magical things around me. It is really a connect to nature for me that pulls this outlook into being. Nature flows through it all and there is a harmony floating around us. When I tap into that natural harmony, it brings in inside me and then I feel this different rhythm than life wants me to ride at. It is slower, more playful, more vivid, more open to possibility. It expands the mind or beyond the mind to a sensing that mind can't explain. To me this is the embodiment that we are sensing into. I have never before felt so inside me and in my body. I do practice the deep breathes between things, hydrate more consciously and intentionally placing qualities of harmony, abundance, health and beauty into my water. The mind is mercurial where as the body is much slower. To tune into its brilliance you must be in the slower place feeling the sensations and guidance. It is very different than how I was raised to process and be. As winter unfolds for us in the northern hemisphere, allow the slow, soothing pace to really sink into you. Consider your spirit is indwelling further than we have ever experienced. Notice how you are nature, belong to this world bodily. You are connected to the earth and the stars and are a current of energy running through it. When you realize this not just in your mind but also in your body, life becomes more alive. You get your grounding energy from the earth like you are a tree rooted in. You are receiving energy from the stars and cosmos, a current that animates you. These two are to be connected and flowing. As you become the vessel in between, you realize you belong here, you are safe and you are the energy that flows and you can direct it. This new embodiment is occurring and you can play in it. It feels like magical flow. We are that. When we find that zero point in the heart, the combo of those two fields of energies blend here and then you can command them out your hands in your works or expression. That is the fun of co-creation! Ooooolala! Life is morphing inside and how intriguing it will be when we can really understand this current and work with it! Reach out for support in flow, in water, in collaboration. Here we go!!  We all have different lessons to learn while we are here. One of my lessons is in belonging. Others may not have this lesson so I am writing for those who need to hear this. To feel like you don't belong is like being cut off from the field. You feel you have to do something to fit in, contribute, make impact. Not that these things are not valuable but to share or express so you can belong vs share and express because you have value are two different starting points.
If you ever felt you didn't belong, you may have this lesson. What come to me today was that we belong or we wouldn't be here. I already belong. I am here, alive, participating and part of the field so to speak. I don't need to earn anything, I am already here so I must belong here. Here doesn't even matter where that is, for you already belong. When you had the black sheep role or perceived that role, it was a feeling of not belonging. So you felt you had to morph or perform or shift yourself so you could belong. Then your actions were of proving your worth so you could feel you fit in. It is a subtle thinking. It is very nuanced. To fit in I must..... fill in the blank. What a survival position to begin from! Wow! It makes us have to perform for belonging rather than be and already belong because we are there. Maybe you can't resonate with this for you don't have this lesson. If it does, I hope you see this shift. If we don't feel we belong, we will morph ourselves into what we think will belong. That is a lot of work to be the round peg in a square hole. Instead we could think I am here so I must belong so what can I add or express coming from I belong here? Not I don't belong and I better do this or that to belong and then add. That is a lot of steps! It requires reading the field, knowing what is appropriate, finding a way to do something that adds value and be part of it. If you decide you belong already and you are there for a reason, you already have value then offer something, you are coming from a place of authenticity and value. It is a simple shift and it can change everything. I belong by just already being here. I am connected to all that is because I am here. No proving, nor fitting in, just because I am here. I think our training has been that we better add value or we won't belong. How about we add value just by being? That washes so many patterns away. Your field begins with an inclusive sense rather than an outsider sense. The inspiration to do comes from a whole different place. For many of us that are empaths or different than others in what ever way, as we all have our own different ways, we have misread the reason for this. It is to bring that different way, that different perspective to the table not to change ourselves to fit in. Whatever our thing that makes us feel like we don't belong is not real. It is some child like training you got that said be like this or you will be cast out or you won't be loved. It is a child like perception. Maybe the world you landed in, you were different and you're there to bring in that difference rather than hide it through conforming. When you were little you just thought I will model what I perceive as the way to be so I can survive. You misunderstood. Now, as I sit in a new place and new everything, if I ask where I belong I will be motivated to find places that I think I belong in. If I say I am here now, I belong already for I am here now, what comes forward to do? It is subtle but it is very different energy that moves at a different pace and from a different startng point. I have built communities, created friends all looking to belong. Instead, I could just consider I belong and then see what shows up rather than seeking belonging. In seeking belonging, I come from the I don't belong yet so I have to find where I belong. Instead I belong, I add value already, where does that go? It is participating in all around me from a very different point of view. I will see what it brings. I belong here in the mountains of NC because I am here. So what stirs next? A very different question than where do I belong? Belonging is so huge in life. It is the juice of living. To feel recognized, seen, helpful, participating, it is a genuinely a wonder of being human. It is already here for we are here. We belong because we exist. We don't really have to seek that. As I say I am here, I belong here so what do I want to do now? It comes from a whole different energy than seeking to belong. Do you see and feel that? It allows us to express, to participate in belonging than to look for belonging. This is a huge shift for me to see this subtly in my thinking. It transforms how I expand here where I belong in NC. I don't look for belonging. I look to express my belonging or because I belong. I get to exhale. I belong so how do I want to express here? There is no urgency or need anymore. There is a restful moment of grace and then allowing the answer to "how do I want to participate that is me adding me because I belong." Life is filled with these simple ideas that take time to really see the network of weird ideas we gathered as children and were trained to believe for survival. As a child, if you are not approved of, you will not get cared for or only partially loved. We saw through these survival eyes how to be. It is not the truth of it here. We were born so we belong. How and where we belong changes when we stop seeking to belong. Shifting ourselves to different groups and ideas so we fit in is not necessary. If we do that, we don't really fit in for we are not really being us. And a part of us knows that so it creates not belonging for your are shifting to belong so you don't belong there for your reasoning is off. The not belonging is showing us our reasoning, not that we don't belong. Life is trippy. I am always learning more about how to ride this wonderful experience of life. Same days I get it, other days I am so innocently unaware of it. As we grow, we can unlock these silly ideas we have and change them to more accurate information about what is going on. For me today, it is about belonging, which is really got proving in it, and doing so your are seen or known or add something. What if my presence here without saying a word or doing an act is enough? Just being somewhere is enough to say I belong and I am participating. For me this is a big "AHA". I already belong here. Now where would it be fun to add value? Where would it be fun to just be? Where do I feel most comfortable being me? Allowing this to sink in and see what comes forward from this angle vs where do I belong? How can I experience life from this perspective rather than the old one? I already belong. I am adding to the world just by being. I already effect things. I don't have to do anything more. If I get inspired I could do that but if I am not in this moment, just being is enough for all things to flow anyway. I will keep you posted on this revelation. It is very different than I saw before and the desire to belong. That desire is now fulfilled. I do belong. We will see what happens next!  We all have been in waiting, whether now or at another time in life. Waiting for something along the way. Often the fall, a letting go allows us to empty and there is a void in between the old leaving and the new being seen. As I am in a new home here in a new place, I am integrating in a new community. It takes time to mingle in the right places, find the things that resonate, interact in a new world in a way that supports me.
While there is many ways I can jump in, there is also a waiting for the things that will really inspire me. We are taught to act in full flow which is not always the right action or use of energy. We only have so much energy and we know focused intention has the most power. I look, listen and allow myself to digest all the noise to see exactly where to put my energy that will benefit me and others. It is a bit different than go everywhere, be everywhere to build. Maybe at one point in life that was the way of being. Right now, waiting, watching and seeing where I want to be is more powerful. When the world is so loud as now, listening can be the best ally. You can't rush the flower to bloom. I learned that in my flower farming days. It is up to the plant, the conditions, the way of nature. We are part of that very process ourselves and the waiting can be alittle scary or feels like there is no movement. We forget that movement happens as well in stillness and incubation. It doesn't look like it on the outside but as the seed grows under the soil, life has moments of that too. When we don't know what to do, we often rush into action for we are taught action brings results. Sitting in the waiting, holding our trust as what we intend has time to unfold, can bring powerful results as well and we use our energy wisely. I am learning how to do this in life more fully. I love to act, get involved and see results. I can also burnout through this strategy. I have been traveling quite a few months and now that I landed, I sense the quiet and stillness are often the way of action. I am creating a life and rhythm that really feels good and inspires me. In a new place, at a new moment in life, the waiting and stillness is part of knowing what is next. The quiet listen. At times it feels good. At others, I feel the get going mind to come in. I exhale it out knowing the idea is put forth, the trust is often the waiting and the world accepts that offering and takes time to bring in the form. It is like sitting at the ocean. In comes the tide, it comes forward, then slowly ebbs back, holds for a minute and then the next wave comes in . This is the natural cycle of energy. I am observing this tide has flowed out and in that holding, we all experience as the next cycle of water will come. This is where trusting all of life is becoming, you too is the way. Trusting in the uncertainty as our world is a bit in upheaval, knowing the solutions come in their own timing. We are not in control of it all, only ourselves and our part. That has a cycle also and it is ok to hold in the uncertainty. Something the mind is not so comfortable with. It is in these moments of waiting for the next cycle to turn, that savor, rest, stillness, renewal is the solution. Fill up with the good that is here, the good that has happened, the good that will show up. It is quiet and peaceful if we can let the mind do its thing without our listening. Like a background noise that is just used to running things. Our heart has the answers as well and it is a time to listen to that when we are waiting. The channel from head to heart take a moment to align and connect. It is when you love on yourself, do the gestures that renew and dream the goodness you wish to see. It is a time to honor all you have done, appreciate yourself and feel the goodness down to your toes. There is a harmony and rhythm to all creation and I am finding, if I allow myself to slow down and align with it, I get more filled and nourished. Especially when I don't know for sure how to move next. Often maybe the next move is to sit, savor, reflect and just enjoy the beautiful color of nature all around me. Savor your harvest. Enjoy all you brought forward this year during this harvest season. It is ok to slow down and renew. Despite my mind wanting to move and solve, I am riding the larger rhythm of the world, of my heart and of my body allowing a little rest. Part of me wants to do but the body knows how to use energy. Listening to it and using the your energy wisely is a skill I am mastering. It is important for health, wealth on all levels and true happiness. We have cycles and as I am learning to ride it more deeply and joyfully, we will see our next turn. It will show up and then we have full on power to act in focus and joy. Love to you all and enjoy the savoring magic and beauty of autumn! Slow down and listen. Who knows what possibilities and joy is in store. The mystery can be fun like looking at the night sky. It expands, you can't see it all, it sparkles and glows and you just savor knowing the next morning will come.  Here we are to one of the most spectacularly beautiful times of year. It inspires clearing as the leaves change and fall, slower paces as the dark descends, fun outdoor harvest events, the celebration of the a year of planting. We all feel the call to slow down and enjoy the beauty. I have found as I am at the start of the leaf change in NC, a stillness inside that is expanding.
Most of us do not invite the stillness. We are so trained on production and activity that stillness is like sleeping. What I am finding as I flow with the presence and the seasons, a slow pace through the whole year is far more healthy. I can go and go and then drop from burnout. It has been a pattern my whole life. As I spiral my learning of this, I am seeing how it is far wiser and more efficient to be at a slower pace that sustains differently. Truly the breath, our leader and indicator of the rhythm that will support us well. We all know the natural cleansing of this time of year as we head into the inward winter cycle. It feels good to lighten up, clear out, purge and slow down. It still amazes me that from all the learning on healing and health, water and breath are the two most important simple solutions to rhythm and flow. It is right under our nose, I have studied many systems and to realize in all of it, hydrate and breathe consciously bring the best pace and health. I inspire you in this magical pumpkin time of year, to visit how you use both in your life. Our pace is so hurried and the level of information we receive is overwhelming. When I watched kids in Colorado for a friend, what always got me was how the kids reacted after sustained computer activity. When they played games or were given computer time to play, it really was like taking a drug from an addict when they were done. They also expressed anger and frustration when time was up and really took a minute to reorient to playing outside or doing some other creativity. I don't know if we realize how much this techno world effects us. Not that it is bad but to see how balance and remembering to connect to the reality around us needs its space too. We are so tied to the technology and it often is dictating the pace. We all could be run by the outside that loudly grabs our attention. That is the mess of fight or flight. The intensity of we have to do and be alert and be ready. As I have taken this journey to find a new home, never was I in such uncertainty. My breath was my ally to remember and calm down. The water of hydrating and remembering to flow the other solid thing that kept me sane and in calm. We don't realize how much the air we take in and the water we drink are the rhythm that runs our body. So simple and so profound that in all the things we do daily, these two matter most to our pace and fluidity, adaptability. It is a power trait in these times. To be able to adjust and reorient so important. Even now on this Sunday morning, as the beautiful day unfolds, I feel the stillness of the mind so clear. It is something we all contend with, the mind chatter of what should be going on and the reality of what is. To let that stillness seep in so the mind can rest and our body can recalibrate to the slower way. It offers joy and clarity in action as well as calm in the being. I inspire you to play with these to ride in a pace that works better for your body. Gone are the days where we can ignore the body and its signals. We now how illness will speak loud after not listening to it. All these ideas really add up to pace and inward listening that we have not been trained to use. The exhale so powerful. The rest after it so full of contentment. The hold after the inhale of all the potentiality available before we exhale. These pauses in the breath cycle truly where the field of opportunity, creativity and possibility live. And I have missed it most of my life. So busy moving and breathing shallowly thinking I would miss something if I didn't rush. That life would pass me by. When really so much of the joy in life is in those moments of pause or savor of the wonder I am around. Whether a conversation that has no timing or a sunset that warms my whole being. These are the pauses that regulate and sustain us. Play with them and see if you find a different pace to address life. Yes your mind and patterns will kick in but see if you can override them into more peace and calm. I share as I learn what works for me. From the very beginning of learning the feminine arts, the oxybreath or breath of passion I learned always amazed me how I could shift into parasympathetic nervous system so easily and quickly. I could get the present chills in my body of oxytocin, all through a simple breath. It shocked me then the ease of it and still I find it the most basic tool that works the most for me. Noticing how I am in a state of movement or panic that feels not so good. A few simple breathes with the pleasure sound can reset me. Yes we all know and have heard. Are we using this as fully as we could to embody a magical life?! Enjoy the harvest season! Reach out if you need support to shift from anxiety to flowing in grace!  I feel very strongly about this topic as it seems the work of the hour for woman. Our world is so fast and we are trained to be running at top speed. There is no pill or support that will allow balance without some awareness and practices. Being in panic, fear, anxiety, even low level takes awareness to realize there is no emergency. Your body trained to be in one so your work to support it back to balance. Yes, there are wild yams to support hormones, SP adrenal supplements, and the thoughts listed above that will help but you too must do the noticing.
As one who runs low level panic most of my life, I have been in a journey with this. After traveling for 5 months with no home and finding the place to land, adrenal stress could of run me. Fortunately, as I have written a book, learned from the feminine mysteries and shared with many woman's groups, there are solutions that require you to notice and then reset yourself. I do not know of any other way to get back to flow that doesn't require us to be aware of our state and then take actions to change it. Life is participatory. Erika and I created a class 20 Ways to Oxytocin Pleasure for that is what is needed. You are in charge of your state. Breathe, breathing is very important in this. I know we have all heard about breathing but it is paramount if you want to ride in the parasympathetic nervous system. Your breath pace is the indicator of what nervous system you will ride, fight or reset. It is really that simple. Practical too for it is an easy practice we can notice throughout our day. As I traveled and even as I was in a bit of fear in Colorado during shut down, breathe was my ally. We all say we know that and write it off. I have found it is the most powerful practice besides hydrating with good water that will create health. Simple, practical, doable. So much has changed for me and it continues too. I am in a new space, new community and I have to root in and find the spaces I belong. I am not as good at that as others for I lived mostly in Doylestown the majority of my life. I do know that being in fear, will not get me anywhere good. Not in state, not in finding my place, not in health. Therefore, this breathing and setting up my nervous system is important as I walk continually into new situations. The adrenals could be overactive so I work to bring calm clarity moment to moment. Many offer supplements, cleanses. lots of ideas on how to clear the adrenals and get back to flow. If you don't have a practice of what is my state? Do I need to be in panic or rush? If not, how to I regulate back to flow and enjoyment? No additive will work fully, It is a behavior pattern of stress that has to be retrained. This is how I live and the breath matters. The inhale, considered the active space, the intent, the action, the production vector. The exhale is the release, the balance to action, the night to day. These two need to balance in our life and why moving slow is key to health. We have forgotten this release vector. Then, there is the pause after the exhale. This is the powerful space of fullness. Of all possibility and almost a rest as the next breath conjures up the action of inhale. The rest of fullness is the key power point in our breathing. It is the pregnant space where new ideas, the next action, the flow is ridden. Our world so set on this inhale vector, this production and 2/3 of the cycle is left out of whack. It is killing our bodies all because we don't value the exhale, the rest and the rejuvenation step. Breathing shallow and fast, halts and shortens the most powerful vectors of breathing. I am not one who does breath work other than natural understanding of breathe as we flow through life. It is a basic yet powerful transmission that allows me to flow through it all. I, too, continually learn more and mastery of this. The exhale, the pause is where mind will stop and relax. It is where you ground and connect with the larger field of life. I have been so trained in the production to fear even. If I am not moving in a direction, I am falling back. That is so untrue. If you want to work with the larger field, with the larger world, you are only a piece of it. You have to catch the rhythm happening and flow in it. You are not doing everything. You could address it that way, but then you are not working with the magic of all we are part of. We are to ride the wave, the larger field, to act when it is time, not before or after. That requires awareness and the breath the easiest, quickest way to align with this. I have spent the last 5 months in movement, the inhale, the flex of being where ever I was as I sought out where to be. This was very unstabilizing in some ways and it was very teaching in how to find balance and grounding without a cocoon to go too. To me my own space so important and I had none really other than my awareness and breathe. Now that I landed, I am in the full exhale vector and sit in the rest. It is quite challenging as move was the order for months and now sit is the measure. To balance all the adjustment, grounding, settling, the exhale is being relearned for me. There is no hurry, rush or looking for stability. It is here so I now train my body to this new rhythm which at this moment, is heavy in sitting, grounding, not acting. We all know how challenging that can feel. We want to move but my body says let us reset and rest here. All possibility is available, let us sit in them before acting. The exhale and the rest between. Perhas this seems basic and simple yet that is how I see energy and offer it to you so you can be aware. This is basic and normal. We are fields of energy and the more responsible you can be for yourself and field, the less stress you will live with. We have let the outside world run us, we have been trained that way. With the outside world swirling, we learn to not swirl and choose where to jump into that swirl or we will get sick. We will burn out our adrenals which most have. This is some simple view on how to ride it differently. In math or the Codex terms by Robert Grant for those who want logic, life is a spiral creation. A triangle in movement. All is just geometry swirling and interacting. There is the x vector, production, action, doing. There is the y vector, receiving, resting, downloading, listening, clearing and the line that connects the two, the hold in opportunity. This is the balance point where the x and y are in zero point, this gives the direction. We are off in our action vector so our spiral wobbles. The inhale the x, the exhale the y, the space inbetween, the field of creativity and gestation. Our world has forgotten the two most important segments of the spiral that bring in direction and creativity. Now wonder we are worn out. It is also tied to the divine feminine as that is the exhale, y vector of receiving. We do, we receive. This is an equal spiral. I think the pause is scary for us as we think, how will it get done forgetting we are part of the larger field breathing us. At least that is how I see all this living in flow. As one designed to want to act and move, panic and rush, it has been a huge transformation to learn this and put it in practice. Allowing is another word we are not so good at. Allowing things to order without our action but our intention. Yes this is a new way of living we are now embodying. It is different than just masculine production. Reach out if you need support, practices or coaching as you shift into flow. There are definitely physical things like good water for that alone teaches you about flow. Fluidity supports this new way that is not so rigid and structured. Many dehydrated so it is even harder when your body isn't in flow. That is why it is my mission to educate others on quality water. It is a problem the water we drink and a simple shift can add tremendous health. The rest is awareness and practice in settling down and floating almost. Yes act when action is called for but watch and enjoy 2/3 of the time, allowing the world to do its part too. We are part of an integrated, flowing system that doesn't take all our energy to work in. Let us ride in this new way and find greater health. The world is a changing and I see it as good. Slow down, watch, see where your energy belongs and impacts. Massive action is not needed to achieve. Aligned, focus action is and in the rest of the time, pleasure and joy watching goodness in life is a healthy past time. What we all seek anyway! No it is not so easy as I am one of action but without the divine inspiration, action is just doing and often fruitless. Allow the inward voice to speak. Listening seems what is called for more often these days and thus I am. Blessings to us all as we ride through this changing time! Love to all!  I was laying in bed and couldn't sleep with worries on my mind. I did not want to have them and thought what a bad use of my mind this was. I thought what if I could be happy right now with what is going on? It felt kind of profound to me. Like how about at this moment, I decided I could be happy anyway rather than concerned?
It took me to a whole new slew of ideas. I thought of how we move from one thing to the other and even though things are really good, we concern about the next set of issues. Even with this moments issues, when is the moment to be happy? How long do I say now and rest? We usually only give ourselves a few moments for that true happy feeling then we are off to the next task. I felt good considering all the things I had to be happy for but was I really FEELING it? Really feeling that feeling down to my toes and nothing else? I took the moment to really do that! And how wonderful it is! To then spin out or extend on it so my body could be cozy fully with the happy feeling. It transformed for in the moment and even now as I write, I feel really happy and can i hold it? Hold it longer than a moment? I could even keep coming back to it and allow it to be how I live? I live with many great moments each day and do savor them but do I savor enough? Do I really feel happy? And if I don't am I really thinking this or that will get me to happiness rather than being there now? Or is it that I am already where I could be happy right now? The mind wants to continually pull us out to this or that. The world situation or what someone said or if that doesn't work, whats my back up? Or how can I pull this off or what will I do tomorrow to get me to this or that? It is endless and I really feel in this moment, I am missing a whole lot of joy. Why can't I be happy right now? My mind could say well you have to figure this out. Or thats great for this moment but how about next week or what about expanding in your new community? It is like it creates problems or issues that aren't even there yet. Thinking ahead to prevent problems. I thought what a dramatic way to live! Always concerned for the next moment and the disaster that could befall so I will figure it out. Suddenly tonight I thought, that is not a good plan. It would probably be a good question to ask myself daily and even throughout my day. What if I could be happy right now? I would relax. I would just quietly revel and enjoy the moment and perhaps even find things rolling smoother for myself. I wouldn't be prethinking through things in the same frequency if I was in the joy of the moment. I wouldn't worry as much for I would be busy appreciating what was. Counting the blessings. Daydreaming the good that could come or that I desired. It would be a whole different use of my mind. As I layed there thinking about how happy I was in this moment with whatever problems or issues I have, a smile came through, a deep one. I decided to let anything that could take up my mind be let go and just be happy for all that was right now. It transformed my energy. It balanced me. It quieted me. It allowed me to call the day complete. It inspired me enough to get up and write about it. A deep smile inside from the innermost core of my being. Just happy for what is. I hope to take this idea forward into the many tomorrows I have. When a worry or an idea of what to do next comes in just stop and say, yea but can I be happy anyway right now? Can I shift my energy to be happy even if that is? Can I settle myself into that quiet joy and let it go for a minute and focus on how happy I am? It brought in such a flavor of goodness and optimism about everything. I exhaled so deep. It took away that vigilant part of me ready to solve and manage. it was a truly relaxing calm. I thought I would share this with you for we all could ask that. There are many things we can attach to and be concerned or feel like we need to do something about. In fact our whole life could be one big slew of things, one after the other. I am not saying deny your feelings but definitely put them in perspective. Everything is not a dire emergency to get all riled up about. IN fact most things are not and we are just so wound in adrenal stress with the world state that we are going overboard! Try stopping for a moment and be happy anyway and with whatever it is. Check it out!? In that state, whatever we have an issue with is more likely to open the creative field to solve with out the incessant thinking. Just stoping the loop and settling the being, and being happy anyway. For most of the things will never occur. We can't think through every thing that could occur. We can appreciate all that occurs and then have a lot more happiness as we go through. Maybe this isn't as profound for you as for me. But tonight, I am going to be happy despite my concerns. I am going to feel the goodness for the 99% of the things handled, on track, in alignment and going well. I will just put off that 1% for a time. Really end my day with big enjoyment and maybe tomorrow when I wake up any issues will resolve of themselves. I think that is the way of magnetism. I win at it some times but I think I will go for winning at it more. Being happy with what is, (acceptance), smoothly allows me to move in flow. In flow a whole new set of circumstances can come in just because I am in that appreciative more than that preparatory mode. We hear this all the time and now I will live it one more layer deeper. I will keep you posted. And for now, be happy no matter where you are in this moment. There is always something good if not many things going on. Let the mind take a break from vigilance and allow the body to rest in goodness. It will thank you and you may find, the things solve without the vigilance. It sure feels good so I am going to ride it. Love and blessings as we ride through these very odd times. |
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