We are taught the power of our mind, which is indeed a powerful tool. Yet we were taught I think, therefore I am. It is not a true basis of who we are. Thinking can take us many places and some not so good. Our daily mind, unconscious mind sees the world through a perspective of our cultural, societal, family lens. It is not accurate always. Certainly not as a soul having an experience here in a body. When we shift ourselves from thinking we have to do to be anything and realize we are and therefore can think and do, we re-calibrate our world.
Being a spirit in a human body is a fully different experience than thinking you are human trying to be of spirit. Thoughts are our currency here. So yes the mind, the higher, imaginative mind is very much our creating tool. Our patterned, lower mind thoughts in our unconscious and running most of our life creates as well but not in the power we have. There is a huge difference between these two thinkings.. In yogic schools, there is a difference between the lower mind of patterns, survival, instinctual thinking and higher, imaginative, creative mind that is infinitely in charge of the lower aspects of ourselves.
I am, therefore I think has a whole new flavor. We know this difference of the mind when we are divinely inspired, have intuition or a message of how our world could be. The Aha, Eureka, Epiphanies are of this higher mind that comes with having our soul, our spirit in charge of creation. When we exist in this running around, allowing patterned thinking that is unconscious creating, running us, our body, our emotions and world, we have little expansion and control of what is happening. We spend most of our time here, unconsciously creating.
To be the I am and sit with that in stillness, is the power. This inspires our use of higher creative mind. Often we get busy and move and react and rush. Our unconscious mind kicks in and runs us. It drives our car, does our daily things as we live through the beliefs, panics of our ancestors, our odd structures that the world is this or that. Life becomes insane and we wonder, why is this happening? What is going on? We have let the lower mind run our world and forgotten we are captain of the ship forgetting to use the creative mind. Our soul and spirit that creates with the mind in the stillness, it hears then acts.
This is a powerful shift in how you move in the world. Realizing all the positive things you hear people do and manifest beyond limitation is because they are operating with the captain, which is behind or in charge of the mind running the ship. This captain is not rushed, scared, worried it won't work or that it can't have what it wants. It runs in power and knows it can outlast conditions and hold true until it gets what is hears should be.
This captain, this being, the "I am", behind this mind works in a slower pace, more observing, focused, calm and relaxed. It enjoys all that is and what occurs as it is moving on course. It revels in the senses, the joys, the love and pleasures of the world by being more in presence, out of time, with security that all is good and all will come to be. The rush, hurry, doubt, panic is watched and allowed to be seen and released. not acted on. The caption, rides all storms and still gets itself where it wants to go even if it course corrects and rides through big waves.
This living in the captain, the "I am" place and then thinking from there produces a whole different world. We can think all kind of things and create many things with either mind. But using our thinking from the "I am" place is the power of creation we learn so much about. It is the higher mind that uses the thoughts purposefully, the imagination wisely and the joy of the adventure to advantage. Our thoughts are our currency. We need to be aware of them and where they are coming from and know we can step away from them, be still as the captain, and redirect our imagination, higher mind where we want to go.
This is the profoundly different way than we were taught in school. All the great writers and philosophers have eluded to this but we were not taught this truth deeply or with enough clarity to really live this. We all use this higher mind yet we are not always so conscious how it all works here but not there. The real brilliance is the stillness, the imagining, the realizing you are the power and truly operating from there. When your not, you notice, slow back down to find that captain, the "I am " presence and begin again.
I am that I am. You can fill in whatever that you want! The I am comes first.
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I am always seeking tweaks in how we can shift quickly and get back to that glide of life. It is much simpler than you think. I share many of them in my classes, on my blogs, videos and in coaching. Yesterday I tried something with a tad different twist and I was amazed at how it shifted up my energy and mood. So I must share it! Shifting your energy quickly is easily done most times. Learning how to play with it is invaluable in life and getting things done. Having easy tools is the power of energy management!
We all have heard of gratitude. We are offered this as a great energy boost and way to draw on abundance. I used this in quite a new way yesterday that really inspired my energy in a flirty, sexy way. My daughter shared it with me and we both ended up in high vibe so easily. I do inspire you to use gratitude in all ways you have learned and try this one for a new spin. Tools are needed in so many forms. At different times, different ones works so to have many to use, to shift is invaluable. I find if one doesn't shift me, I keep trying all the different forms I know until one lifts me even a bit, and then I am off raising my energy. Energy raises action and mood easily.
Rather than just be thankful for what is, which is powerful, try thanking the Universe, God, Goddess, Spirit for what you want as though you have already received it. Sounds like a small tweak, a play on words and it is. You may have heard fake it til you make it. I am not so inspired by that although if you are good with your imagination that could work. I am asking for it in a little different way cause "faking" it drops my energy immediately. Working with energy, vibe, it is a feeling that you are seeking, a real one that you feel through and through. With energy, that is all you need. I can easily thank for what I want with a real vibe as though it is here easier than faking it. Faking is like I am pretending and I guess either way is pretending. I look it as anticipating. Words are tricky with emotions so find how it works for you. Energy raises easily when you find your authentic ways for you that often are tiny tweaks.
I will explain how it works for me and you see how you can use this juicy vibe. In this new year, I am open to new opportunities and conditions. Rather than ask for guidance from a confused place or even an open place, I thanked the Greater Good for all the opportunities I have. I went on and on, all the joy i feel for them, all the financial stability these bring, all the enthusiasm and passion they bring. I continued in gratitude in as many ways as I could for what I was seeking as though I had it.
Sounds simple but try this with full embodiment. It brought in a motivating vibe so quick. I felt so light, flirty as I said these things. I started doing all these boring tasks I was putting off. I had this adventurous vibe that was so easy to create. I was surprised I must say, but that is how energy works. It is there in a moments notice. Energy is free everywhere when you see how easy it is to grab it. You need easy tools to get it moving in the direction you desire.
"Thank you for all the people I effect with the ideas I learned. Thank you for the fun vibe my life has. Thank you for the playful opportunities life is bringing me. Thank you for the health and beauty I am experiencing. Thank you for all the new clients I have in 2020. Thank you for the great influence I have. Thank you for these gifts of abundance. Thank you for the wealth I feel on all levels. Thank you for the new people I have met. Thank you for the clan I am part of. Thank you for the ways I care for myself so well. Thank you for the global ways I serve the world. Thank you for the money I generate from the internet. Thank you for the opportunities I have received to share and educate. Thank you for the exciting adventure I have in life this year. Thank you for all the joy I feel. "
Do you feel it? Raising the Vibe! Romance your life with gratitude for what you want!
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Today I am romancing myself and my world by being still. It is not something I am so good at. In fact, I find it very hard yet I can't move. It is funny. My mind is chatting at me saying do something, get up and go and all I will do is write about it. I am at a crossroads in this new year of where and how to move forward. I do not want to just do for the sake of doing as our world has taught us. Go be ambitious, make money, act, move and be productive.
Something else inside is asking me to be still and just sit. Sit and listen. Await til the true, in spirited movement causes action. Action of inspired, angelic, rightful force. Await the directive of clear, pure inspired action. I am writing this feeling of bipolar energy flowing. My mind wants me to move, my body wants to rest. My emotions turbid trying to make sense of this dual impulse. I want to do for the highest good. I want to move with great power and direction. I want to participate in a way that sings my heart and be moved by the deep soul inside me.
What action other than writing still is not clear. There is a pain in my heart that wants to unlock and I know not how to do it. Move, sit, get up, stay still. I am restraining myself. I don't know how to make sense of it other than my heart, my chalice of spirit, of love within is burning something, allowing some cauldron action that I am not sure of but experiencing. It is a wild mix of wanting to move but not knowing how.
So I sit and write, observing, feeling the movement within. Knowing something is happening as I sit and write. Not sure how to use it or be good with it, yet experiencing it. My crown spinning, I filling with energy or light or spirit. Filling and filling with something so powerful. Allowing it. Opening to it. Being present with it. Not knowing what it is but feeling good with it. Intrigued by it and investigating it. Like the tarot card of Ace of Wands, Filling with blessing to where I could burst and want to over pour but don't know how on this plane.
I vowed to hold until I was sure what the next action would be. Still in the hold, still in the receiving, still in the do nothing but fill. Keeping my mind thoughts and my desire to move in hold until it is clear what that action is. I have spent so much life just moving to move. Being ambitious, helpful, striving, doing. Often to my own exhaustion and not always getting somewhere good. It is how we are trained to move, do, achieve. It is a busying. I don't want to participate in anymore.
I want to be fully inspired, aligned in action. That all of my being is in it and directed and focused. Where action is like gliding and dancing rather than effort and pushing. Inspired action they call it where you float on the energy of the universe aligned with a greater force. In 2020 I want to move like this rather than with just my own ideas and energy. I have done that enough and am tired. I know this is not the best use of energy or most powerful way to move. There are smarter uses of energy and I will sit until it gushes forth in me in the way I was taught to move in grace and ease.
As I do this, you hear my beliefs challenge me. Some pieces of me want to do as I was taught. They are powerful beliefs wanting to run me. I am challenging them in this moment for they are not the true soul and spirit I am. They are stories I have learned that want me to move for movements sake.
I will find the balance between this filling, this transforming and the right action that will appear if I endure and hold long enough. I know there is great action to be done yet don't see what it is. So I sit. I write. I share. I await the true direction I am to go. I allow this duality to exist in me as it does its thing. Very fascinating observance that giggles me. My feet firmly planted and going no where quite yet.
Awaiting the direction from within rather than outside. A tug of war. We need to listen more and do less. Then when doing, do aligned and in full force and laser focus. It is most efficient that way energetically but also in heart, mind and body all connected. It will come. I will wait. I watch it all settle into direction.
A new way is dawning. I will lead in this way. I will listen first. I will guide others to as well. It is how enthusiasm, en theos, in spirit is expressed and moves mountains.
Being curious supports a joyful, expanding life! Children are very curious and lets face it, no matter how old you are, you are truly a child within. Our current world doesn't support this child like nature that we are. We are taught to be serious, adult like and quite stodgy. I am not good at that so I don't even try anymore. I embrace my Child Like Empress for it makes life more fun, pleasurable and exciting. Although I have more experiences than youth, I still am youthful in spirit. We all are.
One of the most expanding qualities is curiosity. The open, learning, investigative heart is what we really are. Limits harden our minds and perspectives. Nothing here is solid or stable. We are on a moving planet in a moving universe. Our bodies are filled with movement of atoms, liquids, shifting energy, digesting and converting all things. Flowing continually. So our minds, hearts and views are flowing naturally. Living with this truth creates a whole new world.
We are always experiencing and that creates change in our perspectives. Being curious with this. Live this. Eyes of a child is the most exciting view of the world. There is no fears, no limits, no know it all. It is a fluid view that is naturally investigative.
Wonderment! Curiosity! Openness! These are inspiring qualities. May you walk forward using these natural perspectives in life. Lots of things are shifting in the world These tools and views support you to flow in this new world unfolding. I am inspired by this and plan to use my curiosity to romance my life, myself and others.
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The definition of Romance on google is a feeling of excitement and mystery associated with love. It doesn't say another person, a thing or situation. Just a feeling associated with love. It involves all kinds of love. A sound bite that inspires me into the magical. Romancing things is juicy, conjures pleasure and fun, enthusiasm and allure.
I want to go forward in this new year with more love in all ways. Romance describes the mystery of life I am claiming this year. Not only romance with a partner, or love of my child or friends. Or even love of what I want to have or be. Romance in all ways. Even beyond what I can consider right now. It sounds enticing and a worthy way to live life! Words have such power of vibe, emotion, energy in motion, I want to see where this idea for 2020 takes me and how it feels!
This past year had such transition and ending. My mom died, the last parent I had. I lost my job of 3 years. My girl is in another state creating her life, I have an new page open. I want to enter it like it is part 3 or something beyond another chapter. I want to be inspired, feel passion and power energy again. Romancing life sounds like exactly what we all need in this sticky, challenging world.
I don't want to recycle things I have done before or at least not in the same way. We get in rhythms and patterns that can become stale and uninviting. We know the rules, we know what to do to feel and be better but we get caught in a circle. That is why I needed a view, a word, an energy vibe that empowers me to seek and experience life differently. Romancing it intrigues me.
I vow to find ways to romance myself. Looking for expressions from another time that I never got to be. Live my mission as to inspire romance in all work and connections. Romance my friends, the random toll guy, the stranger who offers a smile, the situations I am in and myself. I know I can find joy in any place, yet at this juncture, I want some fun and delight. I have an open canvas as big as in my 20s! Being so open can feel confusing. This word "Romance" conjures a whole other vibe to me that I must investigate and see how life can bring me pleasure through it.
Definition 2 of Romance is...a quality or feeling of mystery, excitement, and remoteness from everyday life. I like that I can be in the everyday, yet with romance find that sense of mystery and excitement. I want to feel that toward myself and my future, as a mystery to unlock rather than a problem, plan or issue to figure out. Knowing there is magic, synchronicity, delight in the smallest moments and in large events. I want to cultivate that in as many ways each day as I can. Remember the mystery of life as I have already lived. It is exciting, adventurous and filled with it all. Being on the edge of my seat not in panic, fear or confusion but in enthusiasm, awe and openness.
This is my intention and word for 2020. To find "Romance" in all ways. To remember it can be that way. Not that every minute is fluffy but we can all recircle back to feeling mystery vs, uncertainty. Enthusiasm rather than fear or panic. Optimism vs. pessimism. We can recatagorize or rework our views by coaxing them along a more fluid, enchanting path rather than allow the external or our patterns to run us. I want to play with this Romancing idea and see how it shifts and dances me. What that means or how i can flow with it beyond a lover to be the lover of all things.
I inspire you too perhaps to adopt such a thought in this new decade. We are all so serious. Things maybe are serious but we need to add the poetic path to draw us out of bed. Something that juices us up toward life and seeing the good, beautiful and funny. I really like this idea of romancing life and myself. A worthy word to live!
Victimhood on so many levels is part of being a woman. Even if you are not feeling the victim, there are many woman across the globe in this challenge. The opposite or cure to this victim energy is mothering. Being the mother to yourself. Taking care of yourself fully on all levels. The Divine Feminine. The mothering of your femininity.
I realize part of the path for woman is to sacrifice for a collaboration in family or career. We know innately the power of the group and our maturity to grow into putting ourselves in that group. We, too, get what we want. We are to be factored in. Often, I see woman play the victim here. After seeing the martyr role for decades, we begin by not including ourselves, our sparkly spirit in creating. It is like this in mothering and at times this is the right choice. As our kids age and we feel unfulfilled, it is now our time to learn to mother ourselves. We birth ourselves as what to be next. Mothering each other as well supports the release of the victim.
In menopause and peri menopause, we are called to look at our lives, release the anger, unspoken words, times we did not feel honored. As the group leaders we often aquiesce for peace and calm, this can mistakenly not value our needs, Our relationships shift. No longer based on loyalty and giving too much or receiving to much. We together are maturing into a world where we are mothering ourselves so we can feel filled.
I know many things are written on this. Self care is a buzz word. This has great purpose and why it is everywhere asking us how we do this. We need to continue to hear and apply this deeper to our lives. Further still, to nourish ourselves and do that first. This seems to go against many beliefs. We keep clearing them for that is why we feel unfulfilled. We are looking in the wrong places for nourishment. We must ground into our bodies knowing for ourselves what supports it. Emotionally, physically, mentally and spiritually.
Being in a masculine, yang business world, we are evolving to lead with the yin side. The receptive, the openness, the giving to ourselves to feel able in this production world. We give ourselves permission to do what we want. Only we can mother ourselves. Other woman can reflect that to us and support us to transmute the beliefs that we are not allowed to value ourselves first. We say we know this yet do we live this? Are we really our own best friend and using all things in our environment to support us in health, beauty, love, relationship, career, etc. Are we queen of our dominions?
Do we have friends and others that truly support us? Do we live in healthy ways, appreciating our body, our movement, our food nurturing? Do we take charge and say no when we don't want to? We are allowed to say "no" if in our heart, it will create problems for us and our well being. This permission, allowance, accepting our needs and filling them by being in charge of all is in our dominion! How lovely to be queen in our own kingdom! We mother that to be. We are the ones whom claim that.
I find myself at this time realizing that it is only me and my purpose, path and joy that is in order. My daughter older, I divorced, a contractor and teacher, I am in full charge. I feel this inside me. It is not an idea which at others times just a thinking or thought. Clearing that codependency that happens in marriage and as a mom. Later this is changed by the very nature of life. Now I am feeling a grounding into knowing, I create what works best for just me. Even if I was in family or relationship, this is my responsibility. I had not taken that approach fully.
Discerning by listening to yourself first. Not shorting yourself as I often did as the woman of the house. We feel good helping others, it is our nature to do this mothering. Are we mothering ourselves as well as we could? This I am grounding into. This rooted feeling that the earth supports me. I begin there and support me above all else. We feel the world, create the group environments and often get overwhelmed by this empathic mothering nature. It all mixes up and we don't really know ourselves. I feel at this time we are grounding into a greater understanding of our power.
We are the mothers of all things, the masters of this yin energy. Connecting to this truth and grounding to mother ourselves. Using this energy for others is already occurring. The call to mother ourselves and other woman. For us to collectively give ourselves permission and reflect that to each other. Allowing us to change the paradigm of victim by mothering ourselves and each other. Stepping into the Divine feminine in a clear way that is receiving support from each other and ourselves.
We learn by knowing ourselves and our emotions. As we learn how we feel and realize these are ours to manage, we mother ourselves. We learn to support and manage others, our environments, and the spaces we are at. We must give and receive, get nourishing and get away from things that don't inspire us to be more of ourselves. Love and understand this me first, then observe the energies from there. Keeping my needs clear and making sure I am in charge of that. Not at the whim of others or waiting.
Our root chakra must be stable. We must feel safe. It is our job to only be in safe places. Only the things that create safety for us. We sink in and ground this safety to be ourselves more fully. The great mother, the divine feminine takes care of herself then her kingdom. We run the flavor of the world so we must feel good so it all feels good. We can't fake it. Our energy runs our spaces so if we want joy and nourishment, we create this for ourselves. NO other.
Together we strengthen the mothering of ourselves and thus the world. We support the clearing of the victim archetype. We feel safe if we are mothered, cared for, in safe places. Maybe we weren't but we can mother ourselves to be there now. I like this! I allow this to reorder me. The Great Mother. The Gaia, The Blessed Mary, The Lakshmi, Isis. We are supported by this energy and need to apply it to ourselves. And this self love and nourishing......feels so good!
"The Mother Archetype: Excerpts from Carl Jung
The goddess, and especially the Mother of God, the Virgin, and Sophia. Mythology offers many variations of the mother archetype, the maiden in the myth of Demeter and Kore; or the mother who is also the beloved, as in the Cybele-Attis myth.
The archetype is often associated with things and places standing for fertility and fruitfulness: the cornucopia, a ploughed field, a garden.
Because of the protection it implies, the magic circle or mandala can be a form of mother archetype.
The qualities associated with it are maternal solicitude and sympathy; the magic authority of the female; the wisdom and spiritual exaltation that transcend reason; any helpful instinct or impulse; all that is benign, all that cherishes and sustains, that fosters growth and fertility.
The place of magic transformation and rebirth, together with the underworld and its inhabitants, are presided over by the mother." The Art Of Being a Woman!
I believe that we all are shining stars! We all have this most delicious spark in us! Prior to Christ they called it the Christos of the heart. Living the path of love has always been revered and why Jesus claimed the loving Christ ideal for us to see! I so loved that for it is less gender specific, The love of the Blessed Mother. We all have this shining in us somewhere no matter what name we give it.
For me it must be fun and imaginative. I was given a great inner world that comes from this star in side me. I see it as a beautiful twinkle in peoples eyes, light of their smile, the glassy look of tears weld up. I see it everywhere in people and am blessed this is my experience. Seeing the light in others is a magical life!
I inspire that we look for this sparkle in others. It is what love, living love, living in love of life, the eyes of a child are all about. When you seek this most kind expression of others, you find it. It is in all situations and circumstances. Somewhere some thing sparkles at some point. In dark scenes as in fun! If we chose to live in this more and more, we would find the word to appear so different. For it all is a light perspective.
Have a fabulous celebration of the Christ birth we have today. See if you too, can birth your twinkle more brightly. It is the call of the season and it is there. The gift, the presence and our present to participate in light ways and share them with others. That is my call and in it I find the Christ, the birth, the Christos, the Blessed Mother light filling my spirit!
Glory be to you today, you shining star!
How do you sense where you are in relation to the world? We can get caught up in the running after ourselves. Our mind filled with this and that, our emotions rolling about and our physical body rushing to keep up. Truly being aware of your state is a great way to keep health and well being at its best. It also supports our beauty for rushed is not a good look. We must check in with ourselves often, throughout our day, cultivate present awareness. At least with how we feel think, feel and move physically.
To ground our spirit and have a bright experience in life, we need to be present in our bodies. Know how we are in relationship with all things of the world. You need to check in and also have a community, friends or family who support you to get back on track. They support you to stay true to yourself often with a reflection that " hey you need to pay attention". This latest escapade of shingles rash or whatever was brewing inside me certainly painfully made me aware that I am not managing my relationship to my health well. A friend today told me I was a negative influence, WOW! So we must really reflect on how we are relating.
In crisis it is hard but then most growth comes from it. So here we learn to till ourselves and plant back into the earth by seeing how we relate to life. Our health. Our friendships and relationships. Our finances. Our job. Our hobbies. Our self care really. How are you relating to the world. Is it working for you? Are you bringing in your spark of inspiration and creativity or weighing down on things or neglecting them. This crisis is a rebirth and time to reorder how I relate. It can only be done by checking in with yourself.
Indeed the illness, the friend, the victimhood I feel is the point. We are only ever in the victim role when we have not mothered ourselves. The Mother Archetype the solution to the Victim Archetype. It is of the first chakra, our root. If we don't feel safe in the world and take care of our needs or feel we can, we will express the victim, thrown about by the world. Whether big or small ways, our role expressed and the solution is to tune in and mother ourselves. We are strong powerful nourishing natures and we are not doing that for ourselves so we will not feel good, powerful or delightful to be around, lost in our turmoil.
Fortunate I am, to have strong people and body ailments to see where this was playing out in me. I felt like a victim these past years. Trying to find my new ground in the world. My mom got sick and died and I was mothering another woman down the same road all at once. This mothering of self was absent and since ultimately we should do this for ourselves, I failed to find the time. When your mother dies, I am sure there is great reorder in your mothering understanding and you no longer have a mother. It is your responsibility to fulfill that position and it is clear then. Their is a shift in ancestorial and dynamic energies of a family and it reorders all. There is definitely a check in going on inwardly, I see it is time to be alone and refuel.
I thank my body and my friend for the frankness and cosmic 2 x 4 that landed here. There are times when a snap out of it is in how we learn. An intercurrent as we call it in homeopathy, You need a strong reset to remember what you are doing. It is all good despite the pain and sadness I grieved out. We have to forgive ourselves and like ourselves even if the whole world doesn't. That is mothering of the Divine Feminine, to love it all. We are all responsible in a new way as the energies shift, to care for ourselves first so we don't inflict on others. If you do, you forgive yourself, make it as right as you can and move forward learning deeper how to set yourself up. You can't be the bright spirit you are so it is shared with the world if you are not clear with you first.
The ending of the year, is the time to really see what it has brought, how you related or handled yourself and what you can preserve in learning from it and move into expansion. What limits are you allowing to be experienced? Are you doing all the things that will make you feel good? Are you aware of how you are relating to the world? I did not feel good dealing with, like many others, the care and illness of a family member. We all may have this as a right of passage here. I inspire to lift all others in this victim role as I see I am not one. Things are not working well for I am not caring properly for them. Not watering the plants.
So check in often with yourself to see what is it that is really going on. As my friend said, we all go through good and bad and it just means it is time to grow. Crisis brings growth and new ways of being. My shell of Lyn as a daughter, as a sister and as an individual must shift from these circumstances of life. I am very thankful for the sight, the role I am being that is certainly not the vibe of my highest gift. This is how we learn and part of my teachings. We get off balance to get on balance and there is no judgement just consequences. If there is then let it be cleared. Look at it. See how you judged yourself, others, the situation, the world, that you come out with new ideas of how your relate to it all.
Part of the astrological energies are to cleanse us of skins, limitations, misperceptions that are not serving us at this time. I am certainly in reorder as are so many others. To take these issues that hurt my heart, find blessing and learning in them is why they are here. It is not bad, It is the universe supporting me to find a path more aligned and claim the beliefs clearly that I hold true. It is all good and what growth, trial and error are about. We mess up. We go over the edge. We do stupid things. We are learning and all is allowed. I too, must allow myself the "I lost it", as I do others. We are always learning how to be better and it comes in all ways.
I knew I was losing steam and not mothering myself. But somewhere inside I could not find the way to do that with my work load. Relate to yourself first and see how you are relating to other things in the world. Are you helping or supporting? On one hand I was supporting my mother but on another i was not supporting myself or my friend. It is really beautiful learning when you can take responsibility and know you are off.
I inspire you to see where you are not relating to the world in the highest. I imagine it will bring you back as me to the role of mothering yourself. If we are inflicting on others we are flailing, so to speak and that is the victim. "I have no control, oh I am so sorry I hit you, I am whipping sparks into the world that are not settled." We are in a great shift and knowing that we let in the things our world is made up of. If it is not supporting you, clear it out. Otherwise you will continue to roll down the path out of control. Clarity, self love, self acceptance and forgiveness your biggest tools.
Despite the recent events, I feel good as I write. My direction clear. My inward review and greater learning to mother myself first is just supporting me to clear where the victim is playing out in life. Having authority over yourself through really checking in and knowing your state is the only control there is. If we feel out of control, we will start wobbling and put out energy that is not supportive, Feeling unsupported myself, how could I fully support others? Finding safety in my new world. It is a process.
As I am in respite with illness and the most ugly rash, I can only consider to count my blessings. I have been in great overwhelm that resulted in this great clearing of illness. It started to come out on Thanksgiving as I was at my best friends to spend time for the holiday. It was delightful to rest, be around a family I love and participate in the New England snow. 2 Feet of it! We got snowed in as my illness and shingles really flaired. I was scared that I was not ok. Blessed I was with my dear friend of level head and came home safely afterward and got the meds I needed.
As I chill, care for myself with soup, do the things that we don't ever get to in our busy lives, I realize how grateful I am. Even with this mess, pain and fear that comes with illness, I feel ok. I know people want you to be down and believe me I have cried and been sad with this illness. It is not so much the illness as the death of those around me and the strife that preceds and comes after. Yet there is always a blessing. I have another friend visiting for work and enjoying that company, My house if full of holiday color and lights, cozy and calm. I needed to just do nothing but relax, healing treatments, reading and I am even inspired to write today. I have healing megahertz sound on, candles lit, I am free form writing clearing my being of all levels. Taking this time to tune into me.
As woman, we often are called to so much caring. It is our nature. We feel good to care and help others for we are created in the divine feminine, the nourishing nature. We just haven't learned the full rule of nourishing ourselves before we serve. We serve, we feel good, we do the tasks of care as it is our nature. Often life calls us to do things and be in situations that we really don't want but our nature calls us there for we are born to serve and support all life. However, we need to do this in overflow. Not by using our energy alone. We miss this and when we find ourselves depleting ourselves, putting the needs of others over ourselves to the point of illness, we have lost the great way of the divine mother.
We all try to stay filled as we support. I did not quite get it. I knew I was going down, tired and overwhelmed but it seemed It was necessary to keep going. I do not get upset with myself for this is our nature. I do realize now for the going through it, that greater measures are necessary for myself to be whole and healed. I am grateful that I am learning, understanding my own limits and listening inward deeper. These messes, failures to know the nourishing law correctly are part of the process. The feminine wisdom has been lost and our generation seeking to find it. So I too learn, even though I know the laws, how to live them in greater ways with each attempt.
The divine feminine is the Mothering Principle of nourishment. We must mother ourselves. Not waiting for our mothers or thinking another will do this. We draw on the mothering of ourselves, from nature, from the divine ones, from the Blessed Mary, from where ever you find it. It is in us. We are it. We must cultivate and use this for ourselves, not just others. We all need support, rest, renewal and love. We can only do this for ourselves and know our limits and our beness that works to keep us healthy and participating.
I certainly participated beyond what I am able. This illness a clear sign for myself. I willingly accept it as my bodies way to say, Stop! Back up! Lay down! Be chill and peaceful. Fill your well. So I do. I learn yet again and grow and expand into this understanding of myself. It is our process here and so we learn and embody the health and beauty that we are. We must watch and listen as we do to others. We need to hear our needs and release any thoughts or beliefs that say it is wrong to say no and take care of ourselves first. This is part of our path of our generation and for all woman before. There is no super woman who can do it all. it just doesn't exist. We must know how to care for ourselves as we do for others. It is new and different for us all.
I sit in gratitude for this reflection and learning of myself. I became a minister to understand self ministry which I believe many woman need to learn. I step deeper into my learning of me. Of my own unique things I need to stay healthy and feel beautiful and stay connected. And if I can't, then I step away and go inside to learn how to feed and nourish myself on whatever level there is. It is the magnum opus of life. How do I mother me to be my best expression in a world of so many ideas and information? I learn by trial and error and I use the error to preserve the wisdom.
I am thankful. I am learning. I am finding greater ways to care for me and thus others. I look back on the year and wonder could I have done something better or been more clued in. My answer is it went as it went. Now I have time to see what I could of done to support myself. I am not sure there is an answer or this was just one of those times where it was important to get illness and clear my being. All is in divine order so I take what I can learn and use it forward. Illness is not bad or wrong, it is just a message from our body. If we don't listen, the body does what is necessary to support itself. Illness, healing crisis a way to talk to us.
It is nice to not participate in the stress of the holiday and experience the soothing of it. The beauty of it. The magic healing that is there if we notice. I am blessed to see it for the love that it is. Not caught up in keeping up with anyone but myself. Feeling good at whatever I do slowly, gracefully and in nourishing of myself. I will slowly gather my gifts, attend events, marry a set of friends and engage in the holiday on a level that serves me perfectly.
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Life comes at us with such force some times. Crisis, panic, sadness, challenge, all stress us to barely get through the day. This is normal. There is no landing where this experience of life is all blissful. Often we see things in cycles and we just must ride it out. In these times, finding joy, laughter, motivation and enthusiasm is a practice. There is a lesson in this of rest, rejuvenate and care for yourself so you can get going again.
Choice is always with us so we can rise up when we feel the intensity is too much. Self care, self compassion and self loving are the most important things we can do. Often another part of us wants to push, know, get out of the scene or deny the yuck we feel. This is far more detrimental than accepting the crap we are in. It is not lovely, there doesn't always have to be some reason or rational that the mind wants to have. Shit happens is the phrase and for good reason. We don't have to always claim fault, ridicule ourselves or berate ourselves for feeling bad and being unmotivated.
I feel like I have been under the shadow of death for a good part of the year. Watching two matriarchs go down as the circle of life has it. There is no mental rational that makes this feel good to participate in this. It is life. We all go through death and it is a heavy cloud about us. There is great pain and sadness in crisis. To be as healthy as you can through this, you have to acknowledge and accept that. You will not feel so full of joy and energy. In bad times we are tired, overwhelmed with emotion and we need a break of self care. It is the best path through it without getting further issues emotionally, physically or mentally.
Down time is not valued in our society and it is the very thing we need to recharge and reboot. It is also the way that we have vital energy when we are left fielded by life's experiences. The value and healing of self care is the only solution. Something we all know yet do very little of. It is as though we must pretend, buck up and get going again and that is not always our best way back into happier states. We have to go through the low vibe and ride to the other side. Otherwise the feelings, the low energy persists in the back ground until we allow it to pass through.
No one is excited to do this. No one wants to feel bad and experience sad, exhausted, overwhelmed emotions yet this life has plenty of it. To avoid is to allow it to persist. So hug yourself and go through the crap that you feel. Gently allowing this low energy to express for a moment by taking time to step out of life. There are so many options of self care. A bath. A walk in nature. A facial, a movie day. A nap. Self indulge in something that feeds you on the inside.
The rush through causes more illness and low states. Our body has it's limits and will fight us if we push it to far into the doing aspect when it is out of energy. So we call it a low time, go into caring for ourselves and know all changes. We will get through this hard moment as we have all the others. We can inspire rejuvenation and renewal by doing the self care. It is what you body, emotions and mind are calling for. It is the only healthy way through.
If we don't take time to rebalance when we have just gone through a crisis, we will add more issues of dis ease to ourselves. There is no way around it. As part of my reset through this dark year, I am nourishing myself in so many ways. In fact, I am not doing much else. I have stepped outside of doing anything other than the minimum. How long this will take and when it will end, I have no idea. I do know if I don't stop and regroup in ways nourishing. I will not be ready for anything good or even be able to revel in it fully with this exhaustion. I also realize that I can make bad choices when I push further as though I am fine.
We pretend so much of our lives rather than living them. Pretend we are "good" when we are not. It is not a healthy choice to live in vitality. It is normal to feel off at times. It is normal to be overwhelmed and angry that life offered us a not so delightful experience. To deny or pretend goes against our body wisdom and care. We have to see clearly, feel and find peace with the challenge of life. We learn, grow and appreciate the joy when we have been in the non joy. Don't fake yourself out or anyone. We are human and can only take so much til we get to needing a break from it all. Soothing ourselves back to enthusiasm.
Awareness of ourselves is a powerful elixir. Often minding our way through the world we go with no awareness of our body or feelings in a way that could support greater health and joy. We are not making up the world in our mind totally. We have many pieces to ourselves that we can be aware of and use as knowledge to get ourselves on track. Don't discredit your emotions, your body or your state. It is all you have to experience this plane. Give it some love, some attention and some tune it. That is multidimensional living. Rest, care and down time is part of it. You don't need to feel bad for noticing life sucks for the moment. You can gently care for yourself to renew through it. Knowing that your energy will replenish and greater joy is right around the corner.
This is how we get through the hard times. We notice, we feel, we sooth ourselves and we recover. Like the animal we are, we go sleep in our space and do gentle things until it has passed. Our mind needs to quiet down for a bit so the rest of us can catch up. It is the power of caring for you as you do all others. It is a powerful healing tool that is always available. We know it but more importantly, use it! It is your path back into an magnificent life!
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